Never Beg To Be Loved Novels & Stories

"I am too, Maya. We’ve come a long way. But there's still a lot to figure out, isn’t there?" Maya nodded, her lips curving into a slight smile. “We still have a long way to go, but I’m not afraid anymore. I used to think that love was all about timing, about finding the right moment. Pero ngayon, natutunan ko na love isn’t about waiting for the perfect time. It’s about choosing each other every day, no matter the circumstances.”

Napalingon lang ako doon nang may magsimulang tumugtog ng piano. I was familiar with the song being played. It was one of my favorites from Air Supply, Making Love Out of Nothing At All. At buong akala ko ay tutugtugin niya lang iyon, ngunit mali ako, at napanganga nang marinig ang malamig nyang boses ng kantahin niya ito. “And I’m never gonna tell you everything I’ve gotta tell you..” Inilapag ko ang bulaklak sa table at tumayo. Lumapit ako kung nasaan siya.

Isang halik na puno ng paghingi ng tawad, pangako, at pagmamahal. Dahan-dahan itong bumaba, sa kaniyang pisngi, at sa wakas, nagtagpo ang kanilang mga labi. Hindi niya alam kung paano siya napasabay, ngunit sa sandaling iyon, tila naglaho ang lahat ng alinlangan bumabalot sa kaniyang isipan. Malambing at banayad ang halik ni Darrius, ngunit sa likod nito, naroon ang pananabik ng taong matagal nang nangungulila. "I miss this...."

Nangingilid ang mga luha ay tiningala ko siya. He looks stunned after seeing my eyes glint with unshed tears. His jaw clenched but the anger in his eyes slowly faded. Napalitan iyon ng pagsusumamo. Looking defeated, huminga siya ng malalim at inilagay ang mukha sa gilid ng aking pisngi. "I have never ever begged my whole life baby. Even when my mom failed to give us attention back when we were kids, I never begged for her time. Even when I loved Keziah so much, I never begged for her to come back to me."

Tan pero sadyang umeksena ang babaeng 'yan sa buhay namin. "At lahat ng taong gustong sumira sa pagsasama namin ay kakasuhan ko. No abortion happened and no one will set a divorce. I won't accept any apologies to those who slander my wife and our marriage. I hope you all know how much I love my wife despite the long-distance relationship."

Ni hindi ko kayang tumingin ng diretso roon. “Anak, I’m so sorry.” Wika ni Dad. As you should be. “Don’t be, Dad.” Sagot ko na lamang. “Mauveine, please understand us.” “I’m trying my best, Mom.” Mahina kong tugon sa kanya. Sa totoo lang, I’ve never imagined myself that I’m walking down the aisle with my parents beside me, escorting me to the altar where the groom of whom I don’t love, waits for my arrival.

Ang daling bumigay sa kakambal. They do love each other so much, hindi lang nila maiwasan ang magbangayan. Maybe because I poured them with it the day I accepted everything. They're too precious for me that's why I kept them. I never regretted anything now. I buried the past deep down into the ground. Nasa anak ko na ngayon ang atensyon ko at wala na sa kahit na anong bagay.

Ang totoong nararamdaman ko kay Greige. Me: Bez, mayroon akong sasabihin sayo. Gin: Nako, don't tell me you're pregnant. (Inirapan ko siya kaagad.) Me: It's not just like that. Gin: Kidding. Ikaw, di man lang mabiro ngayon? Me: I love him na. Gin: Is it Zen? Me: No. Si Greige. Gin: OMG. Why? Me: Bigla ko na lang naramdaman na hindi ko namamalayan.

I never thought this would happen. “When I thought I’d lose you, I got so scared, baby. I got scared that I will never see you again and that you hate me…” he reached for my hand and looked at my face. “I know, this ain’t the typical love story you saw in movies, read in books… I am a fucking boring person and I’m so sorry for that already, baby… but I can assure you that even in my silence, my love for you will always scream the loudest…”

Nangilid ang luha niya bago sagutin. “Bev… anak…” garalgal na boses ng ina niya. “Why? Bakit mo nagawa ‘to?” “Mom, please… huwag mo kong iwan. Please, believe me. I didn’t want this to happen. I just… I just wanted love.” “Love? Anak, love doesn’t mean destroying others. You’re a doctor, Beverly! You swore to save lives, not take them! How could you forget that?”