Shirley

Pada hari pernikahanku, tunangan mafiaku, Ryder Soesatyo, menyuruh anak buahnya menghalangiku masuk ke gereja. Sebaliknya, dia malah berjalan di lorong altar dengan wanita lain di lengannya. Ryder mengangkat bahu ke arahku dari balik gerbang besi. "Emilia, Keluarga Soesatyo butuh seorang pewaris dan Carmela sedang mengandung keturunan Keluarga Sutanto. Begitu aku memakai pengaruh Keluarga Sutanto untuk mengukuhkan posisiku di keluarga, aku akan menceraikannya. Kamu akan tetap menjadi wanitaku." Semua orang mengira aku akan menganggukkan kepala dengan patuh dan menunggu Ryder kembali. Aku mencintainya melebihi hidupku sendiri selama sepuluh tahun ini, bahkan putus hubungan dengan keluargaku demi dia. Namun, aku naik jet pribadi malam itu juga untuk pergi ke Sikilua dan menerima perjodohan dengan pemimpin dari Keluarga Basuki. Sejak saat itu, aku menghilang tanpa jejak dari dunia Ryder Soesatyo. Tiga tahun kemudian, aku kembali ke Nalumandia bersama suami dan anakku untuk membereskan seorang pengkhianat di keluarga. Zayn memiliki urusan mendadak, sehingga dia menyuruh anak buahnya menjemputku. Namun, aku tidak menyangka akan melihat wajah seseorang dari masa laluku. Ryder menatapku sambil menyeringai. "Sudah puas bersenang-senang di luar sana? Karena kamu sudah merangkak kembali, ini pas sekali. Putranya Carmela butuh juru masak. Kamu bisa mengerjakannya." Tunggu. Ryder baru saja memanggilku, Nyonya yang paling dihormati di dunia bawah tanah, ini sebagai juru masak?

Pour la centième fois, mon compagnon Alpha, Ryker, avait usé de son autorité sur moi, me menaçant de rejeter notre lien si je ne me sacrifiais pas pour ma sœur jumelle, Ivy. Je n'avais ni pleuré ni protesté. J'avais simplement signé les documents de rejet du lien de compagnon. J'avais cédé l'Alpha que j'avais aimé pendant dix ans à ma sœur. Quelques jours plus tard, Ivy avait provoqué un scandale lors du banquet de l'Alliance des meutes, humiliant la fille de l'Alpha de Silvermoon. Une fois encore, je m'étais avancée pour prendre sa place, supportant la douleur d'une marque d'argent défigurante. Plus tard, lorsqu'ils avaient exigé que je teste moi-même la sécurité du rituel de régénération de l'Esprit du Loup pour ma sœur, j'avais accepté avec un sourire. Mes parents, tous deux Bêtas, les yeux rougis, m'avaient dit que je devenais enfin la grande sœur que j'étais censée être. Même Ryker, qui s'était toujours montré si distant avec moi, s'était tenu devant la cave. Il avait doucement caressé ma joue — pour la première fois depuis si longtemps — et avait murmuré d'une voix tendre : « Harper, n'aie pas peur. Dès que l'épreuve sera terminée, je t'emmènerai voir les aurores au lac de la Déesse de la Lune. » Mais il ne savait pas que, quelle que soit l'issue de l'épreuve, il ne me reverrait jamais. Mon esprit-loup était déjà en train de s'éteindre. Plus rien ne pouvait me sauver. Cette fois, lorsque je fermerais les yeux, ce serait pour toujours.

Fui la compañera secreta de Kade, el Alfa de la manada durante cuatro años. La noche que me llamó, en un arrebato de pasión, me miró fijamente a los ojos durante mucho, mucho tiempo. Su voz sonaba ronca. —¿Sabes, Anya? Lo que más me fascina de ti son tus ojos preciosos. Para proteger su derecho al título de Alfa, acepté quedarme a su lado, haciéndome pasar por una guerrera Beta. Hasta que, radiante de orgullo, lo vi abrazar a mi media hermana por la cintura frente a todos. Solo cuando los rumores crecieron y todos empezaron a decir que la hermosa loba que el Alfa había llevado a casa tenía mis mismos ojos, comprendí la devastadora verdad. Nunca me amó a mí en realidad. Encaré a Kade y le exigí una explicación. Su expresión era de desprecio. —¿Que te dé una explicación? ¿Pues qué te imaginabas? Solo fue una marca temporal, nada más. Para mí, nunca has sido más que una amiga. No lloré. No hice una escena. Abrí un enlace mental con mi amigo de la infancia. —Acepto la invitación para convertirme en la jefa guerrera de la manada Silver Crest. Más tarde, cuando Kade descubrió que yo había captado la atención de su mayor rival, enloqueció.

When I was three months pregnant, Stella Falcone, the principessa of an allied family, was also carrying another man's child. To preserve the alliance, my Mafia lover, Matteo Gallo, had to marry her. "Stella is Don Falcone's only daughter. In our world, alliances are worth more than sentiment." "Ava will understand." What Matteo forgot was that I had no one but him, and that the child I carried was the true Gallo heir. Later, as everyone mocked my unborn child, calling him a bastard who would taint the bloodline, Matteo stood by with his new bride and did nothing. That was when I learned that in this world of blood and secrets, love was the most worthless currency of all.

During the five years I was in a vegetative state, all ten family soldiers assigned to guard me were murdered. One of them merely smoked a cigarette outside my hospital room. The next day, he was found upside down, drowned in a toilet. Another simply adjusted my pillow. The next day, he took a dive from a skyscraper rooftop. The Corleone family was in chaos, but they couldn't find a single trace of the killer. With no other choice, the ten executions, all textbook Mafia hits, became cold cases. Strangely, the very second the tenth guard's heart stopped, I opened my eyes. The first thing I did upon waking was call the FBI and turn myself in. The agents were stunned. "Miss Corleone, are you saying that while in a coma for five years, you planned and executed the murders of ten fully armed Mafia soldiers?" My fingers tapped lightly on the table, a faint smile playing on my lips. "That's right." "Being in a vegetative state only means I couldn't move." "Who ever told you that killing, something so crude, required me to get my hands dirty?"

That year, during the Sicilian arms trafficking conflict, my lover of three years, Silvio, deliberately betrayed my transport routes at a critical moment in a deal with the rival "DiMarco" family, causing me to lose all my territory. He immediately defected to the DiMarco family's leader Marina, becoming her lover. As he left, he didn't even bother to disguise his betrayal, coldly tossing out, "What we had was just business, nothing personal." While I was burdened with my family's blood debts and pushed to the edge of a cliff, Lorenzo, who had secretly harbored feelings for me since childhood, found me and offered his family's entire fortune. "Isabella, don't be afraid. In my eyes, you'll always be Sicily's most formidable Queen of the Arms Trade," he said. He took the Colt pistol from my hand, and his voice was gentle yet resolute. Five years later, my power resurged. I was about to completely crush Marina's smuggling network and reclaim everything I had lost. My caporegimes, the captains of my organization, were ready and waiting for my command. But on the night before the operation, my weapons warehouse suddenly exploded, turning priceless arms into worthless scrap metal. I barely escaped through the thick smoke, my body covered in burns. In a secluded monastery, I overheard Lorenzo and Silvio whispering outside my door. "You really had the guts to blow up the arsenal. Weren't you afraid of blasting her to pieces too?" Silvio's voice carried a mocking tone. "If she died, just died. I've always loved Marina. If it weren't for that unlucky family marriage lottery five years ago, I wouldn't have had to endure this ugly bitch for all this time." Lorenzo's voice was ice-cold and unfamiliar. I closed my eyes, feeling like a dagger had pierced my chest. Explosion. Arranged marriage. Ugly bitch. So those five years of shared hardship were just his unwilling choice after losing a high-stakes gamble. "I married her to keep watch. If it weren't for me paving

The day I inherited Grandpa's "Peacemaker," I received a call from myself, ten years in the future. "Sienna, don't give that gun to Lorenzo." I obeyed without question. That night, forced to use his faulty Glock, Lorenzo was beaten into a vegetative state during a duel. Guilt nearly broke me, but my parents nursed me back to health. Or so I thought. "You idiot," my future self sneered. "It was a lie to get you on the operating table. They want your heart for your brother!" Finding a transplant agreement in my father's study, I publicly severed ties with the Morettis. Only later, after Lorenzo died from rejection, did I learn they just needed my rare blood, not my heart. I wanted to return and atone, but the phone rang again. "Your parents will kill you for honor. Don't go back." I waited. But instead of assassins, news arrived: the Morettis had been slaughtered by rivals. I bolted for home, only to be mowed down by a black sedan. As I died, I couldn't understand why my future self had orchestrated my end. Then I opened my eyes. I was back at the ceremony.

The first time Rafael betrayed me, he threw the woman from his club at my feet. His eyes were bloodshot as he told me to take my pick. My love for him was a sickness, so I forgave the transgression. For the second betrayal, I had the dancer sent out of New York, warning her never to set foot on the East Coast again. On the night of our engagement party, sealing the union of our two families, Rafael pinned me against the walnut desk in the study. His eyes burned with rage as he demanded: "Where is Nina? She's carrying a Mancini heir." "It was a mistake. You can take your anger out on me. Nina is naive; she doesn't deserve this. I'm begging you, just let the child be born safely. I swear I'll never see her again." "You're afraid of childbirth. This gives you an heir without the risk." "Listen, Alessia. You are the future Donna of the Mancini family. When that child is born, it will know only you as its mother. I swear on my life." He forced me backward until shards from the vase I'd knocked over cut into my skin, staining my silk dress with blood. I looked at him and smiled, then gave him the address of a safe house in Brooklyn. He slammed the heavy oak door behind him. Shaking, I pulled out my encrypted phone. "You were right about him. Is your offer still on the table?"

During a battle with a rival pack, my Alpha mate, Damien, burst into my private healing sanctuary. He was carrying Lyra, a Beta warrior who had supposedly taken a poisoned blade for him. The next day, under the watchful eye of the Moon Goddess, Damien was forced by the pack elders to apologize. He explained that bringing an outsider into my sanctuary was a desperate act in a moment of crisis. After all, Lyra had saved his life. But that night, in the bed we once shared, Lyra stabbed herself with a dagger laced with wolfsbane and framed me for the attack. He chose to believe her. The rejection ceremony ripped my wolf from my soul. I was cast out—a powerless exile, left for dead in a storm, to be torn to shreds by rogues. But what Damien never knew was that the ancient curse afflicting him could only be healed by me. When I opened my eyes again, I was back at the beginning: the moment Damien carried that woman in, demanding I save her.

Zum hundertsten Mal hatte mein Alpha-Gefährte Ryker seinen Befehl gegen mich eingesetzt. Er drohte mir, unsere Bindung aufzulösen, falls ich mich nicht für meine Zwillingsschwester Ivy opferte. Ich weinte nicht. Ich protestierte nicht. Ich unterschrieb einfach die Papiere zur Auflösung unserer Gefährtenbindung. Ich überließ den Alpha, den ich zehn Jahre lang geliebt hatte, meiner Schwester. Wenige Tage später machte Ivy eine Szene beim Rudelallianz-Bankett und demütigte die Tochter des Silbermond-Alphas. Wieder einmal trat ich an ihre Stelle und ertrug den Schmerz eines entstellenden Silbermals. Später verlangten sie von mir, die Sicherheit des Wolfsgeist-Regenerationsrituals mit meinem eigenen Körper zu testen – für meine Schwester. Ich nahm lächelnd an. Meine Beta-Eltern blickten mich mit rotgeränderten Augen an und sagten, ich sei endlich die große Schwester, die ich hätte sein sollen. Selbst Ryker, der mir gegenüber immer so distanziert gewesen war, stand vor dem Keller. Zum ersten Mal seit einer Ewigkeit streichelte er sanft meine Wange und flüsterte: „Harper, hab keine Angst. Sobald die Prüfung vorbei ist, fahre ich mit dir zum Mondgöttinsee, um die Polarlichter zu sehen.“ Doch er wusste nicht, dass er mich nie wiedersehen würde – ganz gleich, wie die Prüfung ausging. Mein Wolfsgeist verblasste bereits. Nichts konnte mich mehr retten. Diesmal würde ich die Augen für immer schließen.