Novel & Cerita Toxic Friendship

Things blurred out as I succumb to the reality of what i've done. I am such a bad friend.

Wala naman akong balak na pakinggan siya at kung ano pa man ang sasabihin niya dahil nakapagdesisyon na rin naman ako. "Trey, huwag na natin gawin na mas komplikado pa ang mga bagay-bagay sa pagitan natin. Nasabi ko na sa’yo ang lahat ng nais ko na sabihin at wala na akong nais pa na idagdag doon. Wala rin akong balak na pilitin ka na matanggap ang relasyon namin. And as I have told you, I am ending my friendship with you because it is what's best not just for the both of us but for all of us." I know I am hurting him with my words and my actions, but this is better than continuing to hurt each other in the process.

I wasn’t. Right? I let out a shaky laugh. “Ang tanga mo minsan, Vience. Baklang-bakla ka na ba to the point na pati sex life ng friendship mo ay pinagseselosan mo?” I tried to shake off the tension in my chest, but it wouldn’t leave. I was supposed to be her best friend. I’ve always been the friend. The steady one. The dependable one. The safe, gay one. So why did it hurt like hell when she said it?

Sakit sa ulo. Okay lang naman sana na hindi lang isa 'yung magkakagusto sa akin. Kaya lang magbestfriend kasi ang dalawa. I don't want them to fight dahil lang sa akin. Ruined frienship is the worst. Especially when the reason is the person you both liked. I knew that entering this kind of mission is not easy. Hindi pa pala 'yung pagiging rude ni Timothee aa akin ang pinakamahirap kong gawin. Ito din pala and I am not expecting this.

I cut her off before she say something that will ruin my mood. "They're so loud and they keep insisting to make a friend with me." I said cutting her off. Since that day, the three of us became friends, I was with them in all the silly things, in my miserable state and in my happiness. They keep their promise that they would never leave me no matter what and because of them I forgot the reason why I became a cold and difficult person to deal with. And I'm different person now and the sweet, energetic and cheerful Fantassia before is gone.

at iyon ang mahalaga. Ngumiti ako ng mapait. Mayamaya, napatingin ako sa bibliya na nasa aking tabi. Kinuha ko ito at saka binuklat. Hinanap ko ang bible verse about friendship. One who has unrealiable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. (Proverbs 18:24 NIV) Natigilan ako sa pagbabasa nang biglang tumunog ang cellphone ko.

Parang dito nalang ata ang matatapos ang pagkakaibigan namin? Napahugulgol ako dahil sa pinagsasabi ng isip ko. Malabong hindi mangyayare iyon, diba? Kaibigan ko siya-- hindi lang isang kaibigan-- kapatid na ang tingin ko sa kanya. Alam ko may tiwala siya sa akin pero sinira ko dahil sa rason na di ko mapipigilan ang sarili ko sa mga needs na iyan. 'sorry' iyan lang ang kaya kung sabihin sa nasasaktan ko at masasaktan ko. I didn't meant it to hurt them.

Ang iba pa ay napapalingon na sa amin. I almost forgot that envious people will keep dragging you down with them and paint you dirty just so they would come out clean and stood above you. Ayaw nilang nauungusan sila. Laging gusto nila ay sila ang bida. I had seen and spotted signs that Florence was actually like this even before. I refused to believe in them because I really saw her as a friend and I was hungry for friendship even at my age now. Tama pala si Roma... I have to be careful in choosing my friends because friendship was like entrusting my whole life with my sibling from another mother. May ilang ituturing kang kapatid pero may iba ring gagamitin ka lang.

“To Maddie and Erika, I’m sorry for almost ruining your friendship. Had I known that you are best friends, I would not have dated both of you. Good friends are difficult to find and I know that what you guys have is far greater than just being good friends, you are practically sisters.” “When you find that kind of friendship, you should do everything to protect it. Please, don’t let an asshole like me ruin such a precious thing. I am not asking you to reconcile for me, but if you do, which I know you will, do it to save yourselves from a lifetime of incompleteness without each other.”

uii SI Lola kinikilg 😆 bakit dimo Sabihin sa knya Ang totoo? ‎kasi la feel nya I bullying her.so natatapos nalang sa Wala usapang namin. ‎at the end friends parin .la dumating na kami la sa part may iBa na syang friend at gusto na nya Yung guy!la it hurts Lola .. ‎ Ang apo ko tlaga parang hindi ka Moreno! gayahin mo ang Lolo mo kung daw di kayang aGawin sa santong dasalan aGawain mo sa sa santong paspasan hahaa!!