Nausea Sartre

I had been secretly in love with my childhood friend for nine long years. When we finally got married, my family and friends thought I was the happiest person in the world. After I became pregnant, he used the excuse of "helping an old classmate" and invited the most beautiful girl from our class into our home. During the worst of my pregnancy, when nausea and exhaustion hit hardest, he took her to the hospital, made crafts with her, and watched sunsets with her. He even had the guts to accuse me of being small-minded and petty and acting like a bitter, jealous wife. Only then did I realize that it was just my foolish fantasy that I lived my dream of marrying my childhood sweetheart and had a happy life. I let go of the love I had for him and of the future I thought we would share. Now, however, he was the one who regretted it.

A message came through on my husband's phone. 'Hey, baby. Hope this gets you nice and hard. Can't wait to see you tonight xoxo'. What? I was shocked! But I was even more shocked when I saw the picture. A woman in a skimpy, slutty, red lace bar. The bra was so sheer you could see her nipples. She had red lipstick, her face in a sexy pout. The woman was my husband's first love – Ellie! My husband was cheating on me? A wave of nausea washed over me. My heart raced. I felt dizzy. It was clear from the message that this wasn't the first time, either. I would never tolerate such a thing. I asked for a divorce and threw away my wedding ring. He would definitely regret it when he found out I was actually a billionaire. But so what? I don't care.

Pandemi COVID-19 menerjang, mengubah Desa Gayam yang tenteram menjadi "neraka" yang penuh ketakutan dan saling curiga. Gotong royong memudar, desas-desus dedemit bergentayangan, dan kejadian aneh menghantui desa. Mudra, pemuda desa yang menjunjung tinggi kebersamaan, menyaksikan "kerumunan" yang dulu hangat kini berubah menakutkan. Ia bertemu Vanua, sukarelawan medis yang datang dari kota yang lebih dulu merasakan "neraka" pandemi. Vanua percaya bahwa "kerumunan adalah neraka," terinspirasi dari Sartre dan Le Bon. Mudra dan Vanua, dengan pandangan berbeda tentang "kerumunan," bekerja sama mengungkap misteri desa. Mereka bertemu Sari, pewaris tradisi yang memahami kekuatan gaib. Bersama, mereka dipandu Ki Rajendra, guru spiritual yang menguasai ilmu tarot, untuk melawan kekuatan jahat dan menghadapi "neraka kerumunan" dalam berbagai bentuk. Perjalanan ini menguji persahabatan, cinta, dan keyakinan mereka. Siapakah dedemit Ni Grenjeng? Apa hubungannya dengan para Kepala Desa di Desa Gayam, Kampung Tujuh, dan kerumunan di berbagai wilayah?

I lost my eyesight to save Sean Sherman. He had once made a vow in front of everyone, "Rachel Todd, even if you can't see, I will take care of you for the rest of my life." I was deeply moved. I secretly sought out treatment and I kept the recovery of my eyesight a secret as a surprise for him. But on the day I regained my sight, I saw Sean holding his childhood sweetheart, Vivian Cross, in his arms, fooling around with her right in front of me. "You last really long today. Is it because your wife is watching us?" "What do you think? She was the one who bought me these protection products." I understood every word of their sign language. At that moment, my blood ran cold. Suppressing the nausea that was about to overwhelm me, I pulled out my phone and sent a message to the research team that had been inviting me for a long time. I told them yes—I would join their research project. I was going to leave Sean behind and make sure he lived the rest of his life in regret.

I wasn’t even pregnant, yet I ended up popping abortion pills like they were candy. It was all because in my past life, the moment my widowed sister-in-law got pregnant, every single side effect of her pregnancy became mine. She strutted around happily with her big belly, consuming spicy tamales, while I was rushed to the hospital for violent nausea and stomach pain; she showed off her flawless skin in crop tops every day, while my stomach broke out in hideous stretch marks. When I told my husband what was happening, he just shoved me away impatiently. “Enough with the jealousy! My brother’s dead, and she’s carrying his only child. Of course, I should look out for her. Do you really have to put on such an act?” After that, my sister-in-law went even further. She kept testing her limits during pregnancy and even ate a mango she was allergic to. And me? I went into anaphylactic shock, landed in the hospital, and nearly died. Doctors couldn’t explain it. They just brushed it off, saying I was overly jealous and it was all psychological. Later, my sister-in-law tried to brand herself as a “hot single mom”. She went live, belly and all, to show off her weight-loss workouts. She jumped around for three straight hours. And me? My uterus literally gave out, and I hemorrhaged to death. When I opened my eyes again, it was the exact day she first announced her pregnancy.

Mon petit ami de dix ans m'a quittée soudainement pour épouser ma petite sœur dans un mariage éclair. Peu après, Jacques Sartre, le plus jeune professeur de l'Université Royale, a publié une déclaration sur le site de l'université, annonçant ouvertement ses fiançailles avec moi. Pendant sept ans, il a été attentionné, dévoué, comme si j'étais l'unique amour de sa vie. Jusqu'au jour où je l'ai entendu parler à un collègue : « Rose est désormais la guérisseuse la plus prometteuse de l'Université Royale. Tu comptes continuer à jouer la famille heureuse avec Amélie ? » « Mais pour que Rose puisse vivre tranquillement, je vais continuer ma relation avec Amélie. Comme ça, Amélie ne menacera pas la famille de Rose. » Silencieuse derrière la porte, j'ai écouté sa voix calme réduire mes sept années d'amour à un « jeu de rôle ». Dans son carnet de recherche, chaque page portait le nom de Rose : « Que les recherches de Rose avancent bien. » « Que mon aimée Rose soit la femme la plus heureuse. » … « Rose, je passerai ma vie avec une femme que je n'aime pas, pour voir ton sourire chaque jour. » Sept ans de vie commune, et tout n'était qu'un rêve. Le jour de notre septième anniversaire, je suis montée dans la cabine de téléphérique que j'avais réservée depuis longtemps. Et à l'aube, à plus de mille mètres d'altitude, j'ai ouvert la porte de la cabine. J'ai coupé ma connexion mentale avec Jacques, avalé la potion qui pouvait dissoudre notre lien, et j'ai sauté. Quand Jacques a appris la nouvelle, il a immédiatement mobilisé l'équipe de recherche la plus professionnelle de l'Université Royale pour mener une opération de sauvetage sans précédent afin de retrouver mon corps. Dans la vallée, il a hurlé mon nom encore et encore, comme si ses remords tardifs pouvaient me ramener à la vie.