Hate Love Relationship 소설 & 이야기

sabi ko pagkalipas ng ilang minutong katahimikan. Hinigit niya ako papalapit sa kanya saka niyakap ng mahigpit. Naramdaman ko ang paghaplos niya sa ulo ko. “It doesn't matter if you want to make our relationship private or public. I also don't care what others will say about us,” bulong niya.

Nagkatinginan sila bago pumasok si Aeverie. Galit na naman ito at masamang tingin ang ipinukol sa kaniya, ngunit matamis na ngiti naman ang iginawad niya sa babae. Hate is the opposite of love... but hate could be just a defensive tactic of hidden love. Isip niya. Hindi na mahalaga kung ano ang pinapakita sa kaniya ni Aeverie, ang mahalaga'y may nakukuha pa rin siyang reaksyon mula rito.

Lahat ng cells ng buong katawan ko ay nag give up nalang at hinayaan sya. His breathing became ragged, and I let out a moan. I opened my eyes from the kiss to see him close his eyes and smirk with his lips. He kept doing it to me, ignoring my complaints. He looked at me intently as he broke the kiss. "Give me another chance please; you'll fall in love with me soon." Nalasinghap ako. Kung sinabi nya nalang to bago pa ang lahat… We could have been happy in each other's arms. If only we had started out normally, rather than in a hate-love relationship…

And who would have thought that I would even end up marrying the woman who got on my nerves the first time I saw her? Totoo nga siguro ang kasabihan na "the more you hate, the more you love", dahil ang pagmamahal na mayroon kami ay nabuo buhat sa pagka-inis na mayroon kami para sa isa't-isa. Inis nga ba iyon o pareho namin alam na may atraksyon na kami para sa bawat isa? —----

bulalas ko pa. "Oh, bakit nagagalit agad ang beshy kong 'yan? Alam mo, ang cute nga ng unang pagtatagpo niyo ng soulmate mo. Parang napapanood ko lang sa mga palabas. Nagsisimula sa hate to love ang relasyon ganoon." Napailing na lamang ako. Ang dami niya talagang alam.

"Simula noong lokohin niya si mama, nasira na rin ang relasyon namin. My love for him was tainted. I really hated him. But I still miss him often. Gaya ngayon..." Hate can never really erase love. Balutin man ng poot ang puso mo, kahit papaano, may kakaunting pagmamahal pa rin ang natitira roon. Mawawala lamang pero hindi tuluyang maglalaho. Kaunting dilig ay muling sisibol.

Pinagsakop niya ang kanyang kamay at nilagay ito sa kanyang tuhod. “I don’t know what a good relationship looks like. Wala akong ideya kung minahal ba talaga ni Papa si Mama dahil iyon naman ang nakita ko nung bata ako kaya ko nga siya idolo pero nung nahuli ko siya na may kahalikan sa kanyang opisina,” I stopped as my jaw ticks. “nagbago lahat ng iyon. It feels like my whole childhood was coated with a lie and I’m not sure what real love even looks or feels like. Kaya natatakot ako kung anong nararamdaman ko ngayon. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. I don’t even know how to recognize it.”

"Eh sabi nga nila the more you hate the more you love...kaya siguro ganun" "You are right, the more I hated her I didn't know that I will like her so much hanggang sa mahalin ko na siya, at first ang hirap kasi she is straight as well" "Wow! So you mean one sided love ang drama mo pala dati" "Exactly! Hay, naaawa ako sa sarili ko noon, as in, but I didn't expect that things will eventually go on my way, kasi gusto niya rin pala ako"

Malungkot ko siyang binigyan ng ngiti at bahagyang napabuntong hininga. “I think love is in everything...” I trailed off. Nag-huhukay muna ng lakas na loob mula sa kaloob-looban. At nang may kaunting nahukay ay saka ko lang tinapos ang pagsasalita. “Love is when you feel fear, hatred, anger, trauma and all the feelings that you could feel. Yung sa akin kasi it's everything. The hatred is there, fear, sadness and the trauma. And I know it's love because if it's not love what I gave back then, then maybe I shouldn't have felt those feelings at all.”

“…even if you love me. It only makes me want you even more.” Doon siya muling ngumiti ngunit mapanukso at puno ng pagnanasa. “Keep hating me, wife… They say, the more you hate, the more you love.”