I Wish You Were Sober นิยาย & เรื่องราว

I miss the warmth of your hug and the sweetness of your kiss But when it comes to returning, it seems vague Because all my shortcomings, none, have been filled by others I did everything! I gambled despite knowing I was going to lose. I spent all of my time with you. Just to make you feel that I love you that way. But it appears you don't have everything. Of my challenges. I wish we never met again. I wish I wasn’t with you anymore. You have injured me. I wish I do not love you anymore. I would not have awakened from a wonderful dream. If only I could be ill in the morning. 'I would not have embraced your fake appearance. As if I had not been hurt by your knife. But everything appears fine w

sagot niya at para nanaman akong matutunaw. “Lasing ka pa rin ba hanggang ngayon?” biro ko, pero agad siyang umiling. “No,” sagot niya, this time in a serious tone. “I’m just… finally sober enough to realize that I don’t want to lose this, i mean… you.” Napatingin ako sa kanya, and for a moment, everything just stopped. The noise around us faded. The city lights outside blurred. Parang kaming dalawa lang ang tao sa mundo.

I don’t want to suffer the same feelings again. Ayaw kong matakot. I don’t want to be nervous again. I don’t want that toxic feeling again where I always crave for someone I can not always see. I don’t want to feel uneasy every day. I don’t want the poison. I just want to stay peaceful. “Bumalik na pala si Sam? Kakausapin mo ba siya?” Kira asked. Inis ko siyang nilingon. We are busy for the campaign and yet she’s asking this.

Bakit hindi ka pa namatay na gago ka? Nasipa ni Felix ang paa ng kama dahil sa galit. "Ahhh fuck you! Nasipa niyang muli ang kama dahil nasaktan siya at parang iyon ang taong kinaiinisan. Ngunit sa halip na mabasawan ang inis na nadarama ay nadagdagan lamang dahil sobrang sakit na ang paa niyang tumama sa matigas na bagay. ... Sa isanc coffee shop si Jason dumiritso at doon naghihinay ang ka meeting niya. Nakilala niya ito last year sa ibang bansa at naging kaibigan. "Kumusta?"

Ngumiti ako sa kanya at tumango. "Everybody deserves to be happy. Everyone deserves to change," napahinga ako nang malalim nang maisip ko kung anong sasabihin ng kambal kapag nalaman nilang pinapalakas ko ang loob ng kaaway nila, sa tingin ko hindi nila ako mapapatawad. "Clean yourself, you don't need to sleep with someone just to feel happiness. You said may mental condition ka? Nagpapagamot ka pa ba? "

Napatingin ako sa kisame ng apartment namin habang nakaunan ako sa sarili kong braso. Yes, I don’t want to be engaged in any media platforms but I meant it what I said earlier. Hindi ko gusto ma damay sa mga gulo ng showbiz dahil gusto ko ng peaceful na buhay pero kung sasaktan ako pati ang kaibigan kong nanahimik, I’m going to enter that fucking door of showbiz just to clear out things. I’m kind but hell knows what kind of person am I whenever I lose my cool.

Sa paglipas ng mga araw mas lalo lang siyang nahuhumaling dito at hindi niya alam ang gagawin kapag natapos na ang tatlong buwang usapan nila. He may really be insane, but he was wishing to be with her forever. “Bakit ba hindi mo na lang tanggapin ang iniaalok ko? Mahirap ba talagang gawin iyon? Mas mapapabuti pa ang lagay ninyo ng kapatid mo,” aniya.

Hindi ko na rin alam. “When I became sober… I’d ask questions that you’d never answer. I’d fight myself to not hate you, kahit ang hirap-hirap nang magtiwala sa’yo… sa inyong lahat.” My lips started trembling. Yet I could still feel the desire to have and hold him.

But now that I am sober, na-o-OA-yan ako sa naging reaksyon ko. "Bakit hindi? Hindi ko rin naman siya maiiwasan, Ryla. Magkikita at magkikita kami. Mag-uusap at mag-uusap kahit pa iwasan ko iyon ngayon. Trust me, I can do it."

Chapter 14.1 A lot of people say that alcohol could only make you forget for a short time. Pinapalimot ka lang saglit, tinatanggal lang saglit 'yong sakit na nararamdaman mo but once you're sober again, the pain is still there. Hindi nawala. But who cares? Even if it would only take a day to forget the pain I have right now, I'd take the chance. Gusto kong malasing ngayong gabi at makalimutan ang lahat ng problema. I want to get wasted and be the person that I'm not. Ngayong gabi, I'm not Sheena. Hindi ako Revamonte. I'm just me.