Scared Of My Own Image Song 소설 & 이야기

This song describes my anxiety over Aleksandr so well. “What scares me the most is what if when he sees me, what if he doesn’t like it? What if he runs the other way, can’t hide from it. What happens then? If when he knows me, he’s only disappointed. What if I give myself away, to only get it given back? I couldn’t deal with that.”

I did it a couple of times, and it somehow worked. I started singing, “Crawling in my skin! These wounds, they will not heal!” I had the lyrics memorized, stuck in my head. I thought of myself singing in front of Robyn, in the entertainment room with the LP Hybrid Theory playing in the background. She laughed out loud, holding her tummy as I missed a couple of beats because she was too beautiful, distracting me. “Fear is how I fall, confusing what is real.” It halted. She stared at me in shock, and her image vanished into thin air, replaced with her own scream.

He flashes me a smile. He locks eyes with me, as he begins to sing. 🎶A broken heart is all that's left. I'm still fixing all that cracks. Lost a couple of pieces when I carried it, carried it, carried it home.🎶 He sings so beautifully. He eyes never leave mine as he let the words leave his mouth freely. 🎶I'm afraid of all I am. My mind feels like a foreign land. Silence ringing inside my head. Please carry me, carry me, carry

They were looking as if we would just eat them raw. What were they scared of? Me? Am I that scary? I pouted a bit. Why would they be scared of me? Ain't I look cuuuute? I made a face looking at my reflection in the glass door. Hmm...I don't think so this face would scare anyone.

I smiled before standing from my seat and join her. “You still have a chance, Mr. husband.” She whispers in my ears before pecking my cheek and left at her previous seat not waiting for my answer, she knows already I wouldn’t back out. I signed as closed my eyes trying to concentrate to found any song in so much noise of the crowd. I smiled as I found one, I opened my eyes to meet chocolate orbs and try my best to sing. “Heartbeats fast Colors and promises How to be brave? How can I love when I’m afraid to fall?

What am I doing? Why am I still their friends? It's cause I'm scared of being alone. And fear can really fuck you up.

Am I scary for the humans that is why they are screaming? But then, I started singing. “Sometimes you are pinned to the ground by the big problem of your life, Sometimes the world can spin us around, till we could scream out Why won't it end now? You could look up to the heavens and skies, Someone up there is listening to you, Or maybe you could call on me, my girlfriend You always know at any time, right? That any time, I will be available for you. I am by your side, always and forever

"Gosh, You look hot. I would fuck you if you're not my friend" I made a disgusting face and turned away from her to see myself in the mirror. "Definitely". She walks towards me and slightly fixes my dress. "You look gorgeous and hot as fuck". I slightly pulled the edge of the dress, hoping it'd cover my legs, but it is shorter than my patients. What if my underwear is seen? I paired it with my bra a while ago, but the texture is thick. My anxiety could never "Don't you have any dresses? I felt uncomfortable, "I said, turning to see if my underwear would peek out.

What can I possibly do ? I'm too scared to even cry . I'm just letting the pit in my stomach grow towards my whole body , engulfing me in terror . " I .. I'll do .. a..anything . Just please .. le.. let him go . " My voice sounds pathetically shaky , probably not even close enough to convince myself let alone a terrifying stranger . My breath keeps getting caught up in my throat . I can't breathe . Why is this happening to us ? Just .. leave him alone . " Kill me instead . Not him " I manage to choke out with difficulty . He growls loudly . Was he unsatisfied with my answer ?

I sat up and looked at him. "I'm not with my guitar" I frowned. "You don't need your guitar Sasha, you sound amazing" he said and I bit my lip, unsure of myself. "Fine I'll try" I got up and stood in front of him while he sat up and watched me carefully. I breathed out and sang the first song that came to my mind, pushing away my insecurities. She just wants to be, beautiful she goes, unnoticed she knows, no limit she craves, attention she praises, an image