Memory Loss Novels & Stories

Natulala ako. "Ha?" So… hindi pala guni-guni ‘yung mga biglang nagfa-flash na alaala sa isip ko. Totoo pala. "Eh doc, paano ko maibabalik ang memorya ko? Psych consult ba? Gamot? O baka naman… operasyon?" Umiling siya. "Sa kasamaang palad, ang amnesia mo ay dahil sa physiological brain damage. Hindi na ito nababalik."

Tumango siya at nauna nang naglakad. My eyes lingered on her back as she slowly moved ahead. Pain, longing, fear, lahat sabay-sabay kumakain sa akin. I want her to remember me… but I don’t want her to remember the pain I caused. I’ve read about people with memory loss. The headaches, the torment, the fragments that bleed back into consciousness. Nakikita ko iyon kay Audrey ngayon. She doesn’t admit it, but I know. Ang pagkatulala niya, ang pagsakit ng ulo niya, maaaring dahil yun sa mga alaalang dahan dahan nang bumabalik.

Nagsimula na naman itong pagtripan siya. "Ano'ng madalas mong ginagawa noong 7 years old ka?" tanong na naman nito. Sumimangot siya. "Wala akong memories noong 7 years old ako. Sadyang mahina lang siguro ang hippocampus sa temporal lobe ko. Walang kakayahang mag-retain ng long term memories." "But you remember things back when you were 8 years old?" "Some of it. Not everything." "Initially, you are suffering a selective memory loss or your brain is trying to block some relevant information from your childhood because of trauma. Mag-schedule tayo ng cognitive tests, physical and neurological exams. I'll notify the multi-disciplinary team."

Hindi ko na malaman kung paano magsisimulang magtanong. “Dissociative amnesia is a condition that involves significant memory loss that's often linked to psychological factors, such as trauma or extreme stress. In your case, it seems that your mind has blocked out the memories from the past five years. Kaya ang natatandaan mo lang ay taong 2019 kahit 2024 na ngayon."

Napapikit ako ng mariin. That was why he’s having headaches everytime he remembers.. “This type of problems can also result to psychological problem. That was why he can’t recognize the time, the memory loss and the sudden surge of it coming back all in one to his mind severely damaged his mental health.. It may lead to depression since all the memories that will return first is the painful one..” Mahabang paliwanag ng doctor. “Is he changing emotions drastically?” Tumango ako bilang sagot.

Mabilis naman na lumapit sa akin ang mommy niya, “Uhm hija there’s been a problem, let me explain it outside?” Alanganin na sabi ng mommy niya. Sumunod ako sa mommy niya, “He’s having a temporary amnesia, due to the blood loss, hindi nag-pump ng maayos yung blood through his brain that causes the temporary memory loss. He can’t remember the past 3-4 years of his life.” Napalunok ako.

Dahil siya ang lalake na gusto ng dad mo para sa 'yo, 'di ba? Ikinatigil ko naman ang sumunod na narinig ko. Napaawang ng bahagya ang mga labi ko at napayuko. Did I tell him about what Caitlin told me? Kung ano ang dahilan ng pagsugod nito sa bahay ko? I... d-don't remember. Ang lala na ng short-term memory loss ko. Hindi ko na rin kasi maalala ang mga sinabi ko sa kaniya kagabi. Lalo at masyadong malalim rin ang naging usapan namin.