Novel & Cerita I Hate Myself So Much

I hate myself for this, I hate myself for this so much, I just can't forgive myself at all. I'm hurting him,I know I am. It's sad I can't be with who I want to be with.

I hate myself for this, I hate myself for this so much, I just can't forgive myself at all. I'm hurting him,I know I am. It's sad I can't be with who I want to be with.

I Hate U, I Love U" is a song by American singer and rapper Gnash featuring American singer Olivia O'Brien. It was released on February 17, 2016) I stopped the song in middle because I felt a strong pain in my heart and my eyes were red shedding tears.My mind was filled with my lovable night with him in F city. It was like a dream for me.I always tried to control my feelings for him but I never succeeded. I hurts me so much whenever I think of him.Although my life is complete with a caring husband and a lovely child I always felt some emptiness in my heart.

I couldn't stop my tears from falling out of my eyes. "Looking at me as if I am just a pretty object that they can toss aside when they're bored. I know that you all hated me! Stop pretending to be nice and just go away!" My voice cracked while saying that. My throat hurts as if it's burning. "That's because you hate yourself!" My forehead creased after hearing him say that. After all the things that I did to him, he's naive to say that I hate myself. I'm selfish, and I probably want to escape by death because that's the easy way to end all of my problems.

He’s gone. “Someone, please get me out of here!” I scream my lungs out. I’m breaking down in tears. I’m frustrated and hurt. Everything hurts. I hate myself. I hate everything. Most of all, I hate being a daughter that forgets her dad’s birthday. I hate myself for coming here. I fucking hate everything. I growl out loudly, but my broken voice only bounces the wall.

Just emptiness. And I hated myself for it. “Useless. Incompetent. Fool.” I growled, seated alone at the bar in my living room. My hand trembled as I slapped my cheek. My eyes were bloodshot from holding back tears I didn’t want to show, and I couldn’t hold them anymore. “Useless. Useless.” I whispered again, hitting myself once more before finally breaking. The tears poured out, and I sank into myself. Why me? Why all of this?

How can someone be so heartless and make you even lose something that you truly own. I know that I will be dying so soon. Not when I am in this position. I feel so weak. I feel so much pain and I feel disgusted my myself. I was not able to even keep the only thing that I had. I feel so much hatred towards myself. I hate the fact that I was even born in this world in the first place.

I’m the reason he hates me. Lucas gets up from his seat and comes over to me, wrapping his arms around me. He lets me cry on his shoulder for a solid thirty minutes, as everything I had kept in for the past month finally bursts through the mental dam I had built. Sobs heave out of me in a constant stream, as well as my doubts, fears and hatred of myself. I had made this horrid bed, yet I can’t stand lying amongst the thorns. “I don’t know what to do,” I admit, the confession half-strangled, half-whispered.

I hated myself for being an Omega and being reminded of my shortcomings make me want to kill myself. “ You can hate my kind all you want. After all I wasn't the one that decided to make myself like this. I can't change my form and if you don't like my personality, suck it up because I don't give a damn about your opinion.” I belted,tears breaking free from my eyes.

I mean, I was probably inside this chamber for just five minutes but it felt like the time extended to more than an hour. "What do you hate about yourself?" I blinked a few times because of that question. My mind went blank for a couple of seconds before I got the words to answer. "I hate myself for valuing the rankings, that I end up killing myself from pressure just to get on the top. I hate myself for always wanting what's grand and end up ignoring those little things that actually are more vital." A bitter smile spread on my lips. "I hate myself for following the stiff standards of society and for always thinking that everything is alright ... Leading myself to have a hard time accepting