Songs About Insecurity の小説・ストーリー

" I bit my lower lips at ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko para damhin ang kanta. "Now the day bleeds Into nightfall And you're not here To get me through it all I let my guard down And then you pulled the rug I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved.." Mariin kong kanta dahil sobrang sakit nang nararamdaman ko. T-ngina ang corny ko tignan, para akong teenager na broken pero hindi ko na kaya pang itago 'yung sakit. "I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to turn to

Parang parrot, dada ng dada. Hindi dahil sa ayaw niyang marinig galing dito na insecure siya kasi hindi naman talaga siya insecure. Ayaw lang talaga niyang banggitin nito iyon dahil naaalala niya si Gian. “What are you saying? I’m still insecure? Matagal na kong naka-move on, ‘no! Duh!” Inikutan niya ito ng mata at tinanggal ang kamay niya sa pagtatakip sa bibig nito.

That I can make my name without a man It's like you have a fetish For copying me any way you can From the shows, to the clothes To the quotes, to the boyfriend You can take his cash But you're still the cheaper version You can make believe that you're the bigger person Pretend you're not talking shit online with your friends Tweets and receipts won't stay behind the curtain You think you won 'cause you got the man But honey, you'll always be a fan You'll always be a fan You'll always be a fan You'll always be a fan You'll always be a fan Kill 'em with kindness The truth always comes to light No need for trying When God's timing is always right Right? Why don't you calm down You can't help it

At yan ang isa pa sa kinaiinggitan ko sa kaniya. I am totally insecure, I won't deny that fact. Kahit sabihin kong mas maganda, talented, mayaman ako sa kaniya ay naiinggit at naiinsecure pa rin ako dahil lahat nakukuha niya without even doing any efforts. Minsan nga naiisip ko na sana... sana ako na lang siya. Ngunit sino lang ang niloko ko 'di ba? Niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko.

Wala sa sariling napahawak ako sa pagkababae ko habang kagat ang labi. What if he's written 'mine' on my upper thigh Only in my mind? One slip and falling back into the hedge maze Oh what a way to die. My bedsheets are ablaze I've screamed his name Building up like waves Crashing over my grave Without ever touching his skin. How can I be guilty as sin? Ayan nanaman ang kanta ni Taylor swift na ilang araw ko na rin pinatutugtog.

At ngayon nga, nagagamit namin ang boses niya. “Now that it’s all said and done, I can’t believe you were the one, to build me up and tear me down like an old abandoned house…” I chose this song entitled “Over You” by Daughtry. And Raizel was sensitive right now as if I was singing it for him. “Walang personalan ito?” “Ay bakit, guilty?” panghahamon ko. “Hindi.” He shrugged. I eyed him. I didn’t expect him to shrug it cool. It was as if he was hiding something.

Kung hindi lang talaga dahil sa panloloko sa akin ni Julius na ang kapal pa ng mukha dahil best friend daw niya si Mae pero siya rin pala ang tinatago niyang karelasyon, hindi naman siguro ako magiging ganito ka-paranoid. Doon yata nagsimula lahat ng insecurities ko. Yung feeling na kahit anong tibay ng tiwala ko, pwede pa ring gumuho sa isang iglap. Yung sakit na akala mo safe ka sa taong sinasandalan mo, tapos biglang siya pa ang sasaksak sa’yo.

--- At may kung anong kumirot sa dibdib ko. --- Dahil malinaw na marami silang pinagsamahan. --- Mas marami kaysa sa akin. --- Mas matagal. --- Mas malalim. --- At sa unang pagkakataon... Nakaramdam ako ng insecurity. --- Drake's POV I can literally see her overthinking. --- And I hate it. --- Because I know that look. --- She's building walls again. --- The same walls I spent days breaking.

"Walang nananatili." "Lahat umaalis." Biglang sumikip ang dibdib ko. Dahil alam kong totoo iyon. Sa likod ng yaman niya, marami rin siyang sugat. Marami ring insecurities. Marami ring takot. At siguro... Isa iyon sa dahilan kung bakit siya nagiging possessive. Takot siyang mawala ako. Takot siyang maiwan.

Ang buong akala ko ay mayroon ng namumuong kahit katiting sa akin dahil nagbago na siya pero isa lang pala iyong akala. Ramdam kong may progress na, inamin ko na na may kunting nararamdaman na ako sa kanya tapos biglang… It was all nothing. Gusto kong ipagtanggol ang sarili ko base sa kanilang mga tinatawag sa akin pero pinili kong manahimik na lang. Wala naman na akong magagawa kung iyon nga ang pinaniniwalaan nila. But my insecurity eats me. Humigpit ang kapit ko sa silya na nahawakan ko—iniisip kung naging masama ba ako sa kanila pero wala akong maalala.