Married To The Ruthless

Hindi kailanman naging madali ang maging anak ni Senior Alonzo De Hizon

Trying hard to be worth on his praises,

Being the good daughter I thought I could be,

Trying my hardest so he can be proud of me,

And yet being hidden in society, and not being recognized.

Hindi kailanman naging madali ang maging ako...

Yes, I may have everything

Wealth, luxurious and glamorous life,

Lots of girls maybe even wanted to be in my shoes,

Pero hindi ako.

Hindi ko ito hiniling at lalong hindi ko ito ginusto

I've never been satisfied,

And I've never been happy. 

It's so lonely being me

To be confined in a golden cage, with one's freedom narrowed and restricted

To find out, that you're not truly a part of your so-called family,

It's so hard to accept, but that's the truth I have to accept

Striving hard to be your best, yet knowing it will never be enough

Striving hard to earn your family's praise, just to be loved in return

Kahit katiting na pansin at pagkilala man lang, 

Gusto ko lang na tanggapin at mahalin

Ngunit sa kasamaang palad, alam kong hindi ito mangyayari

I was only adopted,

A mere accessory to the family's prestigious and untainted name

Alam mo ba kung gaano kasakit ang masampal sa  katotohanang iyon? 

Halos buong buhay ko ay inalaay ko sa pagpapalugod sa kanila

And what's more hurting?

To be asked to repay their goodness by marrying their son—the person whom I thought my brother

He hates me as much I hate him

But beyond those icy cold stares and bad treatments he showed me, alam kong kahit papaano ay mabuting tao siya

Kung bakit niya ako kinamumuhian?

Hindi ko yata kailanman malalaman ang dahilan 

Ang kanyang maiinit at makahulugang tingin,

Ang kakaibang pakikitungo niya sa akin

At ang mga patago at lihim niyang mga sulyap kapag akala niyang hindi ako nakatingin,

Ay siya lang ang nakakaalam.

Whenever I stutter and blunder in front of him,

Whenever I get conscious when he's around 

And this silly heart that throbs whenever he comes near me,

Hindi ko maipaliwanag kung bakit ako nakakaramdam ng ganoon...

I am about to marry him, yes,

At wala ni isa sa amin ang may gustong mangyari iyon

He hates me and I'm afraid of him

We can't be together,

It will be like mixing oil into the water

Oo, kinamumuhian niya ako

And I can't imagine spending my life with him.

Well, I'm done with this kind of life anyway

I had enough with the sorrow and pain

Pagod na akong umasa na mahalin pabalik

Pagod narin akong humiling sa kanilang pagtanggap

I had enough of this hypocrisy and pretensions

And this time, I'll think of myself

This time, hindi ko na hahayaan na manipulihin pa ng sinuman ang aking buhay

I'll do what I have to do

At iyon ay ang tumakas....

I am Emerald Marie De Hizon, married to the ruthless and this is my story….