How Can I Live Without You นิยาย & เรื่องราว

bulong niya pa. “I know that you can live the same way again without me… Alam kong kayang-kaya mong mabuhay na wala ako pero paano naman ako, Miss? I don’t think I can do that… I don’t think I can still live how I use to before without you…” bulong niya pa muli. Para rin akong mawawalan ng hininga nang mapasubsob siya sa leeg ko.

sabay patay nito ng cellphone. Natulala na lang siya sa narinig. Hindi niya alam kung paano mabuhay ng wala si Brent. Constant companion niya ito, lalo na sa mga panahong wala si Alicia, ang kanyang kaibigan. Teka, nasaan na nga ba si Alicia? Parang hindi pa ito nagpaparamdam sa kanya. Kaagad niyang pinahid ang luha, saka sinubukang tawagan ang kaibigan. Hindi niya ito makontak. Ito kasi ang magpapatunay kay Brent na wala siyang kasalanan. Na hindi niya gusto ang mga nangyari. Nakailang dial na siya ng numero ng kaibigan, ngunit wala pa ring sumasagot na Alicia sa kanya. Nilalambot na siya, wala na siyang maisip pang ibang paraan at ibang tao na makakatulong sa kanya.

“You said you’ll stay. You said you won’t let anything happen to you…” Napailing ako. Paulit-ulit. “So you can’t die…!” sigaw ko, halos mawalan ng boses. “Hindi ka pwedeng mamatay, Jacob! Hindi mo ako pwedeng iwan..." sunod-sunod kong bulyaw sa kanya habang paulit-ulit na tinatapik ang kanyang mukha upang magising siya. “Please…” bulong ko, nanginginig ang buong katawan ko. “I don’t know how to live without you…”

Kinuha niya ang wireless mic at nagsimula na. I'm breathing I'm feeling alone I know Agad na naghiyawan ang mga tao sa loob. that you're leaving While we're still undone It's gone right before our faces Gone without a trace We had something special I don't need no space So come back now Won't you give me some hope, come on I'll be dancing like nobody is watching And I wanna be what you need for a second 'Cause I'm into you Now I'm trying to get you attention

Pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko kayang kalimutan. I live my life alone. Without anyone that I can cry on. Without someone comforting me. No thing at all. Just living with my own sadness. (TO BE CONTINUED...)

napailing ako at napaluhod, "kung alam ko lang na mangyayari 'yon, sana ay hindi nalang ako umalis ng condo natin. Baka buhay ka pa ngayon. Hindi sana tayo hahantong sa ganito." Napatingala ako sa langit ng maramdaman kong pumapatak ang ulan. Pati ang langit ay nakiki-iyak sa akin. "How can I go on with my life without you, Muffin? Wala ka na sa tabi ko. Hindi na kita makakasama. Wala ng magluluto sa akin ng masasarap na pagkain at wala ng mag-aalaga sa akin. You know that you are my home, right? How can I go home knowing that you're not there anymore? Ni hindi ko na alam kung paano mabuhay na hindi kita kasama. I was not prepared for this, Muffin. Nasanay na akong palagi kang kasama." Paran

I need you in my arms, need you to hold, You're my world, my heart, my soul, If you ever leave, Baby you would take away everything good in my life, Patuloy ng kantang umaalingawngaw sa boung resto. She listened to the song at inintindi ang bawat kataga nito. And tell me now How do I live without you? I want to know, How do I breathe without you? If you ever go, How do I ever, ever survive? How do I, how do I, oh how do I live? Without you,

And I will always be with you And there is nothing we can't do, As long as we're together "Maybe because nasanay na kong nakikita ang masaya mong mukha sa tuwing nasusurpresa kita." I just can't live without you And I want you to know I need you as I've never needed anyone before Sa narinig ay hindi ko napigilang mapaiyak...mapaiyak dahil sa sobrang sayang nararamdaman.

Yes, it's just right for my day-to-day expenses. Second, I have no responsibility because I have no partner in life. I have no family or relatives, friends or close acquaintances. I don’t have to be responsible to others so I’m avoiding right? That's why everyone avoids me too. Third, I have no dreams. Yes I will admit I dreamed before but it all disappeared like a bubble. Eased as if erased and vanished like ashes because my dreams were replaced by a dark world. I sighed loudly. "My life in this world doesn't really have any meaning so what's my value? Why am I still alive? Tsk."

Sa tuwing masisilayan ko ang nakangiti n’yang mga labi at mata parang nagagamot ang sugatan kong puso. Nang maramdaman kong tulog na s’ya ay napatingin ako sa mga bituin na makikita mula sa labas ng bintana. Hinawakan ko ang ulo ni Ally at saka hinalikan ito. “What's the point of living without you, Ally?”