Romans & histoires I Wish You Were Sober

Cause I don't wanna see you with her I don't wanna see her face Resting in your embrace Her feet standing in my place I don't wanna see you moved on I don't think that I'm that strong " Limang taon na ang lumipas pero hanggang ngayon di ko pa rin kayang isipin na may bago na siya. Tapos malalaman ko nalang na ikakasal na siya sa susunod na araw. Di ko na mapigilan ang luhang naipon sa aking mata, tuluyan na itong dumaloy sa akin pisngi. Wala akong pakialam dahil nakapikit rin naman ang mga fans niya. "It hasn't been that long Since I was the one on your arm I don't like being sober That's when it hits me it's over Although it was my choice I can't shake your calm voice Saying you found one T

Bakit dahil natatakot ka na ikakahiya kita o madi-disapoint ako sa ‘yo? ‘Noah, miss na kita, I miss you, I wanted to be wild and free kasama ka pero wala ka naman dito.’ ‘Noah I already drunk 20 glasses of different alcoholic beverages, and you know what, there’s no better drink that I've tasted, other than you.’

Nakatapat sa harap ko ang kamay niyang may dalang shot ng hindi ko alam. I'm not yet drunk, I'm still so sober. And I'm not so dumb to just accept drinks that could be spiked from strangers. "No, thank you." I said in a plain voice. I don't want to be rude pero hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko. Hindi ba nila napapansin na mag-isa lang ako? Meaning, I wouldn't want anyone bothering me. Can't they take unspoken aura? I want to be alone. What's so hard to comprehend there?

Fuck! Damn!. Shit! [ Insert Background Song ] Someone You loved by Lewis Capaldi I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to save me This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy I need somebody to heal Somebody to know Somebody to have Somebody to hold It's easy to say But it's never the same I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain

Their precious one as they said. But what should I do? Pagod na ako. Pagod na ako sa false hopes. Pagod na ako sa buhay na mayroon ako. They should admit it... my sickness isn't curable. Isang malaking himala na lang talaga kung bakit buhay pa ako hanggang ngayon. Masyado ba akong selfish sa hinihiling ko sa kanilang kalayaan? Masasabi pa rin bang selfish ako kung ayoko ng makaramdam ng labis na sakit?

Wala na akong pamilya na uuwian o hahanapin man lang kapag nangyari iyon. I’m all alone. This loneliness is slowly eating my sanity that I wished to just die without a trace. Pero… Hindi pa ako nagkaka-lovelife so I can’t die without losing my virginity. Unfair iyon sa pagkababaȇ ko! “Wishing star, wishing star, hindi naman halatang naniniwala pa rin ako sa iyo hanggang ngayon, ano? Kung may plano ka pang tuparin ang wish ko, gawin mo na!”