Novel & Cerita Self-deceit

"You're a fraud, a liar, a manipulator. You've spent the entire day pretending to be something you're not. You're a charlatan, a con artist, a fake." Damon, his face pale, his eyes wide with fear, stared at her, his silence a testament to the truth of her words. He knew that he had been playing a role, a role that was necessary, a role that was painful. But he also knew that he was a fraud, a liar, a manipulator. He had been caught in his own web of lies, his carefully constructed facade crumbling beneath the weight of his own deceit.

He forced himself to forget them again, and now he's having a hard time. Wala siyang ibang masisi kung hindi ang sarili. He let himself in this situation. Kahit na sabihin ni Hera sa kaniya na kasalanan nito iyon ay hinding-hindi niya ito sisisihin. Hera might not now but he's crazy. Deep inside him lurks the devil in himself. Pati siya ay takot din sa kaniyang sarili at sa kayang gawin nito. He just doesn't know why but he has another identity he has been trying to suppress for so long. And now, he's starting to feel it again.

Kay buti Mo nga naman, O Panginoon. "Hindi naman ibig sabihin na hindi tayo nagpatuloy ay nawala na ang ating debosyon. Alam ng Diyos ang nilalaman ng ating mga puso, at ang pinakamahalagang debosyon ay ang pagpapakatotoo—sa ating sarili at sa mga taong nasa paligid natin. Hindi iyon nangangailangan ng posisyon o tungkulin, kundi ng taos-pusong pananampalataya."

Hindi ko mapigilang magtaas ng boses dahil sa sobrang takot na nararamdaman ko. May nag-utos ba sa kaniya na saktan niya ang sarili niya? Dahan-dahan siyang umupo sa lapag ngunit napangiwi pa siya dahil marahil sa sakit. “I-I do it myself, wife…” he muttered. “I am punishing myself for the sins that I committed. I deserve this.” “What?! Are you out of your mind?! Pwede kang mamatay sa ginagawa mo na ‘yan!”

“You know what it means to be decent, yes? You’re a genius. Define that for yourself. Para sa ‘kin, mas mabuti nang decent ka sa sarili mo at sa iba kaysa mabuhay ka nang may galit sa sarili mo at sa mundo. Ang lungkot-lungkot siguro ng gano'ng buhay, 'no...” She saw how his expression changed. Her lips parted when she realized what she said. Che cazzo! Hindi na naman siya nag-iingat sa mga lumalabas sa bibig niya. Nawawala na naman ang alter ego niyang si Nella! Elegant and classy lang siya dapat kasi pinagkasundo na siya ng pamilya niya rito! Palihim niyang tinampal ang kaniyang labi. Her face wrinkled because of embarrassment and guilt.

This dangerous game of high-stakes deception is far from over, and I will gladly play the role of the foolish victim until the exact second I can finally pull the trigger of my absolute revenge. Pag-akyat ko sa dulo ng hagdan ay agad kong hinawakan ang aking mukha upang pilitin ang sarili ko na magmukhang kalmado at masaya. I forced all the intense hatred deep down into my soul, breathing heavily to ensure that the cold predator inside me would remain completely hidden behind my usual warm demeanor. Binuksan ko ang pinto ng aming silid nang may kasamang malambing na tinig, seeing her instantly look up from her vanity mirror with a sweet, deceiving smile that almost looked identical to my rea

To someone so selfish like me. And now here I am, facing all my consequences for being selfish in life. Getting hurt physically and secretly suffering mentally because of my health. This karma is really something, I only made a mistake once in my life but the punishment was so terrible and unacceptable, grabe kamatayan? Hindi ba't parang sobra naman ata 'yun, Lord? O hindi pa 'yun sapat? Baka may gusto pang dumagdag sa lahat ng hinanakit ko, huwag kayong mahiya, saktan niyo lang ako. Last niyo na rin naman 'tong magagawa sa'kin, kaya lubos-lubusin niyo na.

Ngunit may katotohanan sa likod ng kanyang halong manipulative na tono, at alam kong hindi ko puwedeng balewalain. “Half-truth,” bulong ko sa sarili. Ramdam ko ang galit at kaba na sabay na umaalimpuyong sa loob ko. “Laging ganito si Natasha… Hindi mo malalaman kung saan nagtatapos ang manipulasiyon at nagsisimula ang katotohanan.”

Huminga ng malalim si Sheen at malamlam ang matang tumingin sakaniya. "Alma a person with such behavior I would call being "self-conscious" why? Because a person who is afraid of other things is very normal to us because we just avoid something that we think is not good for ourselves. We only become aggressive because there are only things that come into our minds that push us to take action such as avoiding or hurting others because maybe to show them that we don't like something or someone. A person cannot be called unconscious in what they do if they know what they are going to do is wrong, right? But maybe there are such scenarios in people's minds where they seem to be confused to make

Na dapat ay walang halong kasinungalingan ang sasabihin ko. I didn't say any words. Pakiramdam ko ay patas lang kami. Hindi ko sinabi sa kaniya na pinagbabawalan na ako ng Mommy niya, at hindi niya naman sinabi na ayaw pala sa akin ng Mommy niya! Actually, his deception was worse than mine, because from the start he had made me believe that his mother was willing to help willingly, when the truth was completely different. "Immanuel, you're not doing well in the company. Alam 'yan ng babaeng 'yan!"