Novel & Cerita I Will Never Break Your Heart

Tinignan lamang nila kami, walang nais na tumulong. “Away magjowa, yan,” narinig ko sa isa sa mga naroon. “Never mess with someone with a broken heart,” dinig kong saad sa isa sa mga kasama ni Sir Ian. Broken hearted? Si Sir? Mabo-broken ba ganito ka gwapo? Saad kosa isipan.

Pagkababa ko ng cellphone ay napatingala ako kisame, lumitaw doon ang guwapong mukha ng katipan ko—nakangiti sa akin at puno ng pagmamahal na nakatingin sa akin. Napangiti ako. “I love you, Menard,” usal ko. Ilang sandali akong nanatili sa ganoong posisyon—nangangarap ng gising. Mahigit isang taon na kaming magnobyo ni Menard at wala siyang ibang pinapakita sa akin kundi kabutihan at sobra-sobrang pagmamahal. Pakiramdam ko ay isa ako sa mga biniyayaan na magkaroon ng isang mapagmahal na nobyo.

Bumuntong hininga lamang ito at tumitig sa aking mukha. "Sorry for loving you- sorry for breaking your heart that caused you too much pain. But.. I won't hesitate to fight for what is right Venus." He paused. Kitang-kita ko ang determinasyon mula sa kanya. "Do you think, it's easy for me to hurt you this way? Sa tingin mo ba ay masaya akong nasasaktan ka sa ganitong paraan?" I didn't utter an any words. Pakiramdam ko ay hindi ko na kayang makapag-isip ng tama. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Ramdam ko ang bigat at pagod mula sa aking puso-

“Hindi kita iiwan. You’re the one I love. Ikaw lang.” “S-Shane…” “Ikaw ang uuwian ko. Hindi si Miranda. Hindi kahit sino kundi sa’yo lang.” Rinig ko ‘yung pag-iyak niya na may halong relief. “Please don’t break my heart…” “Never. Hindi ko kaya.” Pero habang sinasabi ko ‘yun, bigla akong nakarinig ng mahinang tunog mula sa loob. Pinihit ng pinto.

Nanlalamig ang buo kong katawan at kahit na gusto kong maiyak dahil sa sakit ng mga sinabi niya ay tila ba nagmanhid na lang bigla ang sarili ko. “I will never let you and Fran break my heart.” pagkasabi niya ng mga katagang iyon ay pumasok na siya sa loob ng penthouse. He left me speechless and lost. Anong ibig niyang sabihin? Are we breaking up?

“GUSTO KO LANG MAGING MASAYA! I CAN'T HAVE THE CHILDHOOD I WANT! THE TEENAGE LIFE I WANT! I CAN'T HAVE THE LIFE I WANT! ITO NA LANG, ITO NA LANG ANG PAMBAWI KO. I WANT TO LIVE MY MARRIED LIFE THE WAY I WANT TO!” “THEN SURPRISE MOTHERFUCKER! YOU CAN'T! THIS IS LIFE, YOU CAN'T HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT, YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS! IT'S UNFAIR? SAANG NATION KA BA NAKATIRA? SA IMAGINATION? THEN WELCOME TO THE REALITY, PIECE OF SHIT!” “M-Mom? D-Dad? W-Why are you fighting?”

But you stay on my mind so believe me ‘Cause you have my heart, don't break it (Oh, no don't break it girl) 'Cause when times get tough, don't hate me (Oh) And it all adds up, we gon' make it (Gotta make it) 'Cause when you mad, I know you can't fake it (Oh) And baby, sometimes I can tell just by your face This part of us been gone for so long (So long) And I know there's no replacing What we had going on for so long~

Wish I could be the one The one who could give you love The kind of a love you really need Wish I could say to you That I'll always stay with you But baby, that's not me You need someone Willing to give their heart and soul to you Promise you forever Baby, that's something I can't do Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need But that would be a lie I know I'd only hurt you, I know I'd only make you cry I'm not the one you're needing

“Don't wanna feel another touch! Don't wanna start another fire! Don't wanna know another kiss! I'll never love again. I'll never love agaiiiiiiiin! Ooohhhh. Okay! Next song! Helloooo from the other siiiiide! I wish I can say that I've tried. To tell you I'm sorry for breaking your heaaaaart. Sayang na sayang talaga! Sayang na sayang talaga! 'Wag kang susuko. Wag kang susuko!”

Hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin siya kayang patawarin. Kahit nakauwi na rito ang nanay ko, my heart is still broken. I can't let her enter my heart when it's still fragmented. My broken heart is my only shield against all odds.