I Don't Want To Live นิยาย & เรื่องราว

Ethan said quietly. I laughed again, this time bitter. “Try telling her that.” My chest burned. “I don't know who I am outside of that world anymore.” I admitted. “But I know I don't want to go back.” Tears blurred my vision. “I'm so tired, Ethan.” I whispered. “I don't want to keep living a life I never chose.” That was it. That was the Truth. The kind that you don't say out loud, especially not to the man I was finding excitement with.

And you are staring. You are not depressed. Yet, maybe sometimes, you don’t want to live. Nothing serious. But you just imagine the world without your presence. And maybe, that is exactly where the problem starts. Even if you cannot figure out where it lays.

I would fall off a 150-story building rather than live another minute of this shitty life. I never asked to be born into the world. Ever. Never asked for a life like this, and if I could have asked... I would have wanted to not be born at all. I live in a dark shadow that I can never leave. I want to run away from it all, but that will always leave a trail of blood on my path. I can't let another name be written on the list. "Are you okay?" "Actually none of us are okay today." I replied.

Whenever you show up like this, I feel like I want to just jump from here and end everything. "Why can't we simply live our own lives? I really don't hate you anymore. You don't need to carry anything for me. You can still live easily and happily. "Richard, I'm begging you. Let me go. Don't push me to the point where I want to die together with my child inside of me. Don't make me feel that I can never escape the shadows of the past, and want to jump from every high place I see. "I finally managed to live... I don't want to die..."

I refuse to fall into that trap any longer. I've made the decision to start anew. I'm no longer interested in chasing a mirage of perfection or desperately trying to maintain an illusion. I want to embrace my imperfections, learn from my mistakes, and live authentically, even if it means exposing my vulnerabilities to the world. It's time to let go of the robotic life I once knew and step into the unknown, with all its uncertainties and possibilities.

For us to event attempt to save her, she needs to want to live first. "I don't know anymore. I am just so tired. I have been in pain from the very beginning. I feel like I am always in pain and like there is nothing else hat can be done about it. I just want to live well, you know. I no longer want to be in pain. That is the only thing that I want. If I can't live like everyone else and I have to endure this all the time then what kind of life is that? I know that you've been not been able to come up with the antidote and that is why you haven't come around since.

I sighed, as I could only speak honestly. A potentially fatal attempt. What a splurge. "If your desire to live were stronger, I might have encouraged you to give it a shot." Dr Kevin's stare was probing. "But why do you have to keep this child if you don't even want to live?" Is it true that I don't want to live? I mean, how could I not want to live? The world is beautiful, the moon is graceful, and the stars are enchanting. Why wouldn't I want to live?

Where will I live and what will I do? I just feel trapped. Why did it happen to me? Why? It's so suffocating. I want to be free, Free from fear, free from worries, free from darkness, I want to be free. I don't want to live in fear of what will happen if I don't follow their orders. I didn't notice silent tears rolling down my face. There was a lump forming in my throat. It hurts, it hurts to think, it hurts to breathe. Why can't I just die peacefully? Why am I alive?

he consoles himself “I condemned your actions but it’s not time to blame” She console. “Mommy, it’s not over, we have a reason to live and die, so you have to be strong, live for us. I know you have gone through a lot, but you have to be strong. live for me, Nasa, Kaiama and Ugo, you have to live for us, we’re are reason you must live” he said with so much composure. He stood up leaving, turns stares at her. and left. Nnenna watched has he walked into the cell, not even a drop of tears dropped from her eye, no more tears to cry. It was time for her to pick up her cross and move on, knowing the lights will shine when the time is right.

I hate werewolves for deciding to announce their existence at the worst possible time. But more than anything, I hate myself. I hate how I still have the most boring life EVER, even in the midst of a natural disaster and a shift in the universe. I want something cool and interesting to happen to me and not just watch the things that happen to others. And I want money, man. That's all I need. With enough money, I could leave all of this behind and move to one of those cities that aren't as bad as mine. I could have a normal life again... if only...