Is Jealousy A Sin Novels & Stories

he sighed, “I’m sorry.” I didn’t answered him. I know when he’s sincere and when he’s not. At ngayon, alam ko sa tono niya ng galit pa rin sa bagay na hindi niya naman naiintindihan. I can’t believe how jealousy can make him so narrowminded and almost murderous! I know he isn’t sorry. I know he isn’t at all! At parang mas lalong piniga ang puso ko nang mapatunayang… hindi nga talaga…

Kay lapit pa rin ng mukha niya sa akin, damang-dama ng labi ko ang hininga niya maging ang hininga ko sa labi niya. “The truth is, I’m jealous…” Hinihingal niyang pag-aamin. “I don’t want you to be with any other guy rather than me, ako lang Sittienor…Please baby don’t make me feel jealous again, if this will happen again, I’m gonna kiss you in front of that guy for him to realize that you belong to me, you’re mine only, baby…”

Pilit akong pinapakalma. "I'm jealous, Elio. My insecurities are killing me. She's too pretty, too sophisticated, too elegant, and maybe smart! Ni hindi ko nga siya ka lebel. Nakikipagtalo pa ako sa namao mong asawa dahil sa insecurities ko," I muttered softly, my head bowed as I nervously played with my foot.

I think I'm wet. "I won't be easy to you, baby. Remember that there is always a consequence for making me jealous. Jealousy, and I'll take your sanity away with me." He continued and my knees weakened. Fudge. Should I make him more jealous? Oh heck.

Mas matagal ang pinagsamahan nilang dalawa kumpara sa kanila ni Hellios, At kahit ayaw niya ay hindi niya mapigilan ang insecurity na unti-unting pumapasok sa puso niya. Jealousy comes from insecurity. The more insecure you are, the bigger the jealousy. Like a wound that festers, it never heals but grows bigger. Your body hurts as if the wound covered all of your skin. Jealousy and insecurity are two deadly combinations. Nang makarating sila sa ospital kung saan naka-admit si Bianca ay agad na bumaba si Hellios. Ni hindi man lang siya nito nilingon at dire-diretsong pumasok ng ospital. Lakad takbo ang ginawa nilang dalawa bago makarating sa kwarto ni Bianca. Parang ayaw na tuloy niyang pumun

mahinang tanon nito habang nakatitig pa rin sa kalangitan. Tumingin siya rito. “Yes.” Pero inaamin niya, hindi niya maiwasang mainggit para sa taong tapos na ang oras sa ibabaw ng mundo. Ang mga alaala nito ay na sa isipan pa rin ang dalaga at malaki pa rin ang parte nito sa puso ng dalaga. Is it bad to feel jealous towards a dead man? He feels so jealous and he doesn’t know why. Is he falling for her? Hindi naman tanga si Lucifer para hindi malaman kung ano ang kanyang nararamdaman. He perfectly differentiate between love and lust.

Naiinis kong tanong. "I'm jealous." What?

Kumunot na rin ang noo ko nang maramdaman na tila tinutusok ang puso. I smiled bitterly. "I'm jealous. What are you going to do about?" I asked the same question he asked. "Magpapabugbog? Ihaharap sa babae na iyon at ipamukha na ako ang reyna?" Natawa ako nang mapait. Hindi ko namalayan na tumutulo na rin ang luha ko. Shit! This jealousy is a scary thing. "Anong laban ko roon? Maganda siya. Maganda rin ang hubog ng katawan niya. At—"

I am not kind. I get angry. I have done evil things. I have… manipulated things to make it go my way. I have… cursed every person I hated… I was never kind, and I was never a good person. I have done evil… does that mean, I deserve to live in hell? I am not complaining nor protesting at the current things being thrown at me. The judgements, the accusations, the bad things they throw at me, the… sin I had done… all of it… and being in this certain situation right now, makes me feel… that I deserve it.

"Are you thinking that I might do something bad to her dahil lang nakasama mo sya?" Inis syang napangisi. "Oo. Kasi gano'n ka naman, 'di ba? You always do the things you want without even thinking carefully. You always do things that I never expected you'll do. Ano'ng malay ko? Baka kung ano ang magawa ng pagseselos mo." His words clenched my heart, but I kept a straight face. "I'm not that kind of person. I will not do anything bad to a person just because of jealousy."