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There is a tension in my heart and I couldn’t get my senses together. Oh my God! This night is crazy! “K…Kelly…”

She doesn't know that Kate's image still haunts me, making it difficult for me to be fully with her. I took a deep breath and typed a short answer. "I'm still at the office. I'll be home later." The message is sent, but the feelings of guilt and confusion remain. That night, I sat in my office, contemplating my confused feelings. It felt as if I was at a crossroads, not knowing which path I should choose. I knew that this journey would not be easy, and that I would have to find the answers myself, regardless of what anyone else thought or felt.

~ KATALEYA ~ I sit there pondering on the words that Jose had spoken, the picture he had shown me… but I feel like I’ve seen it before… not exactly, but… there’s something. A familiarity about it, but I don’t know where or how… I am sure I’ve not seen it but then my mind is saying something else. I don’t know! It’s… infuriating. I sigh, pouting as I try to calm my mind, which is spinning.

If not,I am going to drown in my sorrows sooner or later. “I don't know where to start Kata.”I Confess. I don't want to sound stupid before her although I know Kata will never judge me. “Is this about Lorenzo?” she inquires and I smile in defeat. It seems like I am an open book and everyone is able to read me. “ Kata, have you ever been in a position where you feel like everything is falling apart?” Katalina raises her brows at my question. “ Did Lorenzo do or say anything to you?”she asks and I shake my head in denial.

It was as if the logical and emotional sides of himself were at war. "Why do I feel like this? Why do I care?" he questioned himself, trying to dissect the unfamiliar sensations. The enigma of Bella left him puzzled, intrigued, and utterly shaken. He couldn't fathom the depth of the emotions swirling within him, the mixture of guilt, regret, and a strange sense of longing.

I haven't even been able to convince myself, let alone someone else. I sighed. "I honestly don't know how I feel. It's all a lot to take in. I'm more confused than anything else." I put down my food and placed a hand on my head. All these emotions, recent and past events, it's like my brain is always on hyperdrive now. "Confused my dear?" Latifah came to take a seat beside me and gave me her motherly look. I opened my mouth a couple of times but I couldn't get any words out.

I whisper. “What do you mean? Explain it to me.” He glances at me. “Just, I don’t know. I feel easily annoyed, confused, and like there is something there trying to push me, but I don’t know what,” I admit. “I feel like I’m missing something, like my mind is trying to make me see something, but it can’t.” Saying it out loud sounds crazy.

It almost sounds peaceful. My hand moves to my stomach again. The touch feels different now. It’s not anger I feel anymore, not exactly. More like confusion. Fear. A little bit of shame. And beneath it all, something else…something I can’t name. I whisper into the quiet, “What am I supposed to do with you?” The tent flaps rustle with the wind. I imagine the world outside, still spinning, still burning, while I sit here stuck between hate and helplessness.

Tahimik ulit pero hindi awkward na para bang pareho lang kaming walang tamang salita para sa araw ito. “Okay ka lang?” tanong niya maya-maya. Hindi ako agad nakasagot kasi paano ko ba sasabihing hindi? Paano ko ba sasabihing pakiramdam ko may nabasag sa tingin ko sa mga tao? Sa school? Sa sistema? “Hindi ko alam,” totoo kong sagot. Tahimik siyang tumango at sa simpleng gesture na 'yon, parang mas lalo akong nalungkot kasi alam kong naiintindihan niya.

I blush, feeling all over the place. “What are you talking about?” He furrows his eyebrows. “I don’t know” I sigh, knowing what’s making me feel like this. Always coming at the worst times. Well that explains the nausea and jumbled emotions all day. “Lovely”