Cloudy Double
Three years into our marriage, Marcus Bane changes my contact name.
It is no longer "Honey", but "7:00 pm to 7:30 pm".
He says he sets aside only half an hour a day to settle personal matters.
If my message arrives even a minute early, he doesn't reply. If it's a minute late, he doesn't reply either.
One time, I get a high fever and need to go to the hospital for an IV drip, so I call him seven times.
At 7:00 pm, he calls me back. "You have 29 minutes. Only say what's important."
My voice hoarse, I ask if he can come pick me up.
He glances at his schedule. "29 minutes isn't enough for a round trip. Just take a cab."
I always think he's just too busy with work, so I never dare to waste that half an hour. I'll write down what I want to say in advance, even picking out the main points when I need to tell him what's bothering me.
Until one night, at 1:00 am, when thunder wakes me up, and no one is sleeping beside me.
Marcus is sitting on the couch in the living room, revising a proposal for his project manager, Cindy Moore.
Cindy's aggrieved voice comes through the video call. "Mr. Bane, it's already 1:00 am. Am I using up too much of your private time?"
He laughs. "When have I ever kept track of time when it comes to you?"
I stand outside the door and suddenly remember how, three hours ago, my stomach hurt so badly that I couldn't straighten up. I had knocked on his study door.
Marcus tells me, "You've used up your time for today."
I return to the room and turn off the alarm set for 6:59 pm every day.
At 7:00 pm the next evening, Marcus doesn't get a message from me for the first time.