Novel & Cerita Fearful

Kael finally said in a low voice, “being scared is normal. Fear means you actually care. But if you let that fear control you, you’ll never know if what you’re holding back from could’ve been something real… something lasting.” Naramdaman ko ang paghagod niya sa likod ko, na para bang naiintindihan niya ang nararamdaman ko. Napakagat labi ako at mabilis pinunasan ang luha sa gilid ng mga mata ko.

Tahimik na akong naglakad at pinakiramdaman ko na ang paligid. Ngunit napahinto na lamang ako nang biglang nagsitayuan ang aking mga balahibo. Nanginig ang buo kong katawan. Fear is enveloping my core like something is about to kill me. This awfully familiar feeling is something I will never forget Demon!

Hindi 'ko alam ang dahilan kung bakit ganoon sila kung makatitig na para bang si Frelan ay isang hari na dapat na respetuhin, na dapat katakutan at higit sa lahat ay ang labis na paghanga. I looked up at Frelan but I can't find any emotions from his face instead it was plain serious and cold. His eyes was dark and scary. It's shivering the inside of me, the kind of aura that we should be afraid. Now I know why people looked at him like he was the scariest man alive just by seeing his emotionless face. I thought he would be affected by the people who keeps on staring at him but I'm wrong.

At 'yon ang dahilan kung bakit parang takot si Ruan sa biglaan n'yang pagtawag sa akin? The thought was unbearable, a relentless tide of anxiety threatening to sweep me away. Hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko kayang malagay si Ruan sa kapahamakan. Lalo na at ako ang dahilan. I tried to rationalize, to dismiss my fears as mere overreactions, but the unease persisted, a persistent whisper in the back of my mind. My mind raced, spinning out of control, each thought fueling the next, each fear amplifying the last.

Akala ko nga pipe ito. Sumunod na kami rito sa paglalakad. Kinikilabutan ako habang napapatingin ako sa paligid. Pakiramdam ko kasi, ano man oras ay biglang may aatake sa amin. Nagiging paranoid na ako dahil sa mga nangyari. "Keep your eyes forward. You are creating a larger fear." Puna ni Cayden sa akin.

“It’s okay. Simulan natin sa pakiramdam. Saan mo siya nararamdaman sa katawan mo?” Napaisip si Alexis. “Sa dibdib. Parang may biglang bumibigat.” “Good. Let’s name it. The fear. Is it fear of being hurt again, or fear of not being in control?” “Pareho,” sagot niya, habang pilit na pinipigilan ang luha.

Yung urgency, yung fear na pilit niyang tinatago. Hindi ko namalayan nakayuko na pala ako, hawak ulo ko, at umiiyak ako nang hindi ko mapigilan. No walls, no control, just pure fear. Umiiyak ako para kay Helga, para kay Mattheus, para sa future na bigla na lang parang mawawala. Ramdam ko ang kamay ni Lolo Gerardo sa balikat ko, pero walang salita. Kasi wala naman talagang words sa ganitong oras.

She saw Kraner walking towards her kaya naman itinulak n’ya ang katawan ni Arman at mabilis na tumayo para salubungin ang nobyo na bakas ang matinding pag-aalala para sa kanya. “Damn it, Amelia!” he exclaimed, pulling her into a fierce embrace. Without hesitation, she wrapped her arms around him, holding on just as tightly. Her whole body was trembling with fear. In all her life, she had never felt terror like this before—not only for her own sake but for the safety of the two people she loved most deeply. The weight of that fear pressed down on her chest, making her heart pound relentlessly.

Mabilis kong pinatay ang computer so no one would find out about it in case I collapse again. I am dumbfounded. I feel terrified. I feel dizzy. Anxiety and fear are attacking again. Tumayo ako at agad nanlambot ang mga tuhod ko at mas lalo akong nahilo. I hear ringing in my ears. I hear the distorted sound of the air conditioner. I hear a high frequency sound in my ears.

Nakakahiya, pero wala na akong nagawa. Nagtagpo ang paningin namin. At sa isang iglap, parang may kakaibang init na dumaloy sa gitna ng kaba ko. Hindi ko siya kilala, pero sa paraan ng pagsasalita niya at sa kalmadong ekspresyon ng kanyang mga mata, parang gusto kong maniwala na safe nga ako. “You’re scared, not just of flying, but because you feel alone. But right now, you’re here, and you’re safe. Focus on me, okay? It’s just me and you, breathing slowly.”