Novel & Cerita Wala Na Malungkot Na Ako Everyday

I didn’t even know what day it was. My eyes were red. I had cried so much that they felt like sand. My head was heavy. My body was sore. I felt weak all over. It had been like this ever since that stupid video came out. That evil, horrible video, someone had posted online. I had no idea who it was but I was guessing it was the anonymous person. But I don't care about it anymore. They called it the “gangbang video.” I couldn’t even say the word without feeling sick.

It’s not an act anymore, I hate Alaric Wealth, and I mean this in the most disrespectful and cruel way, ever! Well, that's the thing about my little life. Ordinary until it isn't. One minute I'm playing Candy Crush and balancing it with a cup of coffee, next minute there's a pile of documents for me to deal with, and the craziest of all is Ric's ever-ready snide remarks and ever-ready comebacks.

“It feels like I’m on my own.” The words lingered in the air. Heavy. Lonely. Real. Because that was exactly what it felt like. No one was truly on my side. Not really. Not anymore. And I was getting tired. So tired. My body felt weaker than before. Every day. Every moment. Like something inside me was slowly giving up. “I can’t…” I whispered. “I can’t keep doing this…” A sharp wave of discomfort passed through me, forcing me to close my eyes for a moment.

I soon brushed it aside and went towards the bathroom to take a shower. However, the dream that I thought would only happen once, had repeated again and again. Every night, without a miss, I kept having the same dream. Two weeks had passed and every time I wake up, the urge to break down keeps getting worse. I always felt heavy and sad whenever I woke up. I wanted to tell Nova, but he has slowly gotten drowsy all the time, until he started spending 15 hours just to sleep, only to wake up a few hours and sleep again. I was eating in the school garden with Alastair, I seem to stare at nothingness and was aloof. "You seem to be out of it." He said as he eats his food and stares at me.

Make that the second at that tim If you've ever gone through something tragic or lost someone close to you ... The pain is unbearable ... The only feeling you want to feel is the feeling of being numb . Not feeling anything is good actually cause I don't have to worry about the hurt that comes with the realization of loss and the fact that... The horrible fact that you are never going to hear that person , laugh again ,Speak , smile , tell you everything will be okay, remedy any sort of pain you'd be in ,and most of all tell you how much they love and cherish you unconditionall

- It must be because I drank a lot of alcohol yesterday and worked too hard that I was so tired. After saying that, Vidor suddenly felt ashamed, he had never found himself in such a situation, even though he had experienced love, why did he feel so childish, or had never tasted fruit before? Forbidden should be a bit resentful, right?

matapos kong sabihin yon ay agad akong bumalik sa kwarto ko ni lock at agad akong nag tungo sa closet ko at nilabas lahat ng damit ko parang hindi ko na kayang tumira dito. Napaupo ako dahil sa pang hihina ko pagapang kong kinuha ang maleta mula sa gilid ng closet. Mahapdi rin ang aking mukha dahil sa palaging pag pupunas ng luha ko. Bakit kailangan mangyari sakin to? Bakit kailangan akong pahirapan ng ganito? Bakit kailangan nilang saktan ako ng ganito? Bakit binuhay pa nila ako?

It’s been thirteen days since Colton left me in the forest and I don’t think I have the will to keep trying anymore. I’m tired of life and everything has become so mundane. Everything I thought I experienced before that day is nothing in comparison to how I’ve been since. It’s like my family have died all over again, and I am bereft and inconsolable. I’ve no more tears because I’ve cried so many. I’m nothing, but a numb hollow shell and the sunlight has withdrawn from my world to leave me in eternal cold shadow.

nauutal kong tanong habang nakatingin sa kaniya. Inialis n'ya ang tingin n'ya sa'kin at ibinaling 'yon sa papalabas na araw. Bumuntong hininga muna s'ya bago tumingin sa'kin. "Yung totoo, inihanda ko na ang sarili ko na darating talaga ang araw na mawawala na 'ko. Pero sa likod ng mga ngiti ko, sa kabila ng mga sayang pinapakita ko, nagtatago ang takot at lungkot. Ayoko pa talagang lisanin ang mundong 'to. Ang dami ko pang pangarap at gustong marating pero ganito talaga siguro ang buhay. Kailangan ko nalang tanggapin na darating ang araw na magdidilim din ang liwanag sa paligid ko." malungkot n'yang sabi kasabay ng pagbagsak ng mga luha sa pisngi n'ya.