Novel & Cerita Shame On Me Meaning

I am fucking ashamed of myself! Patuloy pa rin siya sa pagkatatok ng pinto pero hindi ko pa rin siya hinaharap. I can feel my cheeks burning and I know that I look like a burning a tomato right now! Huminga ako nang malalim at hindi na lamang siya pinansin. Pumasok ako sa bathroom na parang kalamdo lamang kahit na naghuhuramentado na ang aking puso sa pagtibok.

It's not. I was never okay with belittling. Hindi kailanman naging maayos sa akin ang tingnan ng mababa, ayaw ko ng ganoon. I don't want people to see me low, even if I'm not up high. I just want to be seen… as a regular and normal person. Living, and having the best time of life without needing to be ashamed of what people might think about me. I have always wanted to be free. From… judgement and all that matters.

It’s scary, painful, and embarrassing. Because what do you mean someone was able to see her without any clothes on? Not to mention he held it, right? Nakaka-awkward at nakakahiya. But well, it already happened. Ang tanging magagawa niya na lamang ngayon ay ang tibayan ang kanyang sikmura at lunukin ang guilt na nararamdaman niya para sa kanyang mga magulang.

Ang galing niya talagang gumawa ng rason makapag-inom lang. Though pumayag ang lahat. "I'm always by your side, Meeri," hayag ni Mom at niyakap ako kaya naman niyakap ko rin siya. "I know, Mom," bulong ko at mapait na ngumiti. "And I'm sorry for bringing shame into our family." "No, no, baby, it's not your fault." Inalo ako nito pero hindi na ako muling umimik. Kahit na itanggi niya, talagang kasalanan ko ito. I expected this to happen but... I can't handle the shame especially that I'm dragging down my family name.