Novel & Cerita I Remember When I Lost My Mind

Hindi ko alam kung dahil sa galit o kaba? May malaking kasalanan ba 'kong nagawa sa kanya noon na hindi ko lang maalala? Kilala nga kaya talaga niya 'ko?? Aish! Inis kong sinabunutan ang sarili ko at ipinatong ang noo sa nakalukot kong mga tuhod. Hindi ko matukoy kung gaano na ba 'ko katagal nagmumukmok dito dahil parang blangko at lutang ang utak ko.

"'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night We're dancing 'round the kitchen in the refrigerator light Down the stairs, I was there I remember it all too well, yeah And maybe we got lost in translation Maybe I asked for too much But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up Running scared, I was there I remember it all too well And you call me up again just to break me like a promise So casually cruel in the name of being honest I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here 'Cause I remember it all, all, all Too well."

" Anong nangyayari?" " I installed a paralysis humidifier sa loob. I'm glad I took the antidote for it or else dalawa tayong magiging lantang gulay dito." " Hindi nawala ang memorya mo?" " How can someone lose memory if she has unfinished businesses. " " Pero naalala mo ang past life mo!" " The chips restrained the memories of my past and alter them. Pero Nung natanggal na. My memories were restored to normal. But that doesn't mean I lost the current ones."

"After my accident six years ago, madalas na’kong bangungutin nang gano'n. I don't know why? Hindi ko na naman iniisip pa ang nangyaring 'yun pero madalas pumasok pa rin sa panaginip ko." "Oh, hindi mo naman maiisip kung hindi mo maalala ang kahit ano, hindi ba?" She sounded mysterious with that, tila may hiwatig ang kaniyang komento. Biglang kinabahan si Sapphire sa sinabi nito. Stupid of you Sappy! Watch your words, alright? May amnesia ka nga, 'di ba? "Maybe because your brain is working so hard so you could remember anything now. I think that's a good sign?"

Why am I going crazy hearing that word? Dumiretso ako ng banyo. Binuksan ko ang gripo para mapuno ng tubig ang bath tub. Doon ako naglublob pagkatapos kong tanggalin lahat ng suot ko. I want to wash everything from me. Wash my mind so that I could forget him. Wash my body of any trace of him. The lukewarm water was seemingly calm as it penetrated my flesh. I closed my eyes at dinama ang init na hatid ng tubig. And the flashes of the past kept bugging my memory.

my parents. But a bitter smile crossed my lips, even the two of them had filled me roses to burry my mind about the realities that I shouldn't have been unfolding in the first place. Who am I right now? A broken and lost soul. A deceived and used fella. A person with little to no fragments of memory about what the hell is happening in my life. I feel like a time bomb that will explode without any buttons to push to start or end it. Gumawa ng tunog ang botelya ng wine nang isalin ko ito sa isang baso upang uminom ulit ng panibago. Hindi ko na pinansin ang ingay ng mga taong nagsasayawan sa loob ng club.

Pakiramdam ko ay sobrang pagod na pagod ako 8ngayon lalo na sa nalaman ko. Alam ko sa sarili kong darating ang pagkakataon na magkikita ‘kaming’ muli, ngunit hindi ko inaasahan na ‘malapit’ na ang pagkakataon na iyon. Bumalik sa ala-ala ko ang mga pangit na pangyayaring namagitan sa ‘amin’ na pilit kong iwinawaksi sa aking isipan. “F*CK!” Matigas na mura ko at pilit na ipinipikit ang aking mga mata para iwaksi ang hindi magandang memorya na aking naiisip.

The only one who needs to be blame was me. "Inis na inis ako dahil hindi ko alam kung saan ka galing. You kept on messing up with my memories. Every single day, I'm always figuring out how and why are you fucking here. I was so damn lost with my own memories." He let out a small chuckle. "I wanted you to leave and got outta my way. Pero bigla na lang kita hinahanap hanap. Ayaw kong nawawala ka sa paningin o sa tabi ko. Tapos bigla ka na lang nawala sa harap ko... I didn't believe at first... Dumoble ang sakit no'ng maisip ko na baka kasabay ng pagkamatay nila, mawawala ka. I immediately repeat my memories again. Hoping that you'll come back, but you didn't... Now, my memories are getting bac

MEMORY LOST Nang dahan-dahan kong buksan ang mga mata ko―tanging malabong paligid lang ang nakikita ko. Ilang segundo pa ang lumipas ay kita ko ang kadiliman ng paligid. Where the heck am I? Dahan-dahan akong umupo mula sa pagkakahiga, pero ramdam ko ang pamamanhid ng buong katawan ko. Para bang ilang taon na akong nakahiga sa kama.

sa isip ko natawa naman ako "Bakit natawa ka diyan ha?" pinagtaka niya naman "Wala" wika ko at sabay binuksan ko na lang ang audio system para magpatutog, perfect timing naman dahil yong favorate song ko pa ang naka play 'I Lost Myself In Loving You' by 'Jamie Miller' kaya sumabay din ako sa pag kanta. They say Time is always meant to heal the fall Tell me Why it doesn't seem to help at all