I Remember When I Lost My Mind Novels & Stories

Hindi pa naman ako nakakabawi ng lakas kaya pikit parin ang mga mata ko. Mga minuto pa ang lumipas bago ko naibukas ang mga mata ko. Bumungad naman sa akin ang kanyang mga mata. Malamlam ang mga ito at puno pa rin ng pagnanasa. Kinintalan niya ako ng halik sa labi at muli niya akong tinitigan pero bumaba ang mga mata ko. "I think...I'm really wild." mahina kong saad. Kahit anong pigil ko sa sarili ko, kapag lasap ko na 'yun, nawawala na ako sa tamang katinuan.

Lalo na sa isang Mondragon. I looked ahead and my mind got clouded with Diego's image. Ang halikan namin ang naalala ko at nagpatayo ito sa balahibo ko. Ayaw ko ng isipin ito. Pero parang bangungot ito sa bawat gabi ko sa tuwing pinipikit ko na ang mga mata ko. I must be insane. I have lost my mind. "Thinking of me?"

Nagmamadali ngunit maingat akong pumihit patungo sa mesa ko bago pinagpatuloy ang pagbabasa. "There was a time though that I almost gave up on everything. I could've ended it that night. I could've been gone. I could have meant it that time. I wasn't asking for help... who saw me? It was barely a spark... but enough to blind myself willingly. Oh, to have someone who will meet me in the pitch black halfway. Ps. Finally, today is the day when I have expressed my feelings over the past several days. It's acceptable that I took my time to sort these feelings out because I wasn't able to identify them earlier."

I just knew that they were wrong. Now, looking back at those times makes me smile. It makes me smile how I remained strong at that time. Honestly, I was so strong that I managed to not listen to my mind. I fought myself at some point. And I lose my mind when I think that humans often battle with themselves.

Huminto na rin ang mga luha na kanina ay walang hinto. Nilakasan ko na ang loob ko para basagin ang katahimikan na kanina pang namuo sa pagitan namin. "We need to end it here," mahina ngunit may pait na wika ko, "In this place where we started." dagdag ko pa. Liningon ko siya. Parang umurong ang lakas ko nang makita ang mugto nitong mata habang nakatingin sa akin. I will miss those eyes.

aniya sa kanyang usual na malamig na boses. Those words are the last ones I heard before I lost my consciousness out of shocked. I also remember someone caught me before my drunk ass hits the cold marble floor. Maybe it's the same person... He is here!

Habang ang lalaking iyon ay masama ang mukha. Hindi ako makapaniwala ngayon sa nakikita ko. Paanong magiging ako 'to? Wala akong maaalala na ginawa ko 'to- sandali. Oo nga pala may amnesia ako. Posibleng ako 'to. Pero takot ako sa gagamba at sa kahit ano mang insekto takot ako. Kong ako itong babae nasa sketch. Bakit nakangiti ako habang hawak ang grapon na may laman na malalaking gagamba?

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be, me 🎶 Yel thought of her condition while looking outside the car window, not paying attention to Sen beside her who's playing with her fingers. 'Unwell, huh?' ────── 〔GↃ〕──────

A little more. In a blink of an eye, my toes curled, and my body arched with unbelievable pleasure. And that's the last thing I remember before I completely lost all my senses. I woke up when my phone suddenly rang. "What?" I groaned in annoyance. My head hurts so much! [Where the hell are you?! I've been contacting you all night! Ang sabi lang ni Zeke you were with some random guy!] Cai exclaimed.

Nakakaramdam siya ng lungkot na hindi niya mapigilan kahit wala namang dahilan. Biglang tumigil ang masigla at maingay na tugtog. Napalitan ito ng awitin ni Pink na "Just Give Me a Reason", kaagad na nag alisan ang mga taong kanina lamang ay tumatalon at nagwawala sa pag-indak. Isang pamilyar na kirot ang naramdaman ng binata sa dibdib niya.