There's More To Life Mga Nobela at Kwento

So I want to treat my cancer? Of cource yes, I want to but I can't. Kaya sa ngayon ang kaya ko lang gawin ay namnamin lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko. I don't care if I die alone in this small house. I don't care. Tanggap ko na ang lahat. May God give me soon the second life that I really dreamt of. The life with no pain, worries and sadness. This is life. I am living not to get stucked but to continue.

Sana tangayin na lamang ng hangin ang aking sakit na nararamdaman. Oh how I wish to live a simple life. Dapat pala nangarap na lang akong maging magsasaka. Ang saya siguro mamuhay ng simple. Tamang tanim lang tapos aanihin. Sa mundo ngayon, napakaraming komplikasyon. Sa sobrang bilis ng pagtakbo ng oras, tipong hindi ka na makahinga, hindi mo na mamamalayan na matanda ka na pala. That's reality. We can't predict how long we're going to live.

Nakangiti kong pinagmasdan ang paligid at muling namangha kung gaano ito kaganda. If only living can be free of problems. If only living isn’t unfair. If only living will not knock you down on your knees. Then I would wish to live forever. The world is beautiful, not gonna lie. And you can only have the chance to experience its beauty if you live. But as you live, life can torment you too.

Nakadalawang hakbang palang ako nang maalala kong may gusto pa pala akong sabihin dito. "One more thing, it's okay to be rude sometimes, but don't forget to listen to what your heart really wants to say. Don't go too far and lose yourself. Having many enemies or harboring anger in your heart is not a healthy lifestyle. I am speaking from my experience, so trust me."

Hindi ko man maintindihan ang ibig niyang sabihin ay nararamdaman kong malaki ang pinaghuhugutan niya na para bang malaki ang kaniyang problema. Isa lang ang naintindihan ko, life is just like a game. Hindi mo alam kung kailan ka mawawala sa mundo o kung kailan mawawala ang mga taong mahal mo sa mundo dahil hindi natin hawak ang mga buhay natin kaya walang kasiguraduhan kung kailan tayo mawawala.

Nakahiligan kong makinig sa kwento at masasabi ng ibang tao about stuffs lalong-lalo na sa buhay. You know, I really thought I have my whole life figured out at twenty. Na kailangan ko lang makapagtapos ng pag-aaral, find myself a decent job, and do good just so I could give my family a comfortable life. Now that I achieved all of it, I don't know what comes after. Maybe, just maybe I was really able to figure out a part of my life but not fully. There are still gaps which I need to fill in. Hindi ko naman sinasabing sa love life pero parang gano'n na rin.

I realized how cruel the world is. Hindi ibigsabihin na matalino at nag-aaral ay may pagkakataon na manguna sa klase. Hindi ibigsabihin na nagsusumikap ka't halos mabali na ang buto sa pagtatrabaho ay mabilis na mabibigyan ng promotion. Hindi ibigsabihin na determinado ka na matuto ay bubukas ang pinto ng maraming oportunismo. Life is different. It's far from perfect. It will never be perfect. It is full of flaws, disappointment, betrayal, pain, and failure. It's not always sunny.

Ngumiti siya sa dalaga at hinayaang tingnan nito ang magazine. “Kaya naman always remember .You're strong, not lucky. Gustuhin mo mang tapusin ang buhay mo, I know, deep down, you wanted to fight it. You wanted to live that's why you're still alive. Suicide is not the answer to every problem in the world. No one should take their own life, because life is precious, life is a gift

Pero nawawalan ako ng pag-asa, parang walang saysay 'yong buhay mo kapag may isang bagay na nawala sa'yo na malaki ang parte nito sa pagkatao mo. Pero biglang naisip ko na huwag ganon, hindi naman kailangang huminto kang mabuhay kasi wala na siya sa buhay mo. Tuloy pa rin dapat ang buhay, mag-aral ka ng mabuti, abutin mo mga pangarap mo. Lovelife? Darating din yan sa tamang panahon.

“Why?” Diretso siyang tumingin. “Huwag mo nang isipin yung tungkol sa ating dalawa…” Ngumiti si Mike. “I’m not doing anything wrong. Just buying vegetables with you isn’t against the law.” Lumapit siya sa pinto at huminga nang malalim. “Life is short, Melinda. When we’re young, we live for our parents. As adults, we live for our children. Now that we’re older, maybe… we should live for ourselves, even just once.”