Novel & Cerita I Survived

I wanna hear it again. "Whatever your problem is...don't you ever give up your life. You're precious remember that." Mas lalong sumikip ang dibdib ko sa kakaiyak. I will not give up Perfi until I find the life that I deserve. At sa oras ding yun, bumalik ang buhay ko. I survived. Everyone celebrated because they thought that I would definitely die. No. I won't die. Mabubuhay pa ako. At hindi ko man aminin Perfi's words bring me to life again.

And there, I went between life and death. Buong akala ko ay mamamatay na ako. Inisip kong mas magandang nangyari na lang 'yon kaysa sa nabuhay pa ako. I don't even know why I still survived. Adrianna looked very happy when I woke up from a deep sleep while I couldn't. She stayed by my side, which I should appreciate, but I felt nothing. No one knows my reason why I feel this way except me….or she really has an idea but just can't face it?

May bitbit na mga naka tupperware na pagkain at mabilis akong sinugod ng yakap. Natatawang binalance ko ang sarili ko para hindi matumba at niyakap siya ng mahigpit. Ruru survived cancer, when I was in my lowest, nagpakatatag siya at nagpagaling ng husto hindi lang para sa anak niya kung hindi para din daw sa akin. She's worried that I'll suffer from depression kung pati siya na bestfriend ko ay mawala. She made me as one of her inspiration to survive.

Kung hindi pa ako na-aksidente ay baka patuloy pa rin ako sa paglilibot sa buong lalawigan at kalapit na lugar para mahanap siya. I met an accident with a big truck. It's a miracle I survived and I'm still alive. Isang buwan ang lumipas bago ako nagising. At nang nagising ay pakiramdam ko patay na ako. I was feeling nothing. Not even pain. I was so numb that even if they stab me right now, I wouldn't get hurt.

Sinong maiinspire sa taong nagpaka-suicide kundi ang ipromote ang suicide prevention? Wala namang ibang tao mag-aayos sa akin kundi sarili ko. Did I survived this war? Breathing is an enough reason that I am still surviving. As long as I am breathing, hindi pa ako talo. "Ana, pupunta ka pa bang reception?" Luminga ako kay Thaia matapos akong iwan ni France. "Of course. Why?" Kumunot ang noo ko. She's sweating bullets. Natatae na ba talaga siya? Dapat kasi uminom na 'to ng diatabs.

Pero in fairness, ang sarap pala nito? Why did I even fall into this mess? And it’s only Tuesday — I’ve still got three more days to survive. ******