I Survived Mga Nobela at Kwento

Pero ngayon, one year later, sobrang iba na ng lahat. The woman in that photo was not the woman I came home to every night. Iyong Vanessa noon was broken. Scared. Unsure of everything. Pero ang Vanessa na kilala ko ngayon? She was strong. Brave. Resilient. She survived Gerald. She survived the accident. She survived her father’s death. Nalampasan niya ang lahat ng iyon at nanatili pa ring matatag. And if she was carrying my child, I would make sure she never had to survive anything alone ever again.

Nung una masaya pa ako pero ngayon nakakapagod pala simula nung iniire at mailabas ko ang kambal walang araw na hindi ko minura at pinatay si Cassius sa isip ko. Doon ko nalaman hindi pala biro ang maging ina lalo na kung magisa ka lang at dalawa ang inaalagaan mo halos mapabayaan ko na ang sarili ko dahil sa parang nananadya pa ang dalawa at salitan lagi sa pagiyak. At hindi lang doon natatapos ang problema, dahil ang mahal mahal ng gastusin napakadaming bibilhin kung minsan nga ay naiiyak nalang ako sa kawalan dahil sa labis na frustration.

MIA THYREES Gising na ang aking diwa pero nakasara pa ang talukap ng aking mga mata. Humihinga pa ako, ibig sabihin buhay pa ako! Hayyy salamat. I survive! Nang imulat ko ang aking mga mata ay napagtanto kong nasa loob ako ng aking silid. Sino kaya ang nag-uwi sa akin dito sa mansiyon? Nakaramdam ako ng kaunting kirot sa aking kanang kamay, pagkatingin ko’y napagtanto kong may nakakabit palang hep-lock IV sa akin. Mula sa pagkakahiga ay dahan dahan akong umupo. Ang bigat ng pakiramda ko, kulang pa ako sa pahinga.

Hindi ko siguro alam kung sa’n ako pupulutin. I fight for them. Kung dati nga ay nakaya kong lumaban mag-isa ngayon pa ba ako susuko. Kaya naman ay unti-unti akong gumagaling. After a year a half. I'm now fully recovered. I survived. Thankfully my stroke is not a long-term or lifelong disability. I survived because the fire inside me burn brighter than the fire around me.

“Then sit. You have bruises and cuts all over your legs.” Nanginginig ang daliri ko habang inaayos ko yung buckle ng heels. Umupo ako, at sinimulan niyang takpan ng makeup yung mga pasa at sugat. I need to survive this. Even if I lose everything that makes me human… even if I break on the inside beyond repair, I will survive this. I’ll survive now, and cry later. I’m smarter than this. I’m not who they think I am. I can endure beatings, pain, torture, whatever they throw at me because I refuse to be reduced to what they assume I am.

Pero consistent. Maybe, just maybe... I could learn how to survive this. And maybe, just maybe... I could learn how to stay.

RED POV Nauna na akong umuwi dahil nagpaiwan si Ava sa bahay ng kaibigan niya. Napatingin ako sa aking phone habang nagmamaneho ng sasakyan dahil tumunog ito. Mabilis ko namang pinindot ang Bluetooth headset ko upang masagot ang tawag. “Yes,” sambit ko habang nakikinig sa kabilang linya. “Red,”

Somehow, I developed a unlikeable atmosphere with this teacher. Napalunok naman ito dahil sa mga sinabi ko. "Then how can you explained you are still alive?" I continued to smile. "Simple. Ang masamang damo, di madaling mamatay. But to satisfy your curiosity, i know you are all curious why I am still alive because I was not killed, the moment I was stabbed by King Laurent, my existence in your world was fading and slowly I was sent back to earth but in a critical condition. I don't know how did I survive but I woke up one day and breathing and slowly recovering. But I am no longer here in Pandora but on Earth. I cannot explain why I did not die because that is also a question to me. But mayb

Pero ngayon, one year later, sobrang iba na ng lahat. The woman in that photo was not the woman I came home to every night. Iyong Vanessa noon was broken. Scared. Unsure of everything. Pero ang Vanessa na kilala ko ngayon? She was strong. Brave. Resilient. She survived Gerald. She survived the accident. She survived her father’s death. Nalampasan niya ang lahat ng iyon at nanatili pa ring matatag. And if she was carrying my child, I would make sure she never had to survive anything alone ever again.

Inagaw ko ang remote kay Kalix upang ilipat sa ibang channel ang TV. Nanginginig ang aking mga kamay nang ibalik ko sa kaniya ang remote. Umupo ako at pinulot ang basag na bowl. Para akong binuhosan ng malamig na tubig. Nanlalamig ako nang nakita ko ulit siya makalipas ang ilang taon. Ang buong akala ko ay wala na siya. Hindi siya naka-survive sa sunog. Pero nang nakita ko siya sa TV ngayon, parang walang nangyari. He survived. He's living his life to the fullest. Bakit wala akong nabasang balita tungkolnsa kaniya? Para na akong baliw sa kahihintay ng balita.