Toxic Friendship Novels & Stories

Halos gusto ko siyang ipakaladkad palabas para lang hindi ko siya makita. SHE RUINED OUR FRIENDSHIP. Inuna niya ang kapakanan kaysa sa iba. Nakapa selfish niya. Inuna niya ang pansariling kasiyahan njya at hindi man lang nag isip na merong masasaktan sa ginawa niya.

Nahihiya ako dahil masaya pa ako kanina na makita at makasama ulit sila ngayon. "Nahuhulog kaming tatlo sayo and we don't want to ruin our friendship because of the puppy love," sabi ni Lee. Kahit nagulat sa pag-amin nila hindi ko parin magawang magsalita. To protect their friendship, they need to leave me behind, they need to lie, they need to hurt my feelings, they need to stop caring for me. To protect them, they need to stay away from me. It's hurting me more cause I thought I'm already part of their friendship but now I realized, I'm not.. and I will never be part of them.

R18 I sigh frustratedly. "Get me another bottle of water!" I demanded as I handed him my card. He smiled then stood up leaving my card behind. He jogged back to me and handed me the water bottle. "Ito sky! Hehehe friends na ba tayo?" he innocently asked "No! I hate friendship!" I immediately turn him down. I really hate betrayals. "Uy! Sige na. Sige more than friends nalang." I glared at him then kick his leg.

sarkastikong tanong niya dito. "That's the truth. She ran away from you... willingly. Maybe she hated you, and she doesn't want someone who has anger issues. She wants someone who is calm for her child—" Isa pang malakas na suntok ang ginawad niya sa kaibigan. Pumaling ang mukha nito ngunit hindi lumaban. "Our friendship is over. Pull out all of your investments in my businesses. I don't want any traitors near me," malamig niyang saad dito bago ito iwan sa sala niya.

Siguradong mawawalan din siya ng interes at aastang parang walang nangyari. I want a friend but my problem is I get attached too easily. And things get hard for me when a person I get emotionally attached to leaves. I have this kind of toxic belief that loving too much is not that bad. And I know I will be doomed because of that belief. I love others so much that I lose myself. Or when they leave, it feels like something in me has been lost. Napatingin ako sa katabi ko at nakita ko pa ang panlalaki ng mga niya na tila ba natakot sa akin. Wala nga akong ginagawang masama.

Hindi ko alam pero nung binanggit niya ang salitang friend ay may halong pagdadalawang-isip. "If she was a friend to you. Why didn't you stopped her from harming herself? If she was a friend to you, why didn't you stopped her from doing drugs? If she was a friend to you, why did you let her DIE!" I shouted. Hinarap ko siya. Nakita ko kung paano ito umiling. "T-Those t-two killed her!" Sigaw nito pabalik. Hearing her words makes my frustrations, pain and anger back and before I know it. I explode. Inisang hakbang ko ang pagitan naming dalawa ni Sophia at puno ng gigil na hinawakan ko ang leeg nito.

"Am I overacting? Tss... Nagsimula rin kaming mag-away no’n dahil parati talaga siyang walang oras sa akin. O kung kakausapin niya ako ay laging tungkol sa ’yo. Kesyo kapag nandito ka na, ganito ganiyan. That’s the reason why I hated you in the very first place. Kaya ganoon na lang din ang galit ko no’ng naging kami ni Luis at nalaman kong bestfriend ka niya. Sobrang toxic ko to the point na pinalalayo ko siya sa ’yo... Kasi naiinggit ako. Parang..." Napasinghap ako. "Parang ako naman. Ako naman ’yong ikuwento nila lagi. Ako naman ’yong intindihin. Ako naman ’yong hanapin. Pahingi n atensyon. Kasi hindi nga ’yon nagawa ng mga magulang ko tapos msiki ba naman kapatid at boyfriend ko, ganoon.

A part me of says that, but then the other part says the otherwise, "No matter how strong your friendship is, your confession will surely ruin it. Not totally ruin but it could make a gap between the two of you, worst than the gap made when you try to hide your leukemia. After all, you are a girl, a woman just like her, the same gender as her, and to think that you feel something for her more than a friendship..."

She asked again. I shooked my head. "Surgeon doctor, pero pag hindi palarin. I'll take over my family legacy." She nodded her head then said, "That's great... Im looking forward to be friends with you." Ngumiti ako sa sinabi niya. Kaibigan? Do I really need a friend? I have a lot of friends but some of them are using me, in short toxic.