Novel & Cerita What You Want From Me

Please tell me, tell me everything that will make me hate you. I wouldn't want to hear that you spent your nights thinking how everything you do does not make me smile anymore. That your days were chaos of how your presence weren't enough to lift me up. That you had almost gone crazy to find the right words to drag me out of the darkness I made. That you cry everytime you hug me and you just can't seem to pull my shattered pieces together. That it has gotten you mad with yourself for not making me feel any better. I wouldn't want to hear how you questioned your worth for not being able to help me. Because hearing it from you, it would hurt me realizing I've been hurting you for so long just

Para na akong mababaliw. “Tell me, what do you want now?” Ano nga bang gusto ko? Hindi ko alam kaya hindi ko masabi. “I want more than this, Chaeus.” hindi ko alam kung saan galing ang maliit kong tinig na puno na ng pakiusap. “Are you sure, Baby? You want more than this? I can give you everything.” “Y-Yes, please...”

tanong ko sa kaniya, hindi ko pinahalata na sobrang miss na miss ko na siya. "I want you... I miss you and I need you."

People always ask me what I want out of life like it’s a simple question with a simple answer. It isn’t. Or at least it doesn’t feel like it is. Because I just want too many things that contradict each other. I want so much that my real answer would overwhelm them. I guess that I just want so badly to be happy.I want to smile to myself. I want to smile at myself. I want to be somebody that is worth loving. I want to love myself.

“What I want? Do you know what I want?” I want to slowly run my fingers on your neck. That’s what I want. “Yes. Ang hindi ko pag-deny sa iniisip ng iba na may relasyon tayo. Para hindi ka mawalan ng supporters at hindi ka ma-bash. Para sa career mo as a vlogger.”

I managed to say. "Eager." He walked toward me, that predatory smile back on his face. "I like that." "You said to think about what I want," I said, trying to sound confident. "I did." "And?" He stopped in front of me, close enough that I could feel the heat radiating off his body. "What did you come up with?" I took a deep breath. No fear. No shame. Just honesty. "I want to feel powerful," I said. "I want to stop being afraid of my own desires. I want to know what it feels like to take control."

“Bakit ba ito ang gusto mo, Cassian? Bakit hindi pera? Pwede naman akong magtrabaho para bayaran ka kahit ilang taon.” Umiling siya. “I don’t need your money. What I want is you. Simple as that.” “Pero bakit ako?” nanginginig kong tanong. “You can get anyone you want. Ang dami mong pwedeng lapitan. Bakit ako pa?” Lumapit pa siya at tumayo sa harap ko. “Because I don’t want just anyone. I want you. I don’t need to explain beyond that.” Napalunok ako. “Do you even hear yourself? Do you know what you’re asking from me?”

Marahan niyang hinaplos ang aking likod na tila ba pinapakalma niya ako. "I want to understand you more, and to know you better. Give me that chance, Mikael." ---

𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘐 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦

Special Chapter Kahit gaano ko kagusto na huwag siyang iuwi ay pinilit ko pa rin ang sarili kong maihatid siya. I want her with me forever. I want her warmth in my bed. I want everything about her. And in order to have her, I must work very hard. I must follow his Dad’s wants.