Why Do I Hate Repeating Myself Novels & Stories

That would be a disaster. God, I wish I could undo everything and save myself from this stress, guilt, and paranoia. But deep down, I knew even if I could go back, I would probably make the same mistakes all over again. Lately, I don’t even recognize myself. I used to hate that jerk so much that if I had a gun the day he poured paint on me, I might have shot him without thinking twice. But now? I don’t know. That hatred, that sharp edge, is starting to dull. And I don’t like it.

I repeated this mantra over and over again , to stop the monster roaring within . Once I used to look down on those girls who's eyes will shine with little hearts in them , I rolled my eyes when they claimed they lost their control whenever a cute guy was around and therefore , it was sensible enough for them to make dumb decision . Turns out I was just like them . I can still feel it . His warmth His breath His nearness God. Get a grip . Turns out Karma really did slap one in the face , For two years , Two years I have been fighting my inner self, repeating it over and over again ; that I didn't like Jacob , nor did I enjoyed the forceful he planted on my lips , on our first encounter .

His expression didn’t change. “If that’s how you want to hear it.” Frustration flared again. “You always do that.” “Do what?” “Say something and then not say it at the same time.” “I’m being clear.” “No, you’re not.” “I am.” I stepped closer before I could stop myself. “Then say it properly.” His gaze dropped slightly to meet mine fully. “I don’t repeat myself.” “That’s convenient.” “It saves time.” “For you, maybe.” Silence stretched.

Why I am not strong like others? "I'm so sorry. So sorry. So sorry but I couldn't..." I whisper sobbing. "I miss you...I miss you so much. please come back....your honeybee miss you... Please come back no one love me now.... everyone hates me no one loves me .... please come back" I chock and start sobbing. "Honeybee remember I always with you" "Honeybee alwys remember who are you it's ok to be different but it's not ok to hate yourself"

He did not answer, but remained silent. After finishing treatment I said, "Have you heard of this saying, 'People who love themselves do not hurt others, only those who hate themselves, make others suffer.' stop hating yourself before doing anything serious. You can't take it back even if you want to, so you better catch yourself before you do something stupid." And left the infirmary and cleaned the rest of the windows and went to Tyler's house.

"We are going as fast as we can. You can come to stay with me; you don't have to stay there." "What difference does it make?" "I love you; he doesn't." "What did you just say?" "I told you to come to stay with me." "No, after that." "That he does not feel the same way about you as I do." "You know what you said, now you going to avoid it." "No, I am not." "Yes, you are." "Why must I repeat myself." "Why not." "You are impossible." 'And you are full of crap." "Can we talk?" "Sure."

She took another sigh, "You don't have to threaten me again." 'F***! I hate myself for this. But I'm being selfish. I won't regret it. The days are filled with anticipation. I want exactly what I think. '

I know I can’t hate you and I know that if I don’t hate you I will hate myself. You made me have nightmares, you traumatized me, you put me in a dark position that I can not even begin to describe and you know what hurts more is when I think about that horrible memory, all the good memories I shared with you fade away like it was nothing and just like that I begin to feel hatred for myself because no matter how I try I can not hate you even though you are the reason behind my ten years of miseries.

I hate myself . I can't speak for myself in front of my classmates and that's why I hate myself. "Fine,I will..." "I will do it "I interrupted ,my eyes still on the floor. "What did you say ?"Mia asked ,more tauntingly , folding her arms. "I .... will do it " I reapeated and raised my head up. "Hey ,are you stupid ?,you can't do that "Fred whispered to me. "Mind your business "I replied him.

"Okay, I will repeat it one more time. Please listen carefully, so there will not be any fights between us, because I dislike repeating my words more than twice. I told you earlier, what if we—" ***