Novel & Cerita Here I Go On My Own

Hannah says. “Well because I have to, stop being so dramatic. Can I have that number now?” Hannah gives me the number and I call the maid, Patricia,immediately. She was so sweet and kind over the phone. I feel horrible about telling her not to come, however, I need to be independent, which means, doing things on my own. I’m in Pennsylvania, without my parents. I need to learn how to live on my own. I walk towards the window and hear the birds chirping from outside. I forgot we left so early that it’s still morning here. It’s only 10:30 a.m.

I want to get everything over and done with. " I don't know, let me go with you." He says, a plea in his tone. " I have to do this on my own." "You don't have to do this on your own, let me be there for you and - " " Roman." I cover his hand with mine and look him straight in the eyes." Let me do this on my own, I can't be dependent on you for everything, there are some things that I will sometimes have to face on my own. And this is one of them."

Especially to the strongest one, because I assumed they might take strict action against them. They will fail, eventually. “Sure. I think I should go now,” I tell them, rising from my chair. I glance for the last time at the girl and smile slightly. I wave at her but she just stares at me. “It’s already midnight so I- no it’s fine,” I interrupt. “I can go by myself.” The officer looks disatisfied but I turn around and walk away. ********** It’s so quiet here at the bus stop. I rub my arms soothingly as I sit comfortably in my seat. It feels as if the whole world has gone quiet or as if I’m the only survivor on the earth.

From now on, I’m going to be selfish. From now on, I choose me. From now on, I AM DONE!

" She cried out and I sighed and whipped away the tears in my eyes. I gently took her shoulders and made her face me. "Tanya.. I'm not angry at you but myself. I have been a total failure to myself and will not be alright if I don't leave. Don't you understand? Leaving will bring me happiness, I love my self company and I'll appreciate it if you let me go.. Just go back home, I may come back after years, five... Ten. Or maybe never. But just know that I'll be just fine on my own and can take care of myself..

My mother's remarks were like a broken record that was playing in my mind multiple times. "You love yourself, Astra." I said to myself, giving comfort because of this fck situation of mine. I walked from nowhere. It was like I was none of myself. Later on, I saw an available bench. It's also lonely. Hence, I went there and gave my baby bench a companion. Heck. I am very close to craziness. "I'll live on my own already.." I just realised how difficult it is to live by yourself. No other companion and no one is willing to help you.

That's why at the end of the day, all I just have to count on is me, myself, and I. Yes, just me alone.

“I can’t do this on my own. Everyone else is outside of town and not willing to move permanently. Please, I’m on my knees.” I groaned. “This is insane.” “Will you come in?” “Yes, I will.”

No one is coming after me. I slow once I realize that. No one is coming after me. No enemy is coming after me. No one who cares about me is coming after me either. The ones I love don’t want to see if I’m okay. Whatever I did must have been so horrifying that no one dares come near me. No one wants me near them. I am completely alone in a way that I've never been before. And I don't know what to do now. But I do know that I’m on my own.

Nо оnе is thеrе еxсерt a fеw еvеnіng commuters оn thеіr way hоmе оr gоіng tо for a late dіnnеr. Agаіn, I tell mуѕеlf I’m being a fool. I hear thеm аgаіn, аnd thіѕ tіmе I follow mу gut. I рull оff mу hееlѕ and I gun іt.