Novel & Cerita Hate Being Sober Lyrics

Part of me wished I would just drown but I knew I didn’t want to. My life is a mess, everything is shitty and it’s going down the rabbits hole and I’m not proud of it. Everyone around me including Mason seem to have their lives in order and on the right track while mine just keeps going wrongly. I hated everything going on around me, I hate myself and I also hate Mason. Crying like a little baby, I laid down there motionless and pretended I was dead and numb to everything that was going on but the warm water on my skin made me know that I’m still alive.

"I hate you". Those were the only words that were constantly ringing in my head as I walked towards the café. My name is Rose and I've always been the pretty girl everyone wanted except this badass of a boy that does annoy me every time. I had promised myself that I wouldn't go back there, but here I was, standing outside the door. My heart was racing as I pushed it open and stepped inside. The smell of freshly brewed coffee hit my nose, and my eyes scanned the room, searching for the person I had been avoiding for the past few weeks.

' But I push it aside, focusing on the road ahead. I zip past the pier, taking sharp turns with precision, my bike hugging the curves of the main canyon. I'm in the zone, my senses heightened as I speed towards the finish line. But just as I'm about to cross the line, everything goes blank. 'Who am I to you?' 'YOU'RE NOTHING, BOY! YOU ARE JUST A SPINLESS FAILURE!' 'DO YOU THINK YOUR MOTHER LOVES YOU? IF SHE LOVED YOU, BOY, SHE WOULDN'T HAVE LEFT YOU ALONE AT MY MERCY.'

Never ending shivers are leaving my body. He removed his hands around me as I immediately got up. I closed my eyes as I let my tears out. I loathe myself for not being able to save myself. I hate how I got crushed like an ant in his presence. I detest myself more than him. I looked as him in resentment as i said in anger, "I hate your very existence!" I let out soft sob and began to leave as I heard him say, "I know that, No one loves me anyways"

Hate. I hate myself. Self-loathing filled me and threatened to explode. I felt like I was going to combust. How? How has he done it? How can he still stand to touch me, to be near me? Just the thought of what I’ve done is enough to make me sick. I’m disgusted with myself. This world is getting blurry and I focus on the moon above. I’m out of air, out of the will to live, out of time. I don’t deserve it, I shouldn’t want it, I shouldn’t dare, but I do. I wish to see him. I want… I want to see those obsidian eyes one last time. My hands fall to my side as my head lolls to the side.

She reached for a passing tray, took two glasses of wine, and handed one to Zoe. They stood side by side. ‘You healed,’ Zoe said quietly after a moment. Then softer, ‘I hope Jace doesn’t hurt you anymore.’ She paused, her voice trembling. ‘I’m sorry I wasn’t a good mother. I’m always sorry.’ Laura stayed quiet. She looked away, pretending to study the room, the lights, and the people – anything to stop herself from crying. ‘Mom,’ she said finally, her voice controlled, ‘I healed. He doesn’t hurt me anymore.’

“God, you’re so drunk.” “My way of numbing the pain. I’m only tolerating all this for you Papa. And I also don’t want Mama to get satisfied when I resist her, only to give in to her in the end. She enjoys it when I fight back. So, if I give in now, she wouldn’t have that satisfaction.” “That’s nice Raven but I’m sure you’ll disagree to giving in to her when you’re sober. Now watch your step.” “I’m going to wake the old me and come up with a plan to ruin this marriage, divorce and be free. And you wouldn’t be in trouble for that Papa.”

I smirked at him and focused on other people and nodded my head to the musician to start the music. I began to tap my hand on the microphone to follow the tempo. And I sang: The world can be a nasty place, You know it, I know it, yeah, We don't have to fall from grace, Put down the weapons you fight with, Kill 'em with kindness, Kill 'em with kindness, Kill 'em, kill 'em, kill 'em with kindness, Kill 'em with kindness, Kill 'em with kindness, Go ahead, go ahead, go ahead now,

if you hate me kill me please I don't want to live this life in this way I can't live anymore with this pain the pain of loosing someone the pain of hurting our loved ones is most unbearable punishment but why this for me why me only me I never wants even my enemy to get hurt but why every time destiny is playing hard on me I don't know how to tell you I'm broken without feeling needy I dont know how to open up without feeling judged I don't know how to cry when my tears feel like acid I just need you to see that I'm hurting without me telling you because my words are bleeding out of my mouth waiting for you to stitch me up and make me fine although I know that's not your job and you're bett

And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate Madness is what you demonstrate And that's exactly how hate works and operates Man, we gotta set it straight Take control of your mind and just meditate And let your soul just gravitate to the love So the whole world celebrate it People killin' people dyin' Children hurtin', I hear them cryin' Can you practice what you preachin'? Would you turn the other cheek again? Mama, mama, mama, tell us what the hell is goin' on Can't we all just get along?