I M Gonna Say The N Word นิยาย & เรื่องราว

I say and give up. "Nasty ass."

Jane said. I need to do this. I wore a dress that was not so special, just casual wear. I wasn't very happy and excited to see him. I was nervous and terrified. My biggest problem was that I am too talkative usually and when it comes to nervousness, I talk way too much.

Colour me shocked. We're well on our way home when he finally speaks and it's strained, his voice enveloping the silence in the car. "Keep the shirt, good girl." Do not squeeze your legs shut, Amelia. Whatever you do, do not squeeze your legs shut. I say the two words I've been singing since Miguel Angel Sanchez entered my life. I'm screwed. BeeMiles: Do you still own a functioning I*******m account? Me: I'm insulted. BeeMiles: I'll take that as a yes.

I said, and he nodded. "I got that message, loud and clear," he rubbed his cheek, and I giggled. "Come on, it wasn't that painful to you," I poked his chest. "I'm allowed to pretend, okay? I assume it's a bad word." "Mhh, I guess? It just means me—my skin colour and race. We're very sensitive about that word, so you're not allowed to call me that," I said, and he nodded. "And the only reason I called Drystan that is because I was angry," I said, and he licked his lips.

Say what now? The fuck was I going to say now?

Joe had seen to that. "Cameron," I said. He looked at me. "I need to say something, and I need you to just listen. Can you do that?" He nodded slowly. "Of course." I took a breath. "I'm scared," I said. The words came out smaller than I intended. I hated that. I was not a small person. I took up space. I made noise. I was the one who showed up with wine and murder in her eyes, not the one who sat on a bleacher with her voice shaking.

Fuck me nigger, fuck your nigger loving white trash whore. "You are the only white that can say that to me and not get hurt, but as long as you give me your ass I'll be what?" "My nigger baby, my nigger cock." "Oh god but I do like fucking married white sluts." "I'm yours baby. I'm yours for as long as you want to feed me that cock of yours."

- I say “And you” - I say walking to Gabe - “if you ever point a gun at him again I’ll fucking kick your ass” - I say walking away and whistling for a cab that stops in front of me.

Dealing with my stress, Dealing with your stress. Girl, you know. Dealing with my friends, Dealing with your friends. And you know we're Gonna get mad (the S word). Gonna get mad (the S word again!) And you know, I'm gonna make you confess. Gonna make you confess. And you know oh oh. Like I know oh oh. That you know. Oh! Like I know. Oh!

I whisper to myself. "Fuck!"