Kenapa Hidupku Seperti Ini Novels & Stories

At ibang-iba na ang sitwasyon ngayon. I have him now. I've found a new reason to live now out of him. At gusto kong malaman niya 'yon. "Ito lang ang tanging dahilan kung bakit ginusto kong mabuhay mula pa man noon and I'm happy with that dahil hanggang ngayon, buhay pa'ko and I even get the chance to find the man that I thought---" "That you thought was impossible to find and that was that man na gusto mong patayin, tama ba'ko?"

I am someone worth having. I am someone people can rely on. I thought everything would be fine. Why am I the only one having these miseries? Can somebody explain why life seems so bad to me? 'Why didn't you help your mother? Did we raise you like that? You live the way you like, and now you are turning your back on those who gave birth to you? ' Damn. Did they even ask me how I felt? ''I didn't even wish to be born! Fuck...''

Do I have to go through all this? I am tired, my body and mind were exhausted. I’m tired of dealing with things that I don’t like. I'm tired of suffering that after all, I'm not at fault. Why me? I'm not as strong as others. Why is this happening to me? Why do I have to suffer over and over again? All I want is happiness and peace of mind and heart. Quiet life with my loved ones. With my husband.

Just why is my life like this? I manage to locate the wall. I sit on the cold floor and cuddle myself up while leaning against the wall as my tears find their way out of my eyes. For how long will I continue to suffer like this? For how long will I have to live in pain each day of my life?

He even threatened my life in pointing a sharp object in me! My god... What's happening to my life? Why... Why couldn't I live normally, like... Others. I'm dying to experience that and now! I don't really know what to think. Is he crazy? Or on drugs? Can't he see that I'm ugly... Why he did that to me…? Does it fun to make fun of me? Suddenly... My eyes got watered and my tears just rolled down my cheeks. All I want is to got home and lay on my bed...

I giggled bitterly. “I would have been living a normal and comfortable life, where no one would want to kill me, or any of this that is happening right now… And what’s worse is that I live with that guilt every single day. Sometimes, I feel like I’m cursed… like my life is filled with bad luck.”

I was still weeping and sobbing until my tears stopped falling. I hate my life. Why my life is so hard? Why is all this happening to me? I'm not vulnerable. I'm just helpless. I've always wanted to get out of this hell but how? I can't survive being alone. This thought made me more cry. I dried myself up fully after the bath changed into another pair of clothes and came out. I have lots of work to do. I can't waste my time. Otherwise, I will be scolded a lot.

he asked sitting back down in front of me I don't know exactly how to answer that question. "I don't even know, I feel lost, tired sometimes, I want to disappear sometimes, it feels like the world forgot you just like you forgot them, what is the need of having this life when you have no recollection of living it in the first place, a lot of unfamiliar faces and event, how it feels hearing things about you that you know are not true or are they, I don't even know, feels like I am naked for everyone to watch, the constant panic attack when somebody approaches you, debating whether you should talk to this person or not, or what if I was bad to this person, oh you were such a snob, oh you were

he asked, cocking his brows . "Well , how many times do I have to tell you? Yeah I did . Now leave me alone . " I shouted. I really don't know why . I was just annoyed . Until yesterday I was living a normal life . With a fresh start . Now I have gotten into new troubles . Why is teen life so fucking difficult? I stomped away . Well , everyone was shocked by my reaction . What did they think ? I would be head over heels for him ? Like every other girl in here .

I closed my eyes and sat down on the edge of my bed, still trying to figure out why my life became a hella bad one because of an accident. A freaking accident. If I wasn't clumsy then, maybe, I'll still have the peaceful life I had... before that guy came and wrecked it. I sighed, "Hell," I whispered and wiped my cheeks then stood up from my bed. What have I done? In my twenty-one years of existence, all I ever did is to study, work and go out with friends, nothing else. But God, why am I experiencing this kind of trouble? I know I'm not in the right place to ask God, but I just can't help it.