Novel & Cerita Fearful

chapter 34 vl pov. f*ck!I am so d*mn nervous!I feel scared too!hindi rin ako mapakali.natatakot ako sa kalalabasan ng pagkikita namin.tang ina !para na kong bakla sa sobrang kabang nararamdaman ko. hindi ko alam kung matatanggap niya ba ako o hindi lalo na at ngayon palang niya ko makikita.

 | ＴＨＩＲＤ ＰＡＧＥ | // "Can you control those fears who always defeated you?" \\ ___ "CONTROL YOUR FEAR, September." Mariin nitong pahayag sa kaniya. Nasa kulungan parin sila ngayon at nag-uusap kinabukasan. They're now starting to mend her and the first step, control her fears. "Every step is connected. You need to control in order not to feel anxious. Not to think negativity that can results to anxiety attack then can lead to another death, September. You need to control it." pahayag nito at mahina siyang tumango.

Parang may pumipisil sa dibdib niya. Parang hindi siya makahinga ng maayos. Napapikit si Emilio at halos mapaumura ulit sa subrang pag-aalala. Napaupo siya at tinakpan ang buong mukha habang nanginginig na sa galit at takot. For the first time, fear crept in... Not just anger. Pure fear. Paano kung mahuli siya? Hindi niya kayang isipin ang kasunod noon.

"Fuck! move!" I don't fucking care if everyone's on there business, gustuhin ko man silang bangain dahil sa bagal nilang kumilos, gusto ko ng makita ang asawa ko at hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko kung ano mang mangyari sa kanya, I don't know what am I feeling right now but one thing is for sure I'm afraid.

Bahala sila diyan. Panay rin ang pag-vibrate ng phone ko pero hindi ko iyon pinapansin. Isang oras din ang biyahe. Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko. Pilit na pinapakalma ang sarili. Bakit ba ako nagkakaganito? Ano bang tawag sa emosyong ito? Everything is new to me. Lately, I've struggled to just feel. I've been fearful of what it means to admit I'm angry or sad. Fearful that admitting it will only drown me or smother me further.

Nararamdaman niya ang malakas na kabog ng kaniyang dibdib ‘What is this feeling? Is this fear? A-Am I…scared?’ “N-No way…” na-ibulong ni Alexander sa kaniyang sarili tapos naghuling tingin siya kay Nathan na matamis pa rin ang tingin sa kaniya. “Your crazy!” Nabulyaw ni Alexander dahil sa takot na kaniyang nararamdaman. Nang marinig ni Nathan ang sinabi ni Alexander sa kaniya ay muli siyang kumurap kurap at nawala ang kaniyang ngiti.

And I don't want this. Ramdam na ramdam ko iyon at kahit hindi ko gustuhin ay tila nakakaramdam ako ng isang emosyon na hindi ko dapat maramdaman at iyon ay ang kaba. And maybe there's really fear eating my system because facing' the demon is not easy and daring him is something that can make me doubt and feel the anxiety crawling within me. I pour my fear as I kiss Eros, pero tila naramdaman nito ang kakaiba kaya tinulak nito ako sandali at hinayaan na

The heat of my blood seemed to scorch my skin, igniting every nerve ending in my body with a fiery pain. "Mommy," I called out, my voice trembling. Mommy Ana hurried over and cradled me in her arms. "Are my babies safe? I-I can't see, Mommy," I asked, my words coming out in a shaky whisper, barely audible even to myself. But Mommy remained silent, her stillness a loud proclamation of fear and worry. "Lily!" I heard Reid's shout. I turned to look at him, but his expression was blurred in my vision. His face emerged from the darkness, his eyes filled with fear and concern, and every tear that streamed from his eyes seemed to drip with regret and longing.

Her voice trembled slightly at the end, her words rushed. I frowned, the words stirring something protective in me. “This is a public hospital, Miss. You don’t have to worry about the expenses—” But once again, she cut me off, this time with a deep breath. I watched as she hesitated, clearly reluctant, but then finally met my eyes. The moment our gazes locked, I felt something strange, almost unnerving. Her eyes. Hazel brown, strikingly beautiful but filled with a deep sense of fear, uncertainty, and a sorrow so palpable it felt like it clung to her. Bakit? Is she suffering from something? Bakit mukhang takot na takot siya?

"It makes me scared, baby... I am happy as fuck, but I am afraid at the same time." Gustong kumawala ng mga luha ko at napaganti ako ng yakap kay Vander. "A-ano ba ang sinasabi mo? I am just saying those dahil gusto ko at yun ang nararamdaman ko." Saad ko sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung malakas lang talaga ang pakiramdam ni Vander. Pero wala sa plano ko ang iwan siya. Not again. Not ever. "I rather want you to be not this sweet, than being like this but making me feel scared. I know I am just being paranoid, but I don't know...my heart is feeling this way." His voice sounded fear and sadness.