Never Beg To Be Loved の小説・ストーリー

Nanginginig ang kanyang labi habang sinusubukang ilabas ang bigat na matagal na niyang kinikimkim. “Scared na baka hindi ko kayanin. Baka hindi ko siya maalagaan nang tama, baka hindi ko siya mapalaki nang buo. I never experienced the love of a mother, Aiden,” she said, her voice trembling as she glanced at her husband’s eyes that were full of silent understanding. “I don’t know how to love as a mother should. I have no guide, no foundation—only memories filled with pain.”

“I hate my parents for always telling me what to do. I hate everyone. I was always being compared to you and I hated you for it, you were always better at most things than me in my parents’ eyes.” “I hate the fact that you were so obsessed with a man. I couldn’t understand you. But I always listen to your complaints, sa tuwing nasasaktan ka o sa tuwing kinikilig ka kahit na hindi ko gustong makinig. Palagi kong iniisip na sinasayang mo lang ang buhay mo dahil sa isang lalaki. You were pathetic and stupid. When he rejected you seven years ago, I thought you deserved it. And when you left the country, I was so happy. I could finally breathe.”

“May nararamdaman ka na kay Rana, at alam ko na isa sa pakiramdam na ‘yan na mahihirapan kang iwan siya. Nanggaling na ako sa ganiyang sitwasyon Beelzebub, sa oras na malaman ng iyong ama o kahit ni Escanor ang tungkol sa kaniy---“ “Masama ba para sa isang demonyo na tulad ko na gustuhin na sana naging normal na tao nalang ako?” putol ni Beelzebub kay Endemion na seryosong ikinatitig nito sa kaniya. “Kamahalan…”

Ayokong makipaglaban sa digmaan na alam ko namang sa umpisa talo na. "Venus, listen to me. I never loved anyone the way I love you! I become a better person because of you. I can't even fake my feelings- I can't fake my love for you, wife. So, don't even think na mahal ko pa s'ya. Ikaw ang mahal ko. Ikaw lang ang gusto ko at paulit-ulit na pipiliin ko kahit na ipagtabuyan mo pa ako- kahit na ayawan mo pa ako, Venus. Ikaw lang." Seryoso nitong saad at agad na hinawakan ang kamay ko.

Ang daya-daya, kung saka may minahal na ako, do'n na lang mawawala. All I can remember are the good things Bexan said to me. He was there when I needed help. He loved me even though I didn't asked for his love. He loved a disguting thing like me. Bexan is all what I'll ever need. He was the greatest gift from God besides from Daddy but how unfair he's now retrieved from me. "H-how... undeserving of love I am," I said in a low voice. I feel like drowning once again. I bet I look like shit from crying now that Bexan's gone.

"love you too." Tiningnan ko pa muna siya habang papalayo at saka ako lihim na napa ngiti. I never thought we'd be back again, true love indeed never dies. I hope you're the one, Max. I knew right from the very start, it'll always be you.

"Going 2 years, bebe." Wow. "And Topher doesn't know about it kaya ginagawa niya pa ring pang-asar sa akin na binasted ako ni Bryce. Hinahayaan ko na lang para maramdaman naman niyang hindi lang siya ang broken at hopeless romantic," ani Ate Grace at tumawa.

Malibog yan eh! Sumandal ako sa sasakyan niya, iniisip kung paano kaya kung magmakaawa akong wag na siyang mambabae at makuntento na lang sakin? What if I beg him to marry me already and stop these shits? Besides, he said he loves me! But I won't. I will never beg for his love anymore. If love is self-destruction, then why would I choose it? Love is never meant for that way.

he pleaded. Ngayong naririnig ko ang mga sinasabi niya, pakiramdam ko ay napakasama kong tao. Love should never be begged for. Ang hirap para sa akin na makitang ganito si Neal, umaasang mamahalin ko siya pagdating ng panahon.

Hindi ba dapat ipaglaban niya ako kahit papaano? But there are still questions that I need to find an answer too. Tulad nalang din ng kay Vince, hindi ba. Those three words 'I love you'. He loves me, pero paano? Bakit? He loves me but we are best friends, how did he love me? We have our promise, that whatever happened we will not fall. Bakit ba nangyayari 'to? Hindi pa tapos ‘yong kay daddy. Mr. Villanueva said that he would take care of it. He had informed me earlier through phone. Gusto n’ya raw na mabawasan ang mga iniisip ko.