Sendiri Sendiri Ku Diam Novels & Stories

[ the child hiding behind the walls inside the house , gazing and hearing … ] Dear father , I am your child Rickz and always be yours, but I have to leave, please dad don’t search for me .. I don’t have a place here I simply cannot accept and hear your insult …please tell mama that her child will be safe , I’ll be calling you and be in touch .. from now on my education , my expenditure will be all on me .. I’ll learn to handle it .. just don’t stress , once I am settled I shall call you about my where abouts ..

Nakakaasar naman! Nagdadabog na bumalik ako sa may sala niya at muling iginala ang mata sa buong silid. ‘Di ko napigilan ang sariling ‘di mandiri sa sobrang gulo, kalat at dumi ng silid na ito. "I'm stuck. I'm stuck. I'm stuck. I'm stuck!" I muttered to myself, anxiously pacing around the small apartment. "I'm stuck here for Pete's sake!" This is crazy. This is unbelievable. This is fucking surreal!

You are always someone's toy. ''NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.'' I scream banging my head with my hands. '' Stop, please. Stop.'' I slap my head repeatedly so they can stop. '' I am no one's toy. I am no one's toy.'' I get up, go to my nightstand, and take the glass of water. I open the bag and take some of the medicine, drinking them all in one go. The screams started again and I put my hands to my ears praying for them to stop. I lay in bed, pulling my leg closer, and just stood there. After a couple of minutes, I could feel my head becoming heavier and heavier, but the voices were getting quieter. In no time, my eyes closed, and a deep sleep covered me.

“...at kahit minsan gusto na nating sumuko, nandito pa rin tayo.” Ramdam ko 'yung bigat ng bawat salita ko kasi hindi lang contest 'yung pinagdaanan namin. May scandals, may heartbreaks at may personal battles kaming hindi alam ng ibang tao. “At kahit anong mangyari today,” dagdag ko habang pilit pinipigilan ang mga luha, “I’m proud of us.” Tahimik. Mabigat. Hanggang sa sumigaw si Ahmad—

Not even to myself. So i stay in the cold, and say what’s easier. “I need you by my side that night.”

I am dead…. ****

™ ™Let It wander if it will™ Min Jon>> ™Lost In thoughts of you, ™ ™Solitude pleases me™ ™As My breath mingles with yours, I can breath again™ ™If the sweet night is spent by your side, The dawn will break with lights and air™ Boo Di>> ™Since my eyes caught sight of you™ ™they brim over with you alone,™ Min Jon>> ™Touch Me again and tell me™ ™what did you wish for? "As my breath mingles with yours™ ™I can breath again ™ Boo Di>> ™ The Fragrance of your body touches my soul™

hoke judaa kab main jiya (how can I live separated from you) tu hai kahaan main kahaan (you are there, I am here) teri yaadon mein khoya rehta hoon (I am lost in your memories) mujhko dasti hai tanhaaiyan (my solitude hurts me) phirta rahoon dar badar (I wander from door to door) milta nahi tera nishaan (yet I don't find any sign of yours) hoke judaa kab main jiya (how can I live separated from you) tu hai kahaan main kahaan (you are there, I am here) tu jo judaa ho gayi (as you separated from me) teri sadaa kho gayi (your hope sound is lost) dekh le phir zindagi (look how my life again) haa kya se kya ho gayi (has changed from what it was) jab se bichdi hoon

After all, they will just turn me down. Since when did I had the rights to speak for myself? No one lets me speak though. And no one listens. I hope I am mute. I had a sleepless night again. When I got home yesterday, I just locked myself here in my room. Drowning in the silence of my room. It's the only thing that hugs my lonely soul. I'm so broken. I really do.

Alone. I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE! I AM ALONE!