Novel & Cerita Aku Benci Pikiran Ku

I confess " Liar, Koi is super boring, I am sure of it. He is always bossing orders, and he is very quick to anger" He says " I am pretty sure he is the worst of us 3" " First of all, you should really stop referring to yourself as 3, that's just creepy. I mean if I were to have sex with you, wouldn't that be like we are having a foursome" I complain " Yeah that's weird, I am sorry" He agrees

Kaya pala wala pang tumatama sakin kasi yung driver nasa harapan ko. "Are you out of your mind, do you really want this just because of that fucking sherwin, dahil niloko ka lang gagantuhin mo na buhay mo, ganon mo ba talaga siya kamahal?" Mas lalo akong napaiyak dahil sa sinabi nito.

I murmur the words tasting bitter in my mouth. It can’t be Anacostia, that bitch is too dumb to even guess the way my mind works and this words are written too right for her type of IQ since her writing isn’t and would never be on par with mine! Not sure how she ever got the top spot before! I try to brush it off, but the words stick. They cling in that annoying way thoughts do when they’ve hit something real. “𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒐𝒏’𝒕 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒊𝒕.”

Maagap niyang apila, tila nataranta pa nga. Naiirita na ako. Bakit hindi na lang niya ako direstsahin, ‘di ba? Gusto pa niyang magpaligoy-ligoy, eh. Ayos lang sana ang ideya na iyon kung gusto ko ang presensya niya. Eh, hindi! Allergic ako sa mga taong plastic. Ayaw ko sa mga lumulutang! "Ano ba 'yon?" Bakit hindi mo masabi agad?

Huwaaaa 😭😭😭😭😭 I Envy my own character. Please, I was crazy now 😭😭😭😭

And the worst part about this weird thought that just popped up in my head is that I can’t even clear the stupid thought from my mind because I know it is what Jimmy is capable of doing when the spirit of stupidity enters into me. But God help him if he actually decides to be stupid and think from his ass rather than from the brain he was blessed with because he will not live to witness the end of my rage and this is not even a joke. I would be absolutely pissed with him for more than a month if he decides to embarrass me like that.

Akira's POV I can't seem to believe what my mind is pointing me to, because it's just so unbelievable and it would be extremely disappointing if that is the case. 'But… let me slow down a bit.' I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to relieve the tension I have within. Exhaling intermittently, the tension in me drowns and all I have with me is different thoughts that I can't just seem to wrap my head around. 'if she is the one, why will she want to kill me?' I asked myself but I couldn't get an answer to my thoughts. It's just so bothering that it could be like that and I can't just get myself to believe that kind of fallacy.

('AM TIRED OF YOU AXEL, YOU FLIP ME OFF LIKE AM ONE UNIMPORTANT ENTITY WHENEVER I GIVE A SUGGESTION, YOU IGNORE MY ADVICE LIKE AM A NUISANCE'). He was a nuisance but I didn't say that out. ('THE HELL MAN!!!!!!AM YOUR MIND AND YOU KNOW I CAN HEAR YOUR THOUGHTS') Geezzzz I completely forgot 'I already apologized Sabastien what more do you want from me, what do I do to make you accept my apology'. ('OHH THERE'S A LOT YOU CAN DO BELIEVE ME BUT AM JUST GONNA ALONG AND MAKE ONE REQUEST.....FROM NOW ON, I WANT YOU TO START TREATING ME WITH RESPECT').

I was almost tearing up, and I took a pillow from the sofa, gently hugging it. “ You always have a choice. You do, you just have to make a scale of preference and chose the ones that are most important to you”. “ Look, I don't think I can do it. I don't think I can bring myself to learn from Hakim. I just hate him so much that………..gosh, I won't be able to grasp anything. My mind has a mind of it's own, it's ironic, but that's what it is, and not only has this mind of mine projected me to look at him and see nothing but a trash can, it has also influenced my heart to shut him off. There is no fucking way that I can train under such psychological and mental circumstances”, I said.

Why do I even think of someone from this side like that? Who does he think I am? "Your face is turning into an ugly roach"