I Hate My Life Mga Nobela at Kwento

Argh! Ramdam ko pa rin ang tingin nilang lahat sa akin kaya mas lalo akong yumuko. What did I do to deserve this kind of shitty life? Muli kong inangat ang tingin sa direksyon ng lalaki kung saan ko siya huling nakita. Nakita kong ngumisi muna siya sa akin bago muling naglakad papalayo. Hindi ko na siya pinansin at nahihiyang tinakpan ang mukha ko! I really hate my life. Swear! This is damn!

“I am already done Conan! Hindi na ako magiging abogada dahil doon, people will make fun and talk about me of how dirty I am! Of how stupid I am! What’s the point of living when you know that your life is already ruined?!” It just so pretty ironic how one picture could break anything a human had built everything since the beginning. “Kaya bitawan mo na ako please…I don’t want to live everyday with nightmares like this Conan, ayaw ko…hindi ko kaya.” That was what I said, until everything went black. Just like how my life’s situation is – just only pure grey and black.

"What? No! All I'm saying is you could actually kill her back there, with you being in rage you could kill someone with it." "I don't give a care about it! Kahit pumatay ako, wala na akong pake!" Tears are starting to build up in my eyes. "I would rather go to jail than continue living this life! Wala na akong pake, pagod na ako. Sobrang pagod na ako," napa-upo nalang ako at tinakpan ang mukha ko gamit ang kamay ko at umiyak ng umiyak. I was crying like a baby, I know I may look like a pathetic person right now pero wala na akong pake. "Pagod na ako, sobrang pagod na ako. Sa lahat. Sa lahat-lahat! I hate everything about my life! The wealth, the arrange marriage, the business, the secrets, b

"Please stop, Asher. You're making me hate you more!" "Then, what's wrong with me? Am I really a jerk like you always say? Am I that disgusting? Why do people hate me, huh? I'm trying hard to let people like me but fuck... Why can't they appreciate me? It sucks, Jez... It sucks being me... It sucks begging for attention... And love... But you know what's worst? I'm begging again for someone like you to love me back?" "A-Asher..."

Hindi na niya napigilan pa ang luhang bumagsak muli sa mga mata niya. Dahan-dahan pumihit paharap sa kaniya ang binata. Seryoso lang ito pero kita niya ang matinding galit at hinanakit nito sa mundo. Kapagkuwa'y ngumisi ito. "Hindi mo alam dahil wala ka naman no'ng panahong iyon, 'di ba? Hindi mo alam kung paano gumuho ang lahat sa mundo ko. Nasira ang buhay ko, ang pagkatao ko, naghirap ako at nagtiis sa miserable kong buhay. F*ck! I feel like everything is a nightmare na kailangan kong takasan. Napakadilim ng mundo ko at pakiramdam ko'y wala akong silbi."

Habang nakatanaw sa masayang pamilya ay maraming pumapasok sa isip ko. Habang tumatagal ay marami akong mga natutunan sa buhay. I've learned that don't live your life with anger and hate in your heart. You'll only be hurting yourself more than the people you hate. Hating is a waste of time because it requires you to give a crap about things that aren't worth the craps you are giving. And hating my family... I think I didn't really hated them. It's just that... I got disappointed at nagtatampo. Even though nalilito ako kung sino talaga ang taong dahilan ng pagkaka kidnapped sa 'kin seven years ago.

gulong-gulong wika ni Sandra sa sarili niya. Inis niyang nagulo ang mga buhok niya. “Bakit naman kasi magmamahal ka, sa komplikado pa? Arrrgghh! I hate my life.” Anas niya saka nagpractice na lang para mawala sa isip niya ang mga iniisip niya.

Naiinis ako na lahat ng plano niya ay tila umiikot nang naaayon sa palad niya. I hate how I'm trying to be good and live my life to the fullest, pero laging tinatarantadó ng mga ganung klase ng tao. Bakit kaming mga nagsusumikap ang nababatuhan ng kalungkutan at problema? Why?

Just give me all that you have so I can finally faint in peace. I frustratingly lied on the bed, pulling my hair as if that would help. This is too much, ayoko na. Hindi na ko babalik dito, ayoko na talaga. This day is a total bullshit, full of fuckery. Fucking worst day of my life. No, I take that back, there's nothing worse than the day I lost my parents. Lemme change that to 'fucking worse day of my fucking life'. "Excuse me po, I think I—"

Ayaw niya na mas lumaki pa ang issue kanina baka hindi niya na kakayanin na madagdagan ang takot na kanyang nararamdaman at baka tuluyan na siyang malagutan ng hininga. “No! hindi ko pa nga nakikita ang taong magmamahal sa akin ng habangbuhay tapos mamamatay na ako kaagad? No, I can’t afford that to happened! Ayaw ko pang mamatay ang dami ko pang gustong gawin sa buhay. Gusto ko pang magkajowa,” sabi niya sa kanyang sarili habang pilit na pinapakinggan ang mga sinasabi ni Max. "Lumang tugtugin na 'yan bakla magpalit ka naman ng alibi! Saan ka ba talaga nagpunta at—"