If You So Desire My Despair นิยาย & เรื่องราว

To the world, they are perfection, the billionaire and his elegant wife, the family everyone envies. But behind closed doors, they are strangers bound by a contract and by one secret that could destroy them both. When Alexander and Elena Harrington announce their “divorce,” everyone expects a scandal. But they can’t let the real reason for their separation become public. Their empire is built on illusion, and if the truth gets out, it could destroy everything. Their only son is the fragile thread holding them together, and the same reason they can’t let go. But love was never part of the deal. As society braces for scandal, a rival billionaire shows Elena what affection truly feels like. And the man who never shows emotion begins to unravel, consumed by jealousy and obsession. In a world where loyalty is currency and betrayal comes wrapped in diamonds, some vows are meant to break and others become the only thing worth saving.

In the heart of a modern metropolis lies Elysium, an exclusive BDSM club where the wealthy and powerful shed their masks and surrender to forbidden desires. By night, behind velvet curtains and gilded cages, Dominants and submissives dance in a dangerous symphony of pleasure and pain. Shadows of Desire follows a cast of lost souls drawn into Elysium’s seductive orbit: a newcomer aching to submit, a jaded Master with a dark past, a cunning Dominatrix guarding her secrets, a switch torn between roles, and a voyeur hungry for more than just watching. As decadent play turns to emotional entanglement, bonds of trust deepen – until whispers of betrayal begin to echo through the opulent chambers. In this world of consensual extremes, where ecstasy and agony blur, one hidden traitor threatens to destroy the sanctuary that binds them all. Secrets, obsessions, and power collide in a fast-paced, darkly seductive romance. Will love and loyalty survive when the truth comes to light, or will the betrayal lurking in the shadows shatter the fragile trust that holds Elysium together?

Him. Watching someone from afar and fantacising about them is seen as something extreme right? But for me, it's not. Especially when she should have been mine in the first place. Mine to hold, mine to love, mine to cherish and mine to keep. One silly bet, one silly bet and i let her slip out of my grasp. I've been waiting ten years and just like that one bet, I'm waiting for one opportunity. Although she belongs to another but when I get that opportunity, i'm never letting her go again. Even if i have to take her by force. Her. I made a one time silly mistake with a stranger but I am in love with another. After that, eveytime he comes close, i am tempted to give him all of me without holding back. Surely one more time wouldn't hurt right? It just has to be our dirty little secret.

Diane arrives at Hotel Dela Paz, a luxurious destination renowned for love and romance, but for her, it becomes a sanctuary to heal her broken heart. As she tries to recover from past wounds, fate introduces her to Damon Dela Paz, the enigmatic billionaire who owns the hotel. Their connection is instant, sparking a powerful desire between them. Despite her heartache, Diane finds herself irresistibly drawn to Damon, yearning for his touch and comfort. That one passionate night binds them, and they can't stop thinking about each other. But just as their desire begins to deepen into something more, people from their pasts resurface, threatening to reignite old wounds. Now, Diane and Damon must confront their feelings and the shadows of their histories. Can their fiery connection transform into lasting love, or will the ghosts of the past tear them apart? In this story of passion, healing, and second chances, Diane and Damon will have to fight for the love they've both been longing for.

Isadora, a recessive Omega, is torn between her rejection by her true mate and her growing desire for the lycan rouge leader, Alaric. As she struggles to come to terms with her true nature, she finds herself caught in the greedy and jealous claws of Alaric and the brooding Darrian who rejected her at first, and the ambitious Eutychus. When a powerful enemy threatens the pack, Isadora must choose between her heart and her duty to her pack. Will she reject her desires, or embrace her destiny? Find out in "Rejection vs Desire" a thrilling werewolf fantasy story.

“Hypersexuality is not a good thing. It was a need that I had to fill.” - Gabe Howard/Dhalia Uson experienced various abuses against men since she was a child. Sadly, she still carried that bitter experience until she grew up into a young woman. She used her beautiful face and strange charm that deliberately drove the men associated with her crazy. Until a man came into her life who accepted her wholeheartedly and without hesitation. She finally found how to be truly respected and loved through that man. The thing that she’s been longing for. But . . . It seems that destiny was playing on her because Dhalia's world has become more chaotic since then. Gradually, all her dreams in life crumbled. Even her identity that she tried so hard to save was lost forever . . .

Maureen's seventeenth birthday was an amazing experience even if it was a one-sided pleasure, but not for Darren who continues to avoid her and considers everything that happened between them a mistake. Six years later, there is nothing they can forget. Darren, who has a wife and childrens, falls for Maureen's charm again. But, unfortunately, Maureen is always involved with another men. Darren who is conservative, and Maureen who wants to live freely. Their walls of difference is too high. Can they be together just by love?

Ryan is a hard working young woman that loves to be in her own space and keeps to herself. Until a man from her past comes binto her life and shows her new and exciting way to live. He makes her change the way she lives, thinks and even dream about life. Will she let him in or will she run for the hills?

Following the loss of both her parents and her family business, all Ruth Anderson wanted was to get away from bad memories of California. Her late Father's friend offered her the fresh start she wanted as a secretary in his company, now headed by his son, Ethan Sinclair. What started out as a strong disdain towards Ruth from Ethan soon became an undeniable desire. Challenges soon came in the form of a runaway ex. How did the lovebirds face this? Is their love strong enough to fight through? Is there any happily ever after for them?

Damien Lancaster, the cold and ruthless heir to a billion-dollar empire, has spent years plotting his revenge against Selene Carter—the woman he believes ruined his life. Damien and Selene were once lovebirds, so much in love they couldn't do without each other. They met at a business party. Years later, the lovers who were once the talk of the town became the laughingstock. Damien's business crumbled, and he was back to square one. The moment his business collapsed was also when Selene vanished without a trace. He began to believe she was behind his downfall—and she wasn’t there when he needed her most. Years later, Damien is now successful. He meets Selene again—she’s doing all kinds of jobs, struggling to survive. Damien approaches her with one motive—revenge. He tries to lure her in, but she resists. When an opportunity arises, he forces her into a fake marriage to secure a deal and restore his image. Selene, drowning in debt and legal trouble, has no choice but to sign. The contract: no love, a time limit, and total control. But as emotions resurface and secrets unravel, Damien finds himself falling for the woman he swore to destroy. Their twisted love faces betrayal, secrets, pregnancy—and a dangerous threat.