Novel & Cerita Forgive Me Father For I Have Sinned

Not yet. “Don’t touch them,” he said, the words a quiet command. “Just let them know you are there. Let them feel the fear. This is not about a quick victory, my son. It is about a profound, devastating defeat. They must understand the weight of their choices. They must understand their insignificance.” “But Father…”

We'll smile at each other and be one's peace and home. Now, we're strangers. Broken and suffering for the sins we're not even aware of. Tragedy doesn't need blood to be spilled. Sometimes, one word. One phrase, one wrong, and in my case, it's one freaking sin, my father's, is enough to shift the entire thing. My father does that to the whole Petrov clan? How? Why? Importante pa ba ang mga iyon ngayon? I lost the man I love and the promises of tomorrow. Matinis akong tumili.

Sinuyod niya ng tingin ang buong mukha ko. “I was twenty years old when I met Georgia, and I fell in love with her. Nagkaroon kami ng relasyon na tumagal ng dalawang taon. But when papa found out about that, he opposed my relationship with Georgia. He told me to break up with my girlfriend. But I really love her so much. That’s why I chose her over what my father wanted to happen and the wealth he gave me. He took it all from me. And...” Humugot siya ulit ng malalim na paghinga at pinakawalan iyon sa ere. “I blamed him for Georgia’s death. So I left home and tried to forget them as my family. Well, they all sided with the sin that Papa committed against me. My girlfriend died because of him.

"But then, you can correct it to my father; at least no'ng nagkausap kayo. What the hell did you tell my father anyway?" "And risk your father's health? I'm sure you're already aware that my grandma did a thorough background check on you and your family so she would know how she could offer help to you. Ang lola ko ang klase ng taong hindi matatahimik hangga't hindi nakabayad ng utang ng loob, plus of course, the guilt. It's so hard living all your life with the feeling of guilt. Kung maibabalik ko lang, mas gugustuhin kong hindi ibinuwis ng ina mo ang buhay niya para sa akin. The thought of knowing na may isang anak itong naulila just to save someone else's child is not easy to bear."

Bawat hakbang niya paatras ay hakbang naman nito paabante. "Let me go!" "Not until you say you forgive me." "No! Bumaba ka na dahil tulog pa ang anak mo." "I won't let you go. C'mon, Janine, ngayon nga lang tayo nagkasama magagalit ka pa sa 'kin. I only want the best for my son."

"Opo... Wag ka na umiyak, Ma. Susubukan ko po. Okay?" I guess it's time for me to ask for forgiveness from my sister and father. I guess it's time for me to stand up for my sin and pay for it. Hindi ko sigurado kung paano ko gagawin pero... Gusto ko nang makasama muli ang pamilya ko. Pagod na akong mabuhay nang mag-isa.

“Bumasa ako ng libro ni Clara tungkol sa inyong bayan at sa lahat ng inyong nagawa. Naiintindihan ko na ngayon kung bakit hindi ka sumunod sa akin noon, Damien. Ginawa mo ang tama para sa iyong pamilya at sa mga tao. Patawarin mo ako sa lahat ng kasalanan ko sa inyo.” “Patawad na kita, Ama,” sagot ni Damien, naramdaman ang bigat sa kanyang puso na nawawala. “Ang nakaraan ay nakaraan na. Ang mahalaga ay alam mong gumawa ka ng mga pagkakamali at handa kang harapin ito. Kami naman ay patuloy na magdarasal para sa iyo.”

Dahan-dahan niyang ibinaba ang zipper ng kanyang suot na pantalon at saka niya dinukot mula doon ang bagay na hindi ko inaasahan na makikita ko mula sa kanya. Napalunok ako nang masilayan ko ang ari niyang ngayon ay nagngangalit sa laki at taba. Nagmistulang tape measure ang aking mga mata na hinagod iyon ng tingin at sa aking palagay ay nasa anim hanggang pitong pulgada iyon kahaba. Kinausap ko ang sarili ko. 'Forgive me father for I have sinned.' Napapikit na lang ako nang sandaling iyon.

If we can only rewrite the past. Napatingin ako sa kaniya nang hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. "Come with me then.." Kumunot ang noo ko, "Where are we going?" She smiled, "We'll meet our father together.." Matagal ko siyang tinitigan. I'm not convinced that she already forgave me just like that. But I'm dying to see our father. Tumango ako. I may have been angry with him but he's still my father. And he's just a human who made a mistake. I just realized that if we want people to forgive us, then we should also learn how to forgive.

Ngumiti ito sa kanya bago nag salita "Alam kong galit ka sa akin. I can't justify my past actions, and all I can do is ask for your forgiveness and say sorry to you. I don't wanna explain everything, dahil kahit saang anggulo tingnan ay Mali ako. Mali ang naging desisyon ko. Mali ako ng iniwan kita at ang Mommy mo. Mali ako nang hindi kita dinalaw kahit isang beses mula nung magkalayo tayo. I know I am so wrong, but I want you to know na pinagsisihan ko lahat ng yun. I want you to know how much Papà loves you. I want you to know that Papà never forgets his little princess even for a second. I want you to know that every important day of your life ay nadun ako nakatanaw sa malayo dahil hiyang