LOGINCONNOR
Connor had walked out on me without the slightest remorse after I tried to speak to him about how wrong he was for setting Lola up like that.
Standing there as I watched him leave, I felt like a little pawn in Eddy's board, my thoughts in a shattered mess, and my shoulders hanging above my head as the guests around the bar walked around me, murmuring and pointing fingers.
That was the least of my worries.
Since the previous day, I had been busy reaching out to the various media houses and blog operators that had Lola's incident on their site, asking them personally to take the pictures down.
After the last time I saw Lola, I had been trying to reach her to no avail. It bothered me, but not enough to make me want to endure sleeping under the same roof with Eddy last night.
I had spent the night in my own house, even gone to the hospital to clear some work load off my desk — these were well against the rules in honor of the week, but standing before Mr. Gregory Langford, having to endure his rage and endless questioning was way better than having blood on my hands with Eddy's head on a platter.
Parked in a secluded corner along the old Riverside highway, I killed the engine.
The air was cool, and the silence perfect as my knuckles whitened against my grip of the steering wheel as I tried to process the series of thoughts that had been webbed in my head since Eddy's ridiculous proposal.
Peering straight into the road ahead, my brain jumped on a memory causing my veins to relax slightly into acceptance.
I rolled my eyes at nothing in particular trying to remember where I had dumped the invitation — the thick black card with gold letterings one of my VIP patients had pulled in my face yesterday.
Finally, my gaze flickered to the front passenger seat and there it was, lying like it had been waiting to be finally picked up.
My eyes scrolled across the information on the card.
FACELESS
86 OldMill Road,
WestHaven
11:00 P.M.
I sighed, flinging the card back on the seat, but I couldn't stop thinking about the old man's words yesterday evening.
"Sometimes, life gets too hard for you to crack even with support from your closest people. Try strangers."
I shut my eyes, drawing in a long breath and finally, exhaling slowly.
My fingers moved blindly until they found the card again.
Pulling it to my face, I traced on the letters slowly, finally coming to a conclusion.
"Whatever!"
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Pulling my car into the driving lot, I saw a lot of other cars covered in trampolines.
As soon as I got off mine, a man wearing dark clothes and a mask concealing most parts of his face strode up to me.
He handed me a small basket with a card in it.
Thereafter, I had to give in my phone and car keys.
As I proceeded towards the building as directed by the instructions on the new card, I turned to see him pulling another trampoline over my car.
"What's the big deal," I muttered, but deep down, I was satisfied seeing them keep to their standards of anonymity as the description promised.
The card guide led me to a small clean room that I was sure could not accommodate another human if we wanted to move around freely.
There was a chair and a table with a bottle of water, packaged snacks, and a pair of head sets.
I noticed several tiny fixtures on the wall which I suspected were ridiculously mini speakers.
Carefully, I inspected every corner of the room for anything else that was out of the ordinary.
I didn't feel weird or strange even with how much my brain over analyzed things to get my suspicions up.
I drew out the chair and sank in, adjusting the headsets over my ears.
Silence.
So, I cleared my throat and spoke first.
"I think I am in love with the wrong woman. At the same time, I feel like it is a trap. Now, it's beginning to look like I have to choose between two people that ___," I hesitated, my pulse gathering.
I blew out a hot exhale.
"It's beginning to look like I have to choose between two people who mean the world to me."
Caring less about if I was even going to get any reply, I pulled my weight against the table, my head slumping into my palms as I tried to catch my breath.
I had just pointed out my mess to myself aloud.
I had barely exhaled after the deep inhale when a voice, electronically distorted, cracked alive from the speakers around me, causing me to slowly sit back upright in total awe and visible curiosity.
"I know exactly what you're going through. I have been there."
Silence. I listened again.
"(Deep rumble) Seems really tough. That is why I don't allow myself to get too invested."
I listened again, trying to decipher if the two answers came from different sources, if there were other people listening from different parts of the huge building, if this was truly safe, a lot of things that I needed answers to.
Then, I was forced to focus again when another answer cracked through the speakers.
It started with a low sound that sounded like the person finally got the perfect answer to my predicament.
Then...
"Forbidden romance?"
My breathing missed a beat.
"It doesn't sound like it is going to be related to incest, you are ahead by that. That leaves us with the last consideration."
My adrenaline shot up in high expectations. I thought about the many things that could go wrong, and prevent me from getting the remaining parts of the current speaker's answers.
My fingers clutched in tight knuckles against the table, my breathing a slow pattern of inhale and exhale as I listened expectantly.
"Between us, you already have a side. Something is probably holding you back from standing at all cost on the side you have chosen."
I adjusted in my seat. It was the same speaker — the same deep, knowing voice.
"And let me guess, you know your answer. No pity. No obligations. Stand your ground. Own your choice."
There was a loud beep after the last word, and the wave signals suddenly disconnected abruptly.
My eyes stared hard against the table top, and in that moment, it seemed as though my thoughts were tearing apart, standing as individual strands of emotions, then finally starting to connect, in line, every thought leading the other and finally...I felt strong on a decision.
Then, the speakers yanked alive to a new wave signal.
"Women are like good food, you can always find another item on a new menu. Maybe...."
I didn't wait for whomever it was to finish his nonsense, I yanked the headsets off and hurried out.
FREDDYThrough practice, I couldn't stop thinking about Lola. Maybe because I knew she was watching me like old times, and it sparked feelings that ought to have stayed buried until forever.Through the banter between her, my father and Eddy, I couldn't care less. I just stayed at the parts of her body that weren't concealed under the jacket draped across her shoulders.As soon as I got the opportunity to ask, I took it, and of course, Lola couldn't say No to me.It was a little hard convincing my coach to allow me to stay outside the team house. By the time I had concluded with the boys, checked into a hotel room, got a shave and freshened up, time was far spent.As I scurried into the elevator for the fifth floor, I wondered if she was waiting up for me or perhaps, given up and gone to bed.But then, Eddy was there. I didn't expect him to be. I didn't turn back though. I hadn't made all of those arrangements to chicken out of his presence."You shouldn't have said that, Freddy. What
LOLAAnother knock broke out against my door — sharp, impatient.My breathing seized for a second."Freddy!" I muttered, clutching tight at the material initially hanging between my fingers.My eyes were watery from my own arousal, and I couldn't wait to finally be able to feel the emotions that remained unlocked in my heart.My cheeks burnt red. I was so embarrassed that I packed up the box and shoved them under the sheets.Adjusting the belt of my bath robe, I did a short breathing exercise to keep my voice firm.Clutching the knob of the door, I took one last deep breath before yanking it open.I gagged, my chest tightening to the sight in front of me. Not only did I not expect to see Eddy in front of my door by the time of the night, I was too fired up to handle whatever he had come to say.It was ridiculous, but I wondered if he was here because of what I said to him at the stadium, and I feared we might end up doing something we both would regret by morning."Hi, Eddy," my voice
LOLAWith my heart hammering hard against my chest, I hurried through the lonely path that led back to the stadium where the rest of the family ought to still be.I was sure practice had ended, and me missing right in that moment wouldn't look too good. The plan was to get there first, and then, Connor could come later.Standing before my father-in-law, all sweaty, my breathing giving away the fact that I had jogged all the way back, I thought of the best response to a question he had not even asked."We had been done for a while now. We were worried," Greg spoke, his eyes scanning every inch of my body in a way that felt rather uncomfortable.Struggling to keep my breathing steady and my shoulders up, I looked from my father-in-law to Eddy — his face was locked in an expression that told me just how much he wanted to say and how he was just waiting for the right time to come at me.Freddy was standing behind them, arms folded across his chest, skin glazed with sweat and his gaze send
CONNORI wasn't a hockey person. I loved playing and watching outdoor games, but not hockey. Any other thing can work, not just hockey. Nevertheless, I had travelled to Norway with the Langfords to support Eddy's younger brother's game which was upon request by the director.He had texted me about it, and because Lola was going too, I knew I had to be there.Eddy might be right. I was there because of his wife, but there was a continuation of that truth Eddy didn't bother to add.I was there because I wanted to make sure his wife was protected from him.Through the flight, I had noticed Lola's discomfort, but I didn't get the opportunity to ask her why even until we had to watch skating on the ice.When I became fed up pretending like I was enjoying the practice game, I excused myself and went in search of even greater fun."Miss what?" she asked, the tension in her voice breaking apart."Get here first," I urged, leaning against the closest wall to me."What did you say?" her voice
LOLAI was mostly to myself through the flight, my thoughts everywhere, and my body doing a good job staying calm despite the storm that brewed underneath my skin.It was a long journey. When we touched down at the Norway airport, I was too tired to even think straight, and I felt too sleepy. I couldn't wait to be ushered into our rooms, then take a long hot shower and hide under the blankets, away from the reality I could never actually ever run from.Then, my father in law's words delivered like a blow to my face, "We will watch his practice tonight.""What the heck!" Eddy blurted out, his voice rising above his usual beat."You heard me, Eddy," Mr. Greg shot at him, looking around to make sure nobody had any other objection.Eddy was obviously not comfortable with the plan. He sighed, tugging at his tie uncomfortably as he paced around the space in front of him.Connor, on the other hand, stood at a distance with his hands folded, and his face holding a solid neutral expression.I
EDDYMy father makes the most spontaneous decisions. No wonder it was always difficult to work with him, and he thinks I am still not good enough.I pulled out another stick from the cigarette pack I had in my other hand. Sighing, I lit it and had drawn a long puff from it when I noticed someone was loitering beside me."We just had to board a flight when we had better options," I sighed, leaning back on the wall of the cabin. I was pissed standing as a family with Freddy, Lola and my father. Freddy was a freaking rival as long as I was concerned, and Lola? an intruder that was going to be done serving her purpose soon. So, I had strolled to a quiet corner to get a smoke or two."It's just impossible to please that old man!" I snapped, stomping my feet hard on the ground, pulling my jacket closer, and readjusting my scarf to cover my face.I drew another long puff from my cigarette, releasing it towards the mass of fog in front of me, my brain suddenly getting weary of the other pres
FREDDYI stretched hard against the softness of the sheets with my jet black duvet in a dump against my body like it was casually abandoned there.My eyes were still shut but I could feel the slight warmth of the morning sun against my face."Don't shut your eyes. Watch me."Immediately, my eyes sl
FREDDYI turned sharply to the door, my body cold with a feeling I couldn't admit as fear.But Lola had dived off my body, swift, like she had been waiting for this moment.Then, she was at the door, but she didn't open it.She locked it.I watched her turn the lock intentionally, twice, the sound
CONNOR"Was that necessary?" I straightened my posture, turning to look at Eddy, my body stiff from anger I could not fully express - partly because it might end up stripping bare my secret feelings, Eddy could read through lines, and then, because I still wanted to respect my friend whose house I
FREDMONI turned endlessly on my bed, regretting why I had made the decision to come back to my family.I hated them. I didn't need them. I was doing well in Europe. They appreciate my music. I had a comfortable life, and I slept well.I was this close to booking a flight for the next morning, but







