I'm Hurting Romane & Geschichten

"Ryza!" Dinig kong sigaw ni Ruther pero para akong itinulos sa aking kinauupuan. Napahawak ako sa aking ulo dahil bigla ring sumakit 'yon. Matinding sakit na para bang gusto ko ng iumpog na lang sa pader para matapos na ang lahat. There are images. I heard people shouting, mumbling, and asking each of everyone. The feeling was familiar. I know I'm not hurt... but my head hurts... so bad.

Inis akong humiga at itinakip sa mukha ang blanket ko. Araw araw siyang pumupunta rito sa bahay at pilit na kinakausap ako. Hindi man lang ba siya napapagod? Alam kong nasasaktan siya ng sobra sa nangyayari kaya bakit hindi niya magawang tumigil para maalis na ang sakit na naidudulot ko? He must give up on me because he’s just hurting himself. He’s also hurting me.

I was hurt so bad! ***

Do these actions indicate that I have indeed fallen in love with her? I'm confused about my feelings, but just imagining hurting her hurts me deeply.

I said coldly. Damn! It hurts! Screw it Mino!

All I can do is cry. “Bell 407, can you hear me? Captain Costales, can you hear me?” I heard from the headset. I couldn’t reach it. I couldn’t move. Everything hurts so bad. “P-Please… h-help m-me,” I cried slowly. I held on to what's piercing in my chest and shouted when it move. Mas lumalim ang baon noon sa aking dibdib, tumatagos sa aking likuran. “Arghh!” I shouted because it hurts so bad

he informed me. I creased my forehead and tried to remember what happened, but my head just hurts. As far as I can remember I am always taking care of myself and as much as possible I don't want myself to be hurt or have any scratches.

I tried to hold back my tears when I'm in the middle of our staircase but as much as I want hold it back,lalo lang akong napapaiyak. When I reach my room doon na nagsimulang tumulo ang mga luha ko.I'm always their disappointment.Kailanman ay hindi sila naging proud sa akin.Sa tuwing sinasabi nilang disappointed sila sa mga nagagawa ko, pag-iyak lang ang nagagawa ko.God knows how much I tried to be strong and to hold back my tears pero talagang masakit. I was deeply wounded by their words.I may not be hurt physically but emotionally...I was totally damaged.

Nang tumayo sila at gusto nilang lumapit ay pinigilan ko sila. Let me release all the pain you've inflicted on me. I stopped them. I'm broke, sad, angry and deeply hurt. Parang pinagkaisahan ako ng mundo. Kumakain ako ng marami kahit busog ay pinilit ko pa ring kumain kahit may mga dumi sa mukha ko. Nahihirapan pa akong huminga kaya sinuntok suntok ko ang aking dibdib at pagkatapos ay uminom na nang tubig at sinunod naman ang juice.

"IT HURTS, YOU KNOW? Seeing my twin like that makes my whole world down in hell ... I can't even do anything, I'm so useless brother. I can't even give him a touch, I'm such a stupid person. I'm the older brother but I can't do anything. I'm hurt, I don't want him to be angry with me. I don't want him to hate me, I don't want him to think that I'm just nothing with him. I don't want him to think I'm someone else, I'm afraid that I might lose him, he's the only one left I have, who strengthen me," sambit ni Clever.