Novel & Cerita This Is Not Goodbye

"Ahh. Bihis na pala ako. Sige, goodnight, ay goodmorning, hindi goodnoon, ay good-- goodbye! Bye!" Taranta siyang naglakad paalis. Is that even real? I think it is... This time, i felt the sudden spark in my heart.

Umiling ako habang pinapanood silang abala sa paghahanda ng mga rekados. "Wala naman po. I'm just…bored. Sila Ate Ruby po nasaan?" "Hindi ko napansin pero siguro ay lumabas din." Tumango ako. I heard they have friends here so maybe that's why. I don't know anyone here so…it's understandable that I cannot meet anyone Nagpaalam ako at umalis na sa dirty kitchen. I'm bored! This is so boring! Hindi ko maistorbo si Kola dahil nasa byahe na raw sila para sa susunod naman na destinasyon na pupuntahan.

Matutunog na halik sa pisngi ang ibinigay niya sa mga ito. "Kung ganyang goodbye kiss ang matatanggap ko, parang gusto ko na ring umalis." Komento ni Lyam. "I called it the Nephilim's goodbye kiss. Exclusive only for the members of the Nephilims." Pagmamalaki niyang nakangiti. "Gusto mo rin? Halika..." tinawag niya si Lyam.

‎ ‎And that was it. ‎ ‎No confrontation. No drama. Just quiet. ‎ ‎She's finally done. ‎ ‎This wasn’t heartbreak. It was closure dressed as pain.

"Hinahanap na niya ako. Please, take good care of yourself. Always. And I hope you find the right one for you. I'm not asking for forgiveness dahil alam kong walang kapatawaran 'tong ginawa ko sa 'yo. But I hope someday, mapagbabayaran ko rin ito. Maybe we had the right love at the wrong time...? Goodbye, Sandy." Ilang sandali pa ang lumipas na nanatili akong nakalugmok sa isang tabi. Daig ko pa ang batang inagawan ng laruan sa pag-iyak. Pinisil-pisil ko pa ang braso ko hoping na magigising ako sa isang panaginip. Pero nang masilip ko siyang naglalakad na ngang palayo ay natauhan ako. So he really did say goodbye. Goodbye for good.

"Bravo!" Ipinagpatuloy niya ang pag awit. "Tell the day i let you go, until we say our next hello, it's not goodbye, 'til i see you again i'll be right here rememberin' when. And if time is on ur side, there will be no tears to cry on down the road. Their is one thing i can't deny, it's not goodbye," Pinagmasdan niya ang binata na sunod-sunod na ang paglagok ng beer.

sabi niya at hinawakan ang kamay ko. "You're the only one, who make me forget about my struggles for a while. But now that you're gone? You're the one who are my main struggle." Huminga ako ng malalim at naglakas-loob na halikan siya. Hindi siya tumugon, at hindi niya rin ako pinigilan. "That's my goodbye hug and goodbye kiss, hope you'll find another one that can give you all the best, I will miss you."

Hindi ko alam kung makakatulong ito pero sana makatawid sa lahat habang wala ako. This is certainly the hardest thing for me, but I have to say it because that is what destiny has left for us, Goodbye! I had never thought I would be writing this to you. I cannot mention the reason to this goodbye though I know I am liable to tell you but believe me saying goodbye to you is the hardest thing in life.

And I'm affected about it. Kalila, Ericka, if you are all reading this letter, please do not be sad. I'm finally ending our nightmare so cheer up! Please live a happy life and keep looking forward. Forget the past. Forget about us. Forget what happened because if you let it linger in your mind, you will both end up like me. Fucked up and miserable. But, always remember guys, I love you both. Though, I will no longer exist once you read this, our friendship will remain. I'll treasure it. Goodbye everyone.

Kilangan ko ng tapusin lahat ng kahibangan ko. Sometimes we have to make a decision that will break our heart but will eventually give peace to our soul. "Goodbye William, I wish not to you see ever again..."