Self-deceit Novels & Stories

He was attempting to dupe my father by claiming that he had been betrayed and that his shares had been illegally transferred to my dad's shares, when in fact he was the one who waged for his money in this company due to his gambling addiction. "I will never, ever let you do what you did to my father, Uncle Vien, not on my watch, not in my era." sabi ko at lumapi sa table kung nasaan siya ngayon. Tumayo siya at inayos niya ang kanyang damit.

Hinaplos ko ang likod nito upang kumalma siya dahil bakas pa rin sa sobrang galit at gigil sa kanyang mukha. "Sobrang palpak ko talaga," he hissed while shaking his head, expressing his disappointment to himself. I felt bad seeing him blaming, na para bang nakikita niya sa kanyang sarili na sobrang tanga niya pagdating sa mundong ito. "Ginagawa ko naman lahat ah, ang bati ko namang tao para maging isang kriminal ngunit dahil lamang sa nagpalamon ako sa isang temptasyon na hindi ko akalaing magiging kriminal pala ako sa katapusan."

May isang uri ng kapangitan sa ugali ng tao, ang isipin na palaging tama ang sariling pananaw, at kahit na imoral ang sariling gawain, gustong-gusto pa ring umasta na parang santo para lang manghusga ng iba. Ang ganitong dalawang pamantayan (double standard) ay sumisira sa pagiging patas at sa hustisya. Ito ang dahilan kung bakit ang ugnayan ng mga tao ay nagiging magulo, puno ng bigat, at komplikado.

I exclaimed back trying to get the bitches away from me when they slightly pushes me. "Oy. Stop being hypocrite and two-faced. Everyone knows na nga what you did you'll going to deny it pa." I sarcastically laughed. "Ya." I said in warning tone. I slightly pushed Annie's shoulder. "Are you making an act right now para sa akin mapunta ang blame?" The bitches laughed. "Stop being hypocrite will you? All the proofs are pointing you out. OMG! A lifetime cheater and hypocrite." "Ya. Annie, watch your words. You might hurt yourself instead," I said. "Stop insulting yourself," I added

Nilingon ko s'ya muli para lang makita ang kulay tsokolate n'yang mata na seryosong nakatingin sa 'kin. "Doctor, people like me, we don't really change. We change our persona to deceive others but not because we wanted to change ourselves to become better. We don't get better, we become more evil." May talim at diin sa bawat salitang sinabi n'ya. Napaawang ang labi ko ng dahil don. He openly admits that he isn't capable of changing but I think that's quite impossible...ngayon n'ya lang 'yan nasasabi.

he said. “H-Hindi ko alam. Naguguluhan ako sa sarili ko. I have been pushing him away when in fact I wanted to make him mine alone. I hate the way he makes me happy despite of the pain we both felt in the past. I hate him for forgiving me, I hate him for cheating on me. But..” Nanlaki ang mga mat ani Axel. “B-But what?” tila may pagkasabik niya’ng tanong. “I think…I-I think I have fallen, again.”

"At hindi kita titigilan hanggang hindi ko nalalaman ang totoo." Nanatili siyang tahimik, ngunit sa loob-loob niya, alam niyang nagsimula na ang isang laban na hindi na niya maaaring takasan. Isang laban na maaaring magbalik ng lahat ng sakit, lahat ng alaala, at lahat ng damdaming inakala niyang matagal nang namatay. Ang tanong—handa ba siyang harapin ang lahat ng ito?

Sinungaling ako kung sasabihin kong hindi ako apektado ng ganung emosyon ngunit mas nangingibabaw sakin ang pagpapanggap dahil sinanay ko ang sarili ko sa ganung bagay, actually sanay naman talaga ako noon dahil sa trato ni Daddy sakin but when I let him in, the barrier I built around me suddenly collapsed and my body, heart and soul accepted Neon without hesitations which was a mistake. "Stop blaming me Neon." Napapailing na saad ko. "Ayan lang ba talaga ang kaya mong gawen? Gano ba kataas yang pride mo at hindi mo maamin sa sarili mong ikaw ang may kasalanan kaya wala ka sa buhay niya sa apat na taon na yon."

"I can't assure you that I will be able to-" "No, my dear. Huwag mo kasing pangunahan ang mga bagay-bagay. The more you doubt about yourself, the more you fail. So better say 'Kaya ko'. Okay?" Na-pokus ang atensiyon ko sa kaniya. Pinangaralan na ako ng kapatid kong walang binatbat ang talino mula sa akin. Well, that's not the matter from the first place. Pretending is a sin. It's not just about fooling others but fooling one's self too. Ayaw kong manloko at mas ayaw kong lokohin ang sarili ko.

"Playing alone made me see how my enemy will act towards my action." "Did you ever win against yourself?" That made me stop for a while before moving my knight. "I never won against myself. It's hard defeating myself, Kit. Kahit kailan. Kahit ilang beses kong subukan hindi ko matalo ang sarili ko. Because if I won over myself you'll never see me here playing. Yourself is the most difficult enemy, Kit. Your mind will be screaming no, but deep inside yourself you know it's yes and you'll never ever win over your desires. It'll just make your mind and everything in chaos." He just stared at me. Puzzled. "Desires is like a virus in our system, Kit. There are two types of desires. One that can de