"What would you do for the people you love?" When her sister and her sister's husband can't have a child due to her sister's health condition, the younger sister is asked to carry their baby for them. It seems like an impossible choice, pero wala siyang ibang magawa kundi sundin ito, bilang kabayaran sa ginawa ng ate niya. As the pregnancy goes on, she begins to question how much she can truly give up. Kaya niya bang dalhin ang bigat ng sakripisyong ito? Paano naman ang sarili niya? What would you feel if you will be the surrogate mother of your sister and her husband?
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"Anak, kung mahal mo ang kapatid mo, gawin mo 'to!" sigaw ni Papa. "Anak, hindi ka na dapat pinakiusapan pa! Kami na ang nagsasabi, gawin mo na 'yan para sa ate mo!" dagdag pa ni Mama, halos nanginginig ang boses niya sa galit at pagmamakaawa. I sat there quietly with my hands cold and trembling under the table. I couldn't say a word. Deep inside, I wanted to scream. I wanted to fight back. But what could I really do? Tahimik akong nakatingin sa kanila. Sa isang parte ng puso ko, gusto ko silang maintindihan. Pero sa mas malaking parte, ramdam ko yung bigat. Hindi ko naman ginusto 'to. Pero bakit parang ako pa ang may kasalanan kung hindi ako pumayag? Across the table, I saw my sister. Umiiyak siya, hindi na niya maitago yung lungkot at takot niya. Katabi niya ang asawa niya, tahimik din ito. Hindi ako makatingin nang diretso sa kanya. There was a knot in my stomach that refused to loosen up. "Bata ka pa. Kakayanin mo 'yan," sabi ni Papa, ang tono niya parang wala na akong ibang choice kundi sundin sila. "Para kay Ate mo 'to. Para sa pamilya natin," sambit ni Mama, halos nagmamakaawa na. I pressed my lips tightly, feeling like the walls were closing in on me. My chest was heaavy. I didn't know if I wanted to cry or shout. Is this really my life now? That my body isn't even mine anymore? Sa lahat ng pwede nilang ihingi sa'kin, bakit ito pa? Bakit kailangan sa ganitong paraan? Their voices blended with the pounding of my heart. Ang dami kong gustong itanong, pero hindi ko masabi. Gusto kong magalit, pero parang tinanggalan na nila ako ng karapatan. They want me to carry a child. A child that is not even mine to begin with. A child... for my sister and her husband. Pero kaya ko ba? Kaya ko ba ang responsibilidad na 'yon? Kaya ko bang mabuhay habang dala-dala ang ganitong klase ng bigat? Hindi ko alam.At sa gabing ito, habang nakaupo ako sa gitna ng mga taong tinatawag kong pamilya, pakiramdam ko ako ang pinaka-mag-isa sa buong mundo.
Tahimik ang lahat sa mesa, pero ako? I feel like my mind is about to explode. I was trying to read everyone's faces but I couldn't. My sister was sitting there, her face pale and eyes swollen from crying. Her hands were tightly holding each other. Beside her, her husband sat silently, not saying a word. The only sound in the room was the soft clink of utensils and the quiet whispers that only I could hear in my head. My parents were on the other side of the table, looking at me like I was supposed to have an answer. But I didn't. I didn't have any answers. My father's face was stern, his eyes demanding. "Kailangan mong pag-isipan 'to. Hindi mo pwedeng iwasan 'yung hiling ng kapatid mo." My mother's voice was softer, but still firm. "Alam namin na mahirap, pero ikaw lang ang tanging gusto ng ate mo na makatulong sa kanya. Kunin mo to, para na rin makabawi sa kanya," I wanted to scream. To tell them I didn't want to do this. Why was I even here? Why me? I looked at my sister again. She was so broken, so desperate, and I could feel her pain even from here. I knew how much she wanted this, how much she longed for a child. I knew she loved me, and I loved her too. But this? This wasn't something I ever imagined myself doing. I wanted to tell her, "I can't. I just can't." But the words wouldn't come out. I looked at my brother-in-law. He was still quiet, not saying anything. I couldn't read him either. Was he even okay with this? Was he just waiting for me to say yes? Was I really the only one they could turn to? Seraphina's povInakay ako ng nurse papunta sa isang maliit na kwarto. Hindi ko kayang makipagchikahan habang wala pa akong tulog at gutom pa 'ko."Okay, Miss Seraphina. I'll just draw your blood, is that okay?""Sure. Go ahead. Do whatever you must. Take it all, even my will to live."Napatingin siya sakin. Hindi ko alam kung na-offend ba siya o sanay na siyang may baliw na pasyente.Inilabas niya ang syringe at alcohol, at maya-maya pa'y naramdaman ko na ang malamig na cotton sa braso ko. Sinundan ito ng karayom. "Done," sabi niya, tapos iniabot sa isa pang staff para ibigay raw kay Doc.Ayun na, kaya balik na naman ako sa consultation room. Hindi pa ako nakakaupo ng maayos ay nagsimula na agad si Doctor Serious."We'll be testing your hormone levels today, estrogen, LH, progesterone, AMH, just to evaluate if your body is responding naturally. The results will help us determine your dosage for the stimulation phase.""Mhmm," sagot ko habang nag-aadju
Seraphina's povNakahiga na ako ngayon sa kama ng clinic. Literal with my legs bent, sheet over my lower body, habang si Doc ay abalang inaayos yung parang alien wand na balak nyang ipasok sakin. "Ready ka na?" tanong ni Doc."Ganyan ka ba talaga? Walang foreplay?" sagot ko agad, sabay irap. "Tsaka ano yan? Vibrator?" Tiningnan lang niya ako, "Miss Seraphina, this is a medical procedure. Not masturbation."Napakagat ako sa labi para hindi matawa. Syempre hindi ko rin alam kung paano ko naisip pasukan ng green joke ang sitwasyon na 'to. Pero come on. I mean, may tao bang hindi ma-ooff sa fact na may probe na ipapasok sayo? Wala kang pants? Tapos stranger pa 'yung tao? Well, technically not a stranger, pero still."Please, lie back." sabi nito kaya napalunok ako. Ang lalim ng boses niya dun! "D-doc?" tanong ko. "I said lie back." Hindi ko na kaya 'tong kahihiyan. Para akong mauubusan ng hangin. Sinunod ko yung utos niya at huminga ng
Seraphina's povNasa clinic na ako ngayon. At sa wakas, kung hindi lang ako tinext ng ate ko ng sunod-sunod at tinawagan pa ng tatlong beses, hindi talaga ako pupunta.Pag-upo ko sa loob ng consultation room, ayan na siya. The Doctor. In full white coat glory, looking all clean, calm, and collected parang galing sa sariling commercial ng vitamins.Ako? Buhaghag ang buhok. Wala akong makeup, yung damit ko parang ginamit panghampas ng alon. Ewan. Di ko alam kung bakit dumeretso ako dito galing sa bar kagabi. Pero sige. Ayan na eh.Nakita ko ang paraan ng tingin niya sa'kin. Yung tipong sinasabi ng mga mata niya na, "This girl is a mess." Nakaupo siya nang maayos habang binuksan ang folder na mukhang nagpapabigat ng katotohanan sa mundong 'to."Alright, Seraphina. This is going to be your first official consultation," aniya. "So let me walk you through the full IUI and surrogacy process. Since you've agreed to be the biological mother and the one t
Frown's povBitbit ko si Seraphina habang palabas kami ng bar. She's light, but man, the weight of whatever she's carrying inside? That's something else.I looked down at her, eyes closed, lips slightly parted, cheeks a little red, probably from the alcohol and the stress of life decisions she shouldn't even be dealing with at her age."She"s a mess," I whispered to myself, chuckling. "But she's my mess."Her head leaned slightly against my chest as I carefully adjusted her in my arms.Damn, girl. Why do you always end up in this state and still look so... ethereal?I sighed, shaking my head as I walked toward my motorcycle. "I swear, if I didn't know any better, I'd think the universe just threw you into my life para patayin ako."I placed her helmet on, gently adjusting the strap so it wouldn’t mess with her hair too much. Ang arte kasi ni Sera sa buhok. Even half-drunk, she'd throw a fit if I tangled it. Sampalin ko to eh. She shifted a little, mumblin
I slung my bag over my shoulder, ready to head out when suddenly, I heard a soft voice calling from behind me."Sera…"I turned around, and there she was, my sister, standing there looking at me with that look I couldn't quite decipher. Her face was a mix of gratitude and something else I couldn't put my finger on.She smiled faintly before speaking. "Thank you. I know this isn't easy for you, but I really appreciate it. You’re doing so much for us."I simply nodded. "Yeah... sure."Then, I gave her a small smile, more out of habit than anything else. I didn't know what to say. How could I explain that this wasn't just for her? That, in the end, I was doing this for me too? Or maybe, for the future I was trying to escape.With that, I turned around and walked away, leaving my sister standing there. I needed space, air, time to just breathe. As soon as I stepped out of the house, I felt the weight lift off my shoulders, even just for a moment.I was fin
Seraphina's povUmupo ako sa mahabang sofa, katapat nila. Tahimik ang paligid, pero parang ang ingay ng isip ko. They were all talking, agreeing, na itutuloy na namin ang surrogacy.Ako?Nakangiti lang at tumango-tango. Pero sa loob-loob ko, ang tanging sigurado lang ay ito na ang magiging dahilan para makaalis ako. Pagkatapos ko siyang ipanganak, ang batang iyon ay aalis na ako. Sa bahay na 'to. Sa bansang 'to. Sa lahat.Naputol ang sariling pag-iisip ko nang marinig ko ang boses ng doctor.Pumayag na ako. Wala akong ibang choice, at may mga plano na akong iniisip. Alam ko na pagkatapos ng lahat ng ito, aalis na ako sa bahay nila. I'd disappear from this mess. Maybe go somewhere else. As Doc continued to explain the process, parang wala akong naririnig. It felt like his voice was just a distant hum, isang bagay na hindi ko na kayang i-focus ang atensyon ko. Lahat ng iniisip ko ay ang mga hakbang na gagawin ko pagkatapos ng panganganak, kung paano ko aayusi
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