Here I Go On My Own Novels & Stories

They’re still aren’t talking to each other and I just tried my best to ignore it for I know that they are going to reconcile pretty much sooner or later. Today, I decided to go out and do some shopping all by myself just to forget all about the chaos that is currently happening in my life. I used public transportation, not bothering to asked one of our drivers to go with me. I wanted to experience being a normal person even just for a while, and I’m thankful that Mom let me leave alone.

I know I should tell them where I'm going but I just need to be alone for a while. Drake and Archer find me at the park an hour later. Not sure if my family realized I was gone this late or they were giving me time to cool off. I'm trying to perfect the forward flip off the ramp but I'm having a hell of a time perfecting it. I can't land it, not once.

Then, when they’re no longer here, I’ll be by myself, but I have to believe I will eventually fall out of love with Cal and find someone who can give me the life I want. Out of danger. Away from any harm. A life filled with love and attention. And if not, I’ll have to learn to live by myself. Lots of people do it. It shouldn’t be that hard. I’ve been on my own besides my grandparents for years anyway. I can do it again. Yeah… right. As if you believe that, Heidi. My stomach growls as if on cue, to remind me that I haven’t eaten anything yet. But right now, I can’t think of putting food in my mouth. I feel sick and nauseated, not to mention my head is killing me.

"Is that the only reaction? is my size not big enough? ah, no! how is this?" *** How many hours have I been here? the sky was even dark. Where do I go now? do I really have to go home tomorrow? "Ah ... I don't want to go home! they will all say that I am really useless!" I talk to myself like crazy. Sit on the steps of the apartment entrance. The man did not come out either, surely he ended up renting a three-bedroom apartment.

But I’m going to stand by something my gran said to me… To thine own self be true. I don’t know what James will give up to make us possible. But if he can’t let go of the world that keeps breaking us, then I’ll let go of him. I’m not afraid to be alone. But I want to move forward as me. I will not compromise on that again.

I was on my own. The End

Anaya gets in and the door closes and I watch the taillights disappear around the corner and then I am alone. I open the ride app. No drivers available in your area. I refresh it. No drivers available. I look up at the sky. The raindrops are hitting hard on my face now. I could call Roman. I push that thought away immediately. I am not giving him the opportunity to be calm and reasonable and make me feel like the difficult one again. I put my phone in my pocket and start walking. I told myself I don’t need him. I can make it on my own. I don’t need anyone looking after me. Most especially Roman.

I want to be that person for you, I really want to be that person, but I’m aware that I can’t give it to you right now, I can’t give it to anyone, not even the most important people in my life. That’s why I made the decision to leave, I decided to solve my problems on my own, I decided to work on myself to become that person who can give you everything you need, without ifs and buts. I have to do it alone though, I have to understand and work on my problems so that I can come back and be that person. I won’t ask you to wait for me, I can’t, but I hope that when I come back there will still be a place for me in your life, whether it’s as a friend or something more.

I don't wait for him to say anything, I just walk to the gates where my father is waiting for me. On second thought, this was a nice goodbye between us. Maybe I should listen to my father and not come back here. I can get better on my own, all I need to do is behave. I've never tried, but it can't be that hard.

I put the bag in my car and left a not on the living room table saying these words in bold. "I DONE BEING YOUR PERFECT DAUGHTER, I'M GOING TO FIND MY OWN WAY..." Well good bye old life and hello road trip..