Para Sa Broken Hearted Novels & Stories

“Ayoko na lang sanang magsinungaling, Cailyn. I still love you.” Napalayo siya nang bahagya, pero hindi na siya nakasagot. Sa halip, tumingin lang siya sa langit, pilit iniwas ang luha. “Love doesn’t fix everything, Austin,” bulong niya. “Sometimes, it breaks you even more.” “Then let it break me,” sabi nito, halos desperado. “Kung ‘yun lang ‘yung paraan para maramdaman ulit kita.”

Someone they say that drinking can passed away your pain. Mariin akong napapikit nang makaramdam ako nang hilo. Isinandal ko ang likod ko sa leather sofa nang club habang nakapikit pa rin. Wala akong ibang maramdaman ngayon kundi pagod, hilo at sakit. Napakuyom ako ng kamao ng maalala ko kung bakit ako nagla-lablab ngayon sa loob ng club. It's never wrong to fall for someone even when you know they will only break your heart. It's hurts like even the pain reliever can never take away my broken heart cause it's not just physically hurt, I'm also hurt emotionally.

Ngunit dahan- dahan lang ito dahil alam nitong magmamaneho pa pauwi. "Cheers for my broken heart!" Emosyonal na sambit ko sabay taas ng bote ng wine na sinabayan naman ni Aslan. "Yeah! Cheers for my broken heart too." Nakangising sambit nito na di ko alam kung may ibang ibig sabihin ba.

At nag-aaalala ang pamilya baka kung mapaano ang dalaga habang naroon ito sa kanila. Kumurap si Geri, inabot ang kamay ng pinsan. “I-I’m sorry. I k-know your’re all worried but… I just can’t push myself to eat right now. N-naguguluhan ako, Jewel. I know I shouldn’t do this to myself but… t-there’s too much p-pain, h-here,” pag-amin ni Geri sa hirap na tinig, hinawakan ang kanyang dibdib, yumuko bago muling humagulgol. She promised herself earlier that she will never cry again but… how can you teach a broken heart not to cry? How will she start unloving someone she has loved for a very long time? How will she pick up the broken pieces of life?

Sanay na rin naman ako, noon pa. "Bes, can't you really get it? He is just one of those temporary persons who came in your life." Iyan rin ang gusto kong itatak sa sarili ko na temporary lang ang mayroon kami ni Saint. Pero ayaw tanggapin ng sarili ko—ng puso ko. Nananatiling tikom ang bibig ko habang nakatingin sa kawalan. "You've got a broken heart, not a broken life. You've got a broken dream, not a broken future. And you've got the temporary pain, not a permanent one. Help yourself to get through with it. Tulungan mo ang sarili mo na makawala sa hawla ng kalungkutan." Tears started to fell down on my cheeks as i wrapped my one arm on my eyes to hide it. Makikita na naman ako ng kaibigan

Isa. Dalawa. Tatlo. Apat. Shit! Kailan ba mawawala 'tong sakit na nararamdaman ko? Ilang bote na naubos ko ba't di parin ako lasing? Tangina naman! Ang hirap pag may high tolerance ka, nakakabanas naman oh! "Ma'am pasara na po ang bar," a bartender approached me, I glared at him. I don't fvcking care! I am broken hearted, can't he see?

Pero dinig ko ang pagbuntong hininga niya, ng pumasok na ito sa driver's seat. Ipinikit ko, ang mga mata ko. Para hindi na ulit tumulo ang mga luha ko ngunit kahit anong gawin ko, umalpas pa rin yun. As I wiped my tears, dinig ko ang tugtog sa stereo na lalong nagpabigat sa nararamdaman ko ngayon. Parang dinurunog ang puso ko sa bawat linyang kinakanta ni Chris Walker sa awitin niyang. How do you heal a broken heart.

Ngumiwi siya at maya-maya lang sy muling tumawa at napatitig sa kaniyang hawak-hawak na wine glass. "In simple words, I wanna still be happy despite my broken heart. Syempre hindi naman mawawala ang sakit. Nandoon pa rin nakatago lang. But I don't believe in the 3 months rule after break up," natatawang aniya. I slowly nodded a bit enlightened by her words.

Mabuti na lang naawa ang araw sa amin at hindi siya masyadong nagpapakita sa amin at pinapayongan kami ng mga ulap. In this life sometimes we must learn how to make ourselves happy and learn how to make someone happy by singing with them, dancing with them and smiling for them. Who knows that the person who smiles right now carries a burden inside their heart but you made them important. Bagay na lagi kong napatunayan at nadagdagan lang ngayon. Like the girl said earlier na broken hearted siya pero ngayon kahit papano ngumingiti at nakikisabay sa paborito niyang kanta kasama ang banda na matagal na niyang makita.

Pero habang hinahabol ko ang hininga ko ay maas lalonngn tumitindi ang sakit na nararamdaman ng puso ko. "Hindi na mababago ang nangyari. Just like how the aftermath cannot be undone. You broke me and it crushed me into a million pieces. Pinagsisisihan kong minahal kita, " kalmado ngunit puno ng diin niyang bigkas. His words hits me more like insults adding more pain to my injured heart. I closed my eyes and slowly, without thinking much, I kneeled on the floor.