My Heart Is Hurting Mga Nobela at Kwento

Really now! But it hurts! Bigtime!

Bakit ako sobrang nasasaktan kung hindi ko na siya mahal? "Aless—" "No!" Pigil ko at binaklas ang kanyang kamay na akmang hahawak sa akin. Mabilis na pinahid ko ang aking mga luha at mabilis na nilisan ang silid na iyon. I don't feel love...but I am hurting...I don't feel pity, but I was shaken. What's happening to me? ©️charmaineglorymae

Nanatili pa rin kaming nakatayo habang nakatingin sa isa't isa. Two heart aches standing in the middle of the rain. Stay strong, Eloise. You have nothing to lose now. Nasaktan ka na. Ano pang mas malala roon? You already cried your heart out praying to God to at least ease the pain. You begged for it. “You always hurt me… Why do you keep hurting me?” hindi ko na mapigilan ang mga butil ng luha na umagos. Pain slashed across his face. “I-I'm sorry..”

Pag papaalam ni Dos ngunit hindi ko sya inimikan hanggang sa umalis na siya. Dinig ko din ang mayat mayang pag ring ng cellphone ko kaya naman galit ko itong ibinato sa kawalan at hindi manlang ito nilimot. My heart is in pain. Maaari pala iyon? Na madurog ka sa loob ng wala pang isang oras.This is too much, i don't deserve to be treated like this.

Sa sobrang gulo ng mga ito ay para akong mababaliw. It’s just more tormenting how I can feel my pain physically too. It’s tormenting how my heart aches every time I cry so hard that I feel like my heart is going to burst and I’m going to die. It sucks that my thoughts make me want to rip my head open. Kinuyom ko ang mga kamao ko at nagmakaawa na sana ay kahit kaunti ay mabawasan man lang ang sakit na nararamdaman ko.

I stopped mid sentence to breath because my heart is hurting so much. "This is hard for me too. I'm hurting so bad. Sa ngayon ang kaya ko lang muna ay lumayo. Kapag nagkaroon na ako ng pagkakataon, makikipaghiwalay na ako. I promise that." Saying those words broke me. Tears automatically swelled up in my eyes. The idea of it, just the mere thought of it, me breaking his heart, is already torturing me. "Okay. Anong gusto mong gawin? Inom na lang tayo?"

Pero habang hinahabol ko ang hininga ko ay maas lalonngn tumitindi ang sakit na nararamdaman ng puso ko. "Hindi na mababago ang nangyari. Just like how the aftermath cannot be undone. You broke me and it crushed me into a million pieces. Pinagsisisihan kong minahal kita, " kalmado ngunit puno ng diin niyang bigkas. His words hits me more like insults adding more pain to my injured heart. I closed my eyes and slowly, without thinking much, I kneeled on the floor.

Really hurts but the pain in my heart is the most painful. "T-tristan..." Mahinang saad ko sa kaniyang pangalan kasabay ng nga luhang naghabulan na kumawala sa aking mga mata, hindi ko na kaya ang sakit na mas nakakapag-pahina sa akin nagdidilim na ang paningin ko, pilitin ko mang imulat, kusa na itong sumara. *__________Everthing went black_________*

Hindi siya yung taong kumakanta para purihin ng mga taong nakikinig sa kanya, kumakanta siya upang iparating yung nilalaman at nararamdaman ng puso niya. “Heavy thoughts when it gets late, put me in a fragile state I wish I wasn't going home, dealing with it on my own.” he kept singing. Kusang tumaas yung isang kamay ko, I placed it over my right chest kung saan dama ko yung kirot, diniin ko ang palad, marahang napahaplus, it was really hurting. I was just listening to him pero naiiyak ako, sumisikip yung dibdib ko habang patuloy na pinapakinggan siya, ang lungkot niya, sobrang lungkot niya, he was still in pain and I was so afraid that I am part of that pain… Ni ‘di ko namalayan na tumulo n

Someone they say that drinking can passed away your pain. Mariin akong napapikit nang makaramdam ako nang hilo. Isinandal ko ang likod ko sa leather sofa nang club habang nakapikit pa rin. Wala akong ibang maramdaman ngayon kundi pagod, hilo at sakit. Napakuyom ako ng kamao ng maalala ko kung bakit ako nagla-lablab ngayon sa loob ng club. It's never wrong to fall for someone even when you know they will only break your heart. It's hurts like even the pain reliever can never take away my broken heart cause it's not just physically hurt, I'm also hurt emotionally.