Romans & histoires I Wish You Were Sober

naputol na wika nang binata. “May mga desisyon ako sa buhay ko na ngayon gusto kong pagsisihan.” Wika nang dalaga saka napatingala. “Naisip kong, I really did act like a spoiled brat. Sarili ko lang ang iniisip ko. Marami akong nasaktan dahil sa mga naging desisyon ko. Ang mga taong mahal ko at mga taong nakapaligid sa ‘kin. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko para itama lahat nang iyon. Kung patatawarin ba nila ako sa pagiging makasarili ko.” Wika nang dalaga.

I live my life for you I wanna be by your side in everything that you do And if there's only one thing you can believe is true I live my life for you "R-Rexx..." Oh, I've built my world around you And I want you to know I need you as I've never needed anyone before "I know we already married Wife, but... But honestly, I can't stop myself thinking that maybe... Maybe someday you would leave me, kaya ayokong mawala yung mga nakasanayan ko ng gawin sayo, just let me do it whatever makes you happy wife. Because seeing your smiles makes me happy too.."

Antok na antok kong sabi ngunit matapos kong sabihin 'yon ay tila nabingi na ako bago pa man lumabo ang mata ko ay kusa itong nagdilim. HINT: "I-I wish I stayed beside you before it's too late, but I d-don't know if you're happy there. You'll reunite with her, I'll stay strong for you. Like how you wanted."

Bakit ang daming problemang dumadating sa akin Gusto ko lang naman ng kapayapaan Gusto ko lang matakasan lahat ng sakit at hirap “Abo? Andyan ka pa ba? It’s me Clout, please respond to me.” Para akong naubusan ng lakas ng mga sandaling iyon. My life is so messed up, pwede bang ibalik ko nalang ito?

Wish I could be the one The one who could give you love The kind of a love you really need Wish I could say to you That I'll always stay with you But baby, that's not me You need someone Willing to give their heart and soul to you Promise you forever Baby, that's something I can't do Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need But that would be a lie I know I'd only hurt you, I know I'd only make you cry I'm not the one you're needing

I will go, go, go Lately, I've been, I've been thinking I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier Even though I might not like this I think that you'll be happier, I want you to be happier Then only for a minute I want to change my mind 'Cause this just don't feel right to me I want to raise your spirits I want to see you smile but Know that means I'll have to leave Know that means I'll have to leave Lately, I've been, I've been thinking I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier So I'll go, I'll go I will go, go, go Yes, I want him to be happier. Even if he was in somebody else. Note edited

Umiling siya. "Stop this nonsense, I don't love you anymore." It hits me hard. This is the words I needed to hear right? Para tumigil na ako? Umalis na siya sa harapan ko at bumalik na sa studio. Now Playing: Still by Jeff Bernat "It's been a long time since we last spoke I still wonder what you're up to After all the shit we've been through And I've been spending a lot of time drinking and smoking Hoping to subdue

’ dasal ko. Gusto kong igalaw ang katawan ko para itulak siya palayo at tuluyang linawin ang lahat. Ngunit bago ko pa man magawa iyon, inilapit niya ang mukha niya sa mismong tainga ko. Natigilan ako nang marinig ang pabulong pero nanginginig niyang boses. “Don't be sober, Kian... I am s-sorry... I need to do this to you... And please... forget everything tomorrow...”

My contiguous past. I know, tingin ninyo na sa akin ay isang masamang ate. Well, ano naman? Hindi nakamamatay ang tingin kaya okay lang. Binilisan ko ang pagmamaneho para makarating na sa paborito kong bar. Drinking is my medicine to forget. Since then. *****

asik niya saka tumalikod at iniwan ako. She’s just drunk kaya kung ano ang mga binibitiwan niyang salita. How I wish she didn’t meant what she said when she gets sober. Ayokong kainisan niya ako lalo na’t hindi naman talaga totoo ang mga pinaparatang niya sa akin.